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9/18/14 6:25 A

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My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering compulsive over eater and addict I was sober yesterday.

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Plan of Action

Pray
Do self-care
Shower & Dress
Do Voice Exercises
Call Phil
Submit Meal Plan
Send report/gratitude-words
Make at least 2 out-reach calls
Make at least 2 out-reach texts
Attend 9:45 meeting, be of service
Attend Noon time meeting, be of service
Work on SAA homework


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/17/14 6:33 A

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Good morning

My names Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater and addict. I was abstinent yesterday, but I felt like it was just barely. I felt compulsive and rushed when I was eating. I have been just generally feeling unwell as of late, been having some new pain. I have released a few pounds, my blood sugar has been pretty darn good so I am not sure what is causing it. I need to get in touch with my NPC that I see, I am not very confident about it though. Very nice guy and I like him a lot but living in small town I am getting small town care. We usually attribute stuff to my current conditions, however we don't do very much to check for anything new. I live kind of far away from a major “city” not that we really have them in Maine **chuckles** but I am going to have to figure something out, ill pray for guidance. Sticking with my routine serves me very well and that’s a lesson I am taking to heart today.

Plan of Action

Pray
Do self-care
Shower & Dress
Do Voice Exercises
Call Phil
Submit Meal Plan
Send report/gratitude-words
Make at least 2 out-reach calls
Make at least 2 out-reach texts
Attend 9:45 meeting, be of service
Attend Noon time meeting, be of service
Work on SAA homework

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/16/14 6:47 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE and addict, I was sober yesterday.

I think I got up on the wrong side of my new bed this morning, life is throwing some curve balls at me this AM and I am rather grumpy. I was sober yesterday, the temptation and cravings were strong, I white knuckled it.

I have found that structure and routine are paramount to my recovery, when I follow a routione my day seems to go better than when I don’t'. Weekends are a challenge for me currently I need to look at what I can do differently. Five days a week I go to bed early in the evening, and get up very early in the morning. Saturday and Sunday are my days off so my bedtime/rise time changes. I'll pray for guidance and see what changes I can make. If I leave things up to chance or “I'll do it later” most of the time I lose that coin toss and later never comes.

I am already starting to feel a bit better about my day, the sky is an interesting mix of gray and a slight pink hue.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Send Report/Gratitude-Words of Encouragement
Pray, text Phil have my breakfast
Pray,text Phil when I am done my breakfast
Find my prayer book and pray
Read Voices of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 page in AA Big Book
Make at least 2 out reach calls
Make at least 2 out reach texts
Attend 9:45 Phone meeting, be of service if I can
Work on SAA homework



" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/15/14 5:50 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE and addict I was abstinent/sober yesterday

Plan of Action

Pray
Health Self-Care
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before and after meals
Text Phil before and after meals/snacks
Make 2 out reach texts
Make 2 out reach calls
Attend a meeting
Practice my Voice Over Scripts
Do my Voice Over Exercises
Locate my Voice Over Book
Read 2 pages in the Big Book

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/13/14 8:24 A

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My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive over eater and addict. I was sloppy for the 2nd day in a row but I was abstinent.

I could feel the control slowly slipping between my fingers, not that I think “IM” in control, I know that I am not. But by not doing as much for my program as I should I could feel myself drifting away, when I do that things start to slide.

I started my day off right with prayer, I will work to get a meeting in today, and follow my action plan.


Plan of Action

Pray
Health Self-Care
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before and after meals
Text Phil before and after meals/snacks
Make 2 out reach texts
Make 2 out reach calls
Attend a meeting
Practice my Voice Over Scripts
Do my Voice Over Exercises
Locate my Voice Over Book
Read 2 pages in the Big Book

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/12/14 6:56 A

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Good Morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering Compulsive Over eater and Addict. Despite being a little bit sloppy I was abstinent yesterday.

I was truthful with my sponsor about my behavior and he said it was sloppy and not something I can be doing all the time.

