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7/10/11 6:17 P

I definitely feel better about how I look on the outside and how confident I feel on the inside, when I work out. A confident woman is sexy according to my husband!!!

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7/9/11 12:23 P

You GO, girl!

This year I'm going to reach my goal. I think the problem with last year (earlier this year) ... I tend to think of "years" as beginning and ending with my husband's visit..... I hadn't reached my goal. I knew I wasn't going to reach my goal by the time he got here. And so I was feeling like I'd failed.

I didn't consider the 50 pound weight loss as WINNING.?!?!?!
But I didn't.
So I slipped.
I started feeling sorry for myself.

This year, I'm feeling stronger.
This time, I'm taking it slower.
This time, I'm looking at it as a lifestyle changer.

I've battled weight my entire life. This time, I'm going to be the victor.

It's time that I got to a weight that I feel comfortable getting my freak on.

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7/9/11 11:58 A

What a bummer that he lives so far away, but what good motivation for the time you have away!

When I have the weight on me, and I am being inactive, I don't feel good about myself. This makes me less likely to initiate because I am very self conscious. When I am working out and feeling good, well then I feel good. And that always leads to good things.

Which is why I am going to get in a good workout today!

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7/9/11 8:32 A

I will be the first one to admit ... even though my husband TELLS me that he loves me no matter what weight I'm at ... (doesn't that make you want to hug him and slap him at the same time????) ....I feel more self-conscious since I slipped and put back on the weight.

Of course, I only have to worry about it 3 weeks out of the year, because I'm living in MO and he's living in South Korea ... LOL ... that gives me a HUGE AMOUNT of time between the last time he saw me naked and the next to make some major changes!!!

I had plans for his visit in 2011 -- which sadly already occurred. In 2010 I had lost 50 pounds BEFORE HIS VISIT ... but in the months leading up to his visit FEB/MAR/APR ... I managed to put ALL of them back on. WHY? WHY? WHY?

Yes, I want to lose this weight so that I'm healthier .... but a HUGE part of me, wants to lose this weight so that I FEEL SEXIER. I don't want to have to hide under the covers with the lights off and the shades drawn ... I want to feel comfortable and secure enough that I'm sporting a smokin' body that I don't have to hide it and feel ashamed.

So there you have it ... my deepest darkest secret .... NOW SPILL!!!

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7/9/11 8:25 A

(with a build up like that ... it needs to be good!)



How has being overweight and out of shape effected your sex life?
(OMG! Did she REALLY go there? YES, I DID!)

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