I have been in the hospital a dozen times in the past 10 years for a burst appendix, hernia, gallbladder, and 2 ICD's ( pacemaker/defibrillators ), plus A-fib, and just this weekend kidney stones. I have diabetes,CHF, gout, and had a malignant tumor hear my eye removed, the size of a raisin. I have had almost all of these thoughts.
I was given 6 months to live in 2001. Not much to say at that point. You don't think of being sick at 27, much less not going to make it till 30. Then they send you home a week later, and you get a $125,000 bill, and then 30 more from every doctor who saw you, and you are thinking of how to pay for it, when you think you only have 6 months left.. well 5 and 3/4ths . You spent the week in the hospital.
I made it the 6 months, and a year later was diagnosed with diabetes. They sent me to counseling, but never explained the disease, and I struggled with it for 7 years. I got a hernia in 1996, and waited 10.5 years to get it fixed. In December, 2006 I had a lot of pain in my stomach, and they checked me for a hernia, and it was visible. They scheduled an MRI to make sure it was the only issue, and I went Christmas shopping before the MRI. It hurt to walk, so I rode the cart, and every bump was excruciating. When I finally got the MRI in the afternoon, my appendix had burst, but formed a pocket, which prevented it from poisoning me. As a diabetic, I had to do 12 weeks of antibiotics, then have it removed, then wait 1 month and have the hernia surgery. At this point, I finally got Medicaid, since I was out of work for 8 months.
After having an ICD put in in 2004, I had gone back to work, but in 2010 they put in a new one, and on my sixth try, finally with a lawyer from the hospital, I got disability.
I don't think that healthy people ever stop and think about these things. You should make plans for things to happen before they do. When you or a loved one are sick, or dying ( my brother died from Crohn's in 1999 @ 26, and my mom in 2000 from cancer after 2 years of fighting@ 56 ), you do not want to be thinking about finances, or paying the bills for the month from a hospital bed. You want to be thinking about what is important.. health and recovery.
Secondly, stop and thank a nurse. They really do work 12 hour shifts, and are 99% of the contact you have to answer your questions. I have had some pray with me, and others who helped me do some basic bodily functions while I was unable to use the bathroom, or even stand. They cannot be paid enough to do what they do, and most do it with a smile, while making you feel as comfortable as they can.
Last of all, if someone does get sick, don't pity them. Listen to them, and help them in their recovery, but in the end, they may just live longer than the 6 months they were given, and for me at least, I didn't like feeling that every person was thinking I was a dead man walking. I planned on living, but felt I had to make others feel better about it, even though I was the one who was sick. They were planning my funeral. I felt as though I had been dismissed from life.
I loved the video. It points out what is really important in life. The "problems " we face in day to day living are not really problems. They are life. Many people wish they could return to the time when they had these trivial problems to worry about.
Just so I end with something to lighten the mood. I had a heart cath, and they make you sign a paper that says you understand there is a 2% chance of death. You read, then sign, and the nurse asks if you have any questions. My question was " Since 1 in 50 die, have you done 49 successful ones today? " She laughed.
Edited by: RUSSELL_40 at: 5/22/2013 (09:45)
Russell - current BMI 28.6
197 - bmi 30 - done
164 - bmi-25
| current weight: 181.0