I am learning quickly that the tools of the program are, well I will say just shy of a requirement in my opinion. Daily meetings, phone calls, being of service, writing, being in the books and the work is the only way this program works for me. It takes a daily action plan with the actual action to back it up that makes a huge difference. I once head a speaker say "I don't stay fit on yesterdays workout, I don't stay fed on yesterdays meals, so how can I stay sober on yesterdays program" I never realized the significance of that until now. I am glad I finally learned that lesson


Plan of Action

Pray
Read Daily Readers
Read 12/12 on Step 3
Do VO warm up exercise's
Called Phil
Submit Meal Plan
Send out Report and Words of Encouragement
Respond to emails
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Attend 9:45 OA Meeting
Look for a SAA meeting or speaker file
Do SAA work my sponsor gave me
Practice my VO Scripts
Read 2 pages in The Art of Voice Over

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/11/14 6:25 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE and addict. I was sober across the board yesterday

I had some moments of temptation where I picked up a condiment sitting next to me and I was going to have a “taste” There was no particular reason the urge just hit me, I picked it up and thought what the heck am I doing, the 2nd time it happened I didn't touch it, after that I took it downstairs and put it away where it belonged. The lesson I learned is to put it on my food in the kitchen then put things like that away.

I was tempted in my Non-OA program to pick up but fear and program kept me sober. The fear of getting in trouble with the law is very fresh in mind, I do not want to go through that. I have realized I need to be in program, DAILY, my disease does not take a sick day, or vacation, day off or anything else, nor can I. That’s been a challenge for me in the past if I don't feel well often times program and other things fall to the way side.

I started today off strong, I got up very early and started working on my POA for the day.

I did most things I would have put off until “later” For Today summed it up for me

For Today: Whatever I want to begin doing, I will do today because tomorrow is too late

This has been something that I was aware of for a while but I didn't KNOW IT, if that makes sense. The same thing applies to needing to be in program daily, first and foremost. I was aware of this but I didn't KNOW It until yesterday, I am very grateful for that

Plan of Action

Pray
Read Daily Readers
Read 12/12 on Step 3
Do VO warm up exercise's
Called Phil
Submit Meal Plan
Send out Report and Words of Encouragement
Respond to emails
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Attend 9:45 OA Meeting
Look for a SAA meeting or speaker file
Do SAA work my sponsor gave me
Practice my VO Scripts
Read 2 pages in The Art of Voice Over


Listen to two voice over actors and write why I like them, email to my coach

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/10/14 6:26 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE I was abstinent yesterday


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Attend phone meeting
Work on step homework for both programs
Listen to two voice over artists
Listen to News Casters
Read 2 pages in VO book
Practice Scripts for
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/9/14 6:48 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater. I was sloppy today and not abstinent. I actually feel pretty good about that today. Not that I am happy I was not abstinent, but because I learned something and with reaffirmation from my sponsors I know it to be true.

I cannot be trusted when it comes to dishing out food. If its a bowl of broccoli yes I can be trusted because I don't like it *chuckles* but when it comes to something I like I will add more 9 times out of 10.

My meal for yesterday called for 1 cup of what I was eating. I put the cup in a small bowl, and then proceeded to freak out because of how "small" the serving looked. That bowl along with my other meal components were MORE than enough for me, yet I was filled with this irrational fear that it wasn’t enough, next thing you know i am SHOVELING more out of the pot into my mouth as fast as I can. I knew at the time I was engaging in compulsive behaviors, I even stopped to acknowledge that, then I kept right on shoveling.

That lesson was solidified this morning when I stopped at the store to get my daily morning energy drink. I only need .75 cents if I am going to get that, so taking my whole wallet or more money than .75 is unnecessary. If I only take a few precautionary actions my days would go so much smoother. I told my sponsor this morning I feel like a child not being able to serve myself at meals, or having someone else serve out what I am eating. 99% of the time if my meals are proportioned and ready to eat I grab what I need and go about my business. The simple act of portioning out myself puts me into another frame of mind. My sponsor explained that portioning is not childish its mature. Thats my ego driven self-will rearing its head. Today I will work on meal planning and portioning things out to avoid compulsive moments

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Read Daily Readers
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read 2 pages in 12/12
Read 2 pages in BB
Read 2 pages in VO Book
Practice 2 scripts from homework
Listen to 2 VO Artists and write why they are good
Do VO exercies

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/8/14 6:49 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday

Sometimes its hard to include the word grateful in that sentence because I do not "feel" grateful when I am writing it.

Sometimes I have to look words up to remind myself exactly what they mean, this morning I looked up recovery and the following is what it said

Recovery

1. an act of recovering

2.the regaining of or possibility of
regaining something lost or taken away.

3.restoration or return to health from sickness.

4.restoration or return to any former and better state or condition.

5.an improvement in the economy marking the end of a recession or decline.

That all makes perfect sense, especially #2. I often cringe when writing "I am a grateful, recovering COE" because I don't feel grateful and I don't feel like I am recovering because I am slipping or relapsing. But if I look at it as the possibility of regaining something lost or taken away, then I am indeed in recovery.

My mind is often my greatest enemy, or the voice of my disease that infects my mind is my greatest enemy.

I feel like I did when I first came into program: lost, confused, broken, disillusioned, however somewhere inside of me is strength as well.

When I got my 1st year coin in AA, the friend I chose to give it to me was also my Tai Chi teacher and someone I respected and valued very much. I cannot remember exactly what he said but I do remember he said he had never seen anyone fail their way to success like I was doing. He knew of my struggles with addiction in general, but everyone morning I got up and I kept coming back. I have pretty much done this for the 4 years I have been in program. There have been a few days here and there I pulled the covers over my head and kept my head in the sand, but for the most part I keep coming back every day. I believe that is worth something, and it is my HP working through me even when I don't realize it or have closed myself off from him.







I came to a realization over the weekend after speaking with a dear friend in program (thank you A.)
We were talking about my addiction issues and they had asked me about my other program. I was instantly filled with fear and shame and would not talk about it. I have a hard time talking about it with people who are in that program, so the thought of talking to someone outside of it terrified me.

Although I am not able to say the words out loud I feel brave enough to say that I have issues with sex. Like food my behaviors with sex constantly push the boundaries and I keep doing the same things over and over again, and for the life of me I could not figure out why, until now.

HALT is something we all know (Hungry,Angry,Lonely,Tired) I actually changed it to SALT for my own purposes (Sad,Angry,Lonely,Tired) hunger plays a small part in things for me and I do not discount it, but SALT is usually at the core of my issues.

When I am not feeling SALT (which is most of the time) I feel numb. I used to think I acted out in order to numb out those feelings (which I probably did) but I realized that I actually use in order to feel something, to feel alive. I feel all my emotions very strongly EXCEPT Joy and Happiness, those a both fleeting and rare.

When I engage in my addictive behaviors I am flooded with an excitement and happiness that I do not normally get in my everyday life. Its a contradiction because after I engage in my behaviors I feel such shame, loss, anger, disappointment that it is never worth the payout.

It did feel good to come to the realization as to why I do the things that I do, I know I am an addict and I am sick, but to know I keep doing these things that shame me so much because I am looking to feel something aside from the normal pain I feel, it's like finding that missing piece of a puzzle that had been stopping me from making major progress

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Get Allergy Shot
Do a meeting or speaker file
Read 2 pages in 12/12
Do VO Exercises
Read 2 pages in VO book
Practice one of my scripts, listen to lesson files for help
Look at 1 VO Page


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/5/14 6:03 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday

I am still struggling hard with my other program and that bled into my OA program. I had extra food over what my meal plan called for, it was a scoop here or an extra wrap there, the bottom line is that it's not what I planned for.

My goal for today is to sit down and meditate, pray, and seek answers as to whats driving my behavior. Sitting here now I am not sure what is "wrong" I just know I am struggling badly and I need to figure out why.


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Write Report/Action Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make at least 2 outreach calls
Make at least 2 outreach texts
Attend 945 phone meeting
Be of Service
Read Daily Readers
I will Catch up on my reading in the 12/12,
I will catch up on my reading for my other program
I will work on determing what emotions or events are driving my current addictive behavor.
Read a chapter in my VO book
Listen to session and practice scripts
Do VO Exercises
Listen to other news people and VO actors

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/4/14 7:04 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent with my food yesterday, I am still struggling badly with another program I have, and that leaves me with feelings of shame.

I am not putting program at the top of my priority list. There are days I am not able to make a meeting, then there are some days like yesterday when I could have attened but I let someone else come before it. I will attend the phone meeting this morning and not let other things come before it.

Plan of Action
Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read 4 pages in 12/12
Work on homework in my other program
Read at least 2 pages in book on co-dependency
Read a chapter in my VO book
Listen to VO session & Practice Scripts
Listen to news casters, listen to my session from 7/19.14
Work on cleaning up my area

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/3/14 5:01 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/afer meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Attend 9:45 meeting, be of service
Read OA daily readers
Read 2 pages in 12/12
Listen to VO session and practice script
Read Chapter in VO book
Check out VO website, listen to boston newscasters

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/2/14 6:17 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering COE I was abstinent with my food yesterday

I continue to struggle with aspects of another of my programs which throws my entire world out of whack. I was abstinent however it was a not a peaceful and serene abstinence, I hung on by my fingertips.

I did attend a phone meeting, my first in a week or more. The longer I stay away from phone meetings the less helpful they seem, however as soon as I attend one it all returns to me.

Developing habit and schedule have always been things have eluded me in the past, I just feel like I am not one of those people who can pull it off, then again I felt like I was not one of those people who could be abstinent either, yet I have done it.

I will pray for the strenght to develop and work a schedule/habit to the best of my ability, I need to remember when I do things like this, life is better

Plan of Action
Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 out reach calls
Make 2 out reach texts
Attend 9:45 meetings, be of service
Read Daily Readers
Read 2 pages in 12/12
Read 2 pages in my VO book
Watch VO documentary
Practice Script
Listen to VO Lesson

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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9/1/14 9:23 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read OA Daily Readers
Read 2 pages in BB
Read 2 pages in 12/12 to continue step work
Listen to past news cast
Read VO Blog
Listen to professional news casters
Prep radio show for the weekend
Read Chapter in VO book


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/29/14 6:07 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

For the first day in a while I was 100% sober across the board, it was challenging especially at the end of the day but it felt good to fall asleep whole instead of fractured.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Attend 9:45 meeting, be of service
Read OA Daily Readers
Read 2 pages in BB
Read 2 pages in 12/12 to continue step work
Listen to past news cast
Read VO Blog
Listen to professional news casters
Prep radio show for the weekend
Read Chapter in VO book

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering COE and I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 4 outreach calls
Make 4 outreach texts
Start next chapter of 12/12 for step work
Read Daily Readers
Read Chapter in VO Book
Listen to session
Listen to news from 7/19
Listen to wbz news casters
practice script

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/27/14 6:06 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering COE and I was abstinent yesterday

Not a bad day in all, I am still not feeling well and I am getting sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am taking my meds as I am supposed too. I am trying to stay as hydrated as I can, get as much sleep as I can, and take other actions to help keep myself physically healthy. Yet certain health issues still plague me, and I do not believe they are weight related.

I am growing tired of calling my DR, well Nurse Practitioner only to be told to go to the clinic. Its the same crap over and over again, either they say to go home and tough it out, or they give me antibiotics and send me on my way. The symptoms seem to get worse with each episode and I am not happy with the care I am getting. I am just unsure what action to take, what tests do I ask for? What can I do to find a solution? If the people I depend on for care aren't taking it seriously or don't have any answers it leaves me in a difficult situation. I realize I live in a small town, I realize they are busy but got dammit its my life and health we are dealing with. I will pray to my HP and see if any answers some while I try to figure out what to do.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals

Make 4 outreach calls
Make 4 outreach texts
Start next chapter of 12/12 for step work
Read Daily Readers
Read Chapter in VO Book
Listen to session
Listen to news from 7/19
Listen to wbz news casters
practice script
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday however my behavior was slippery.

A taste of something here, and extra little something there. I pushed the boundaries of abstinence without breaking them and I realize I cannot continue to do this or I will binge/slip again.

I am doing step work with a sponsor today, this will help me move forward. I also need to do the work in another program that my addiction is running wild in.

I now see the connection between all my addictions. If 3 of them are under control so to speak, and one of them is running rampant then I am blindly treading on thin ice. Well not blindly anymore, not I realize that if one thing is out of order they are all out of order. I cannot be at peace physically, mentally, and spiritually if one of my demons is tormenting me. In the past the why has eluded me, I could not figure out why I was so miserable because 3 of my addictions were quiet, I guess I did not give the 4th one the respect it deserve, I under estimated it.

Today I will work to bring peace and harmony to my life working the program, using the tools and doing my action plan


POA:

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make at least 2 outreach calls
Make at least 2 outreach text's
Do BB study with sponsor
Read daily readers
Listen & study news cast that coach said was good
Read over scripts and practice
Edit lesson to be used for practice
listen to 2 news casts of Boston website
Read VO book
Do meditation
Look over and do breath/ VO exercises

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

submit meal plan
call phil
pray before/after meals
text phil before/after meals
make 2 outreach calls
make 2 outreach texts
read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB and make up pages
read chapter in VO book
listen to boston news casters
practice scripts
attend meeting or listen to one

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/21/14 7:21 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

I have to admit I don't feel very grateful today, not that I don't appreciate what I have; I am just still struggling, white knuckling it.

I have not felt this way for a good long time now, that feeling of faithless, hopeless action. I did not enjoy this stage when I went through it the first time, I sure as hell don't like it now. I guess its a good refresher that no matter how much time you have long or short some things never disappear fully and may come back to haunt at some point.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Read Daily Readers
Read 2 pages in BB
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Be of service
Read VO Scripts
Practice VO Scripts
Read Chapter in VO book
Listen to News station


PS: the irony of Quiet Riots Mental Health playing as I write this is not lost on me *chuckles*
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/20/14 7:05 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a compulsive over eater. Yesterday was the first time in a long time I willfully, deliberatly broke my abstinence. I was struggling off an on through the day, I prayed, made some outreach calls. Last night things came to a head and the feelings were overwhelming and I gave in to multiple addictions. I had not felt like that in a long time. I have struggled over the last year but have not had deal with that debilitating almost uncontrollable painful urge to just give in.

Initially it felt so good like a huge weight had been lifted off me, I actually felt more at ease and at peace, for about 5 minutes until the shame and self loathing started. Todays another day

Plan of Action
Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Do a phone meeting
Read Daily Readers
Read in VO book
Read 2 pages in BB
Listen to Boston Newscasts
Practice Scripts
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/19/14 6:23 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday.

Little things mounted up into major things which led to to compulsive behavior. At the base of everything is the uncomfortable feelings of dealing with one of my addictions. Abstaining from this addiction is causing uneasy feelings that mount more and more everyday. The last week or so I have noticed a heightened consciousness of all of my addictions and the thought of indulgence. Its only food I have acted out with.

I will pray and put more work into my programs today to help combat these feelings of unrest and uneasiness. It feels like there is a savage battle raging just under my skin, I can feel it now as I sit here writing this , this nervous energy that almost seems to make my body vibrate, its feels like anti-excitement, instead of being fun an anticipation its dark, foreboding and I can't even think of the other word I wanted to use.

I have felt antsy and full of explosive destructive behavior the last few days, I have thought about doing things I have not done since I was in my 20's, just causing havoc for my own amusement. I was able
to identify that while it was happening and with the help of my Higher Power keep my head about me instead of doing whatever I wanted .


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 out reach calls
Make 2 out reach texts
Attend 9:45 phone meeting
Read 2 pages in BB
Read Daily Readers
Read chapter in VO book
Edit VO session files
Practice one script
Listen to Boston News Station

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday


Plan of Action
Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Daily Readers

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/15/14 6:30 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE. I was abstinent yesterday

I am having a good morning, started doing some exercies at work. I did some pushups and did a few laps around the floor our office is on. At first I got caught up in the number I was doing and how it should be higher. Then I settled down and will just focus on doing what I need to do. Each week I will add 1 pushup, I will do at least 2 laps and probably more as I did this morning. I will keep adding laps as time progresses.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Daily Readers
Read 2 pages in BB and 12/12
Read a Chapter in my VO book
Practice my scripts for tomorrow & listen to last weeks lesson


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/14/14 6:37 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday. I started to say that I was but in reality I wasn't. I did great most of the day stuck to the plan. I started working with a sponsor in another program last night, we talked about defining sobriety in it. it was uncomfortable dealing with the issues that addiction brings up. We discussed abstaining from behaviors for a period of 30 days. I had a snack before bed which I did not report in. Reflecting back on it now I think I was upset over the restrictions the new program put on me so I ate over it. I did not realize it at the time, it was not until right now I realized that.

This is going to be a long, painful journey as I work to untangle this addiction from my life, I will need prayer and working with my OA sponsors, and support from my 12 step brothers and sisters to stay on point.

Plan of Action
Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Read 2 pages in BB & 12/12
Make 2 out reach calls
Make 2 out reach texts
Read a chapter in my VO book
Practice my scripts from last week & listen to lesson

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/13/14 6:36 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday. Had a good day, connected with some new people via the phone meeting so that was nice, I can never have enough program contacts :)

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Do phone meeting today
make 2 out reach calls
make 2 out reach texts
read daily readers
read 2 pages in 12/12 and BB
reach chapter in my VO book
listen to last weeks VO session and edit it for usage
check out Boston news site

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/11/14 6:15 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Read Daily Readers
Get Allergy Shot
Attend 9:45 Phone Meeting
Read 2 pages in BB & 12/12
Read Chapter in my VO book
Listen to Saturdays Lesson & Practice
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/9/14 7:23 A

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my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday
It was an interesting day yesterday, I got my car back to the tune of $320 which kinda bummed me out initially, it seems like there is always something to spend money on I cannot get ahead.

Then I realized I am grateful the garage fixed it, I am grateful they let me take the car with no money and they allow me to make payments. If it was not for them I would be sunk so I didn't dwell on it long and I was very grateful.

My day kind of took a dark turn in the afternoon. A friend of mine who I kind of knew over the years, he worked at a local grocery store I frequent, we would talk and shoot the breeze anytime we saw each other. I liked him he was a soft spoken really nice guy. One day he was just gone from the store and I did not see him for a while. We later connected through facebook and then started hanging out. He is a lot younger than I am but we come from similar background filled with abuse, he battles his own addictions as well. I like him, his wife and kids are all great. I spend as much time with him as possible, its a good sober environment for me to hang out in. He is not in program but I do talk to him about stuff from time to time, I try not to push it on him, last night he slipped up and threw away 4 months of sobriety. He called me on the phone and told me he was drinking and driving around, I told him to get home and I would be right there. When I got to his house he was not there, to make a long story short he had an accident and went off the road. When I found him he was in the woods, the police and ambulance were already on the way, he was just slumped over in his car. They got him out and to the hospital and thankfully he was not hurt. It was very sobering to me to see the consqeuences of indulging addiction, granted mine are a bit different and the consequences are not always so sudden and in your face, but it shook me up the none the less. I sat with the family and watches all the pain they were going through, it was hard to watch but I was there to do my best to support them which I did. This was a wake up call for me, and it let me know I need to start taking care of my own business before I have my own “accident” I don't want to have a heart attack, or lose any toes or my feet due to diabetes. So far both of those things have been good and under control, however getting back into the food will lead me down a dark and deadly path that I might not recover from

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Do a phone meeting today
Read 2 pages from BB and 12/12
Get with my sponsor about continuing step work
Read a chapter in my VO book
Check out news site

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to say still feeling not that fantastic but I got up and got to work today. My car broke down yesterday which just seemed to add to the pile. I have to admit I was pretty p***** off yesterday. It seemed like one thing after another on top of not feeling well. But in the grand scheme of things I survived, I didn't over eat all ended well

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Read 2 pages in BB and 12/12
Read my Daily Readers
Make 2 outreach texts
Make 2 ourtreach calls
Attend 9:45 Phone meeting
work on some homework I was given
Check out 1 VO Website
Practice my Scripts
Read VO Book


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE I was abstinent yesterday

Still battling whatever it is wrong with me, I am hoping to be able to move past it tomorrow and get back to work, I cannot afford to be out much longer

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan
Pray
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil Before After Meals
Do 9:45 phone meeting
Do Daily Readers
read 4 pages in BB and 12/12
Read my Voice Over book as much as I can
Check out news site
read over scripts for weekend, practice if voice allows

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good afternoon

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

I've been sick a few days and I have been slacking on my program. I am getting my report done, I have sent in my meal plan, I will call my sponsor, I am about to attend a program meeing, I will reach out to others, I have already made a few program texts. I will read my daily readers and reach two pages in the BB and 12/12. I will also pray, these are the actions I will take to get back on track



" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good afternoon

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

I've been sick a few days and I have been slacking on my program. I am getting my report done, I have sent in my meal plan, I will call my sponsor, I am about to attend a program meeing, I will reach out to others, I have already made a few program texts. I will read my daily readers and reach two pages in the BB and 12/12. I will also pray, these are the actions I will take to get back on track

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good afternoon

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

I've been sick a few days and I have been slacking on my program. I am getting my report done, I have sent in my meal plan, I will call my sponsor, I am about to attend a program meeing, I will reach out to others, I have already made a few program texts. I will read my daily readers and reach two pages in the BB and 12/12. I will also pray, these are the actions I will take to get back on track


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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday. It was a weird weekend, not really bad just weird. I was totally out of my recovery mode, I didn't binge but my meals were all over the place on Saturday, I had an extra meal that I didn't plan on because things were so disorganized and out of place. I don't count Saturday as a abstinent day for me, I can't even really pinpoint why, I didn't do anything unhealthy, like I said it just felt like a mess and not much recovery was involved. On a positive note I did see a fantastic movie Saturday with my nephew called Guardians of the Galaxy it was AMMMAZZZZZINGGGG. I loved it, probably the best movie I have seen in years. I got to go on a fun yet harrowing 4 wheeler ride. We ended up in some of the worst conditions I have ever seen **chuckles** granted I am new at this whole thing but still it was something else, were it not for the bugs that binged their butts off on me I might have been able to enjoy it. However I seem to have what they want and they were after me in full force, my buddy said I had a cloud of them following me, I got chewed up pretty badly. Suffice to say I was happy to get home and swore I would not go for another ride anytime soon, then I got up yesterday morning and felt the itch to ride go figure **chuckles**


Plan of Action

Start my day with prayer
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Make 2 outreach emails
Get Allergy Shot
Attend 9:45 phone meeting
Read 2 pages in BB/12/12
Read Daily Readers
Read my VO book, determine how many pages I will have to read a day to finish by Saturday
Listen to Last Weeks lesson and practice script
Read new script and try and analyze
Listen to News site
Check out one new VO website

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/1/14 9:05 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Submit meal plan
Pray
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Voice of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 pages in my BB
Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up
Check out 1 VO site
Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts
Get out and walk around the block

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/31/14 6:24 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

My day started out rough as I faced some of my demons I have been avoiding for a long time now. I made contact with a program that has scared the hell out of me because that addiction has played a huge roll in my life and almost defined who I am. I felt like a newbie walking into my first meeting ever, I didn't know what to say, how to tell my story I felt totally lost. I met a couple of good people who shared their ESH with me, despite being scared I know I made the right choice. There is only one more program I need to get into and my addiction circle will be complete, I will have addressed all my addictions. It feels good to take action. I spoke to a person who totally destroyed their life living in addiction. All they have left today is program and they are fully immersed in it pretty much 24 hours a day 7 days a week, more so than anyone else I have ever met, that was very profound to me. It is helping shift my thinking and make program the primary focus of my life as it should be.

Plan of Action

Prayer
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make at 2 out reach calls (shoot for 4)
Attend a meeting however I can
Read 2 pages in BB, 12/12
Read Daily Readers
Read 10 pages in my VO book
Practice my script 3 times, listen to lesson from last week
Check out 1 VO site (news station)
Put my papers into plastic sleeves and build the binders I need for daily use
Get out and walk for 10-15 minutes (around the block)
Pray before bed

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/30/14 6:11 A

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Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to say today, I have been off my meeting plan I need to get them in, I am working on getting a schedule in place, I may not hit a meeting everyday but my goal is at least 3 a week.

I will also work to accomplish all the goals on my plan of action, but I will forgive myself if I do not get all of them accomplished.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Pray
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Do 9:45 phone meeting if I can get home in time
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Voice of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 pages in my BB
Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up
Check out 1 VO site
Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts
Get out and walk around the block

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/28/14 6:00 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was going to say I was abstinent yesterday however I did have a soda in the afternoon under the guise of low blood sugar. I was starting to drop it had been a while since I ate and lack of proper planning had my lunch long over due. I could have grabbed anything else to help with that but I “wanted” a coke and make the excuse to have it I am grateful my HP helped me see the dishonest in it and be truthful this morning because I wasn't going to be.

Phil had warned me to be on the lookout for such behavior after the birthday party self-will incident.

Not much else to say, my weekend was well. Had a great Skype meeting yesterday, I am grateful to those who showed up, great recovery shared.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Pray
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Do 9:45 phone meeting if I can get home in time
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Voice of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 pages in my BB
Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up
Check out 1 VO site
Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts
Get out and walk around the block

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/27/14 11:23 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a compulsive over eater, I was not abstinent yesterday. I was at a birthday party for my nephew, and when it came to the time where there is a certain food that is served at these types of functions I decided I would have some.

I was served and I only had that section, but the compulsive anticipation while I was watching it being passed out was like a lion waiting to pounce on a unsuspecting animal.

I did not pray about it, nor did I contact my sponsor to ask his input I made the choice myself

I did not feel bad yesterday, I was proud I only had once slice, but if I could have had more I would have.

Today I am ashamed that I just decided to take my will back and do what I wanted


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Chair skype meeting
Read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB
read 2 pages in 12/12
read 2 pages in my VO book

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/27/14 11:21 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a compulsive over eater, I was not abstinent yesterday. I was at a birthday party for my nephew, and when it came to the time where there is a certain food that is served at these types of functions I decided I would have some.

I was served and I only had that section, but the compulsive anticipation while I was watching it being passed out was like a lion waiting to pounce on a unsuspecting animal.

I did not pray about it, nor did I contact my sponsor to ask his input I made the choice myself

I did not feel bad yesterday, I was proud I only had once slice, but if I could have had more I would have.

Today I am ashamed that I just decided to take my will back and do what I wanted


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Chair skype meeting
Read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB
read 2 pages in 12/12
read 2 pages in my VO book

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/24/14 7:08 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting, be of service
Reach 5 pages in my VO book + 5 make up pages
Read 2 pages in the BB
Read 2 pages in the 12/12
Listen to voice lesson and practice scripts
Check out 1 VO page

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/23/14 6:24 A

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Good morning
my names is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting, be of service
Reach 5 pages in my VO book + 5 make up pages
Read 5 pages in the BB

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/22/14 7:10 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to report, I am recovering nicely from my 4 wheeler incursion. I may have not mentioned it yesterday, Sunday I was out to my buddies house and wanted to take the wheeler for a spin. I went down a trail I had been on with my buddy only once, I was going up a small stream bed and did not realize where I was going, I hit a drop off probably at foot or so keep, it all happened so quickly that I didn't realize I was in trouble until my wheels dropped down and I went mostly up and over the handle bars.

Amazingly enough I only had a few bumps and bruises, I tell ya it was pretty startling to realize that your butt is coming up off the seat and you are going airborne. I feel pretty good, I am not in as much pain as I thought I would be, I can feel it a little bit in different spots but overall I feel good.

The last few days the message I have been receiving is pretty much a given but one I have not really been appreciating and that is being in the program everyday.

It doesn't take a rock scientist to realize that unless I am in program, in the work on a daily basis I, well won't be in the work/program everyday. It never ceases to amaze me how easy it is to forget this simple, fundamental lesson. I am grateful for the daily readers while remind me of the lessons I am most in need of when I need them

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting, be of service
Reach 5 pages in my VO book + 5 make up pages
Read 5 pages in the BB
Read 5 pages in the 12/12
Listen to voice lesson and practice scripts
Check out 1 VO page

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/21/14 6:30 A

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**food mentioned**

Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, pending a discussion with my sponsor ill figure out if I was abstinent yesterday. My food was good, I didn't properly plan and execute my meal plan so it left me feeling shaky from low blood sugar while I was at the lake mid-afternoon. My buddy had a can of coke which I had to level myself out. I should have prepared snacks and had my lunch at the right time, actually I didn't even have lunch yesterday. There was so much going on it never happened. I will focus on planning better in the future to avoid these types of situations

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Attend 945 phone meeting
Read Daily Readings
Read 20 pages in my VO book
Listen to VO session from Saturday
Check out 1 VO website
Listen to News Sites and Radio Personality’s
Prep music for next weekends show

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/18/14 5:57 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not a bad day overall, did not get as much done as I could have, I will be vigilant about that today
I am falling back into old patterns as far as women and dating that I will discuss with my sponsor, I am stuck in a loop that seems to repeat itself in a never ending cycle.

I emailed a moderator for the phone meetings I attended and asked if I could be a phone moderator. There are not abstinence or time in program requirements. They are full at this time but I am going to be a back-up moderator


Plan of Action

Prayed
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting
Be of Service
Read For Today & Voices of Recovery
Pick up my Voice over Book and just read
Catch up on Emails
Read the Flylady for beginners list
Practice my VO script for the weekend



" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/17/14 6:54 A

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Good morning
My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday
I had a decent day yesterday, my food was good, my mood was good.
I went to my buddies on Tuesday night and we did about 2 hours of 4 wheeler therapy, it was amazing, I high recommend it to everything, if you have access to a 4 wheeler and you are having a rough day get out and go for a ride it will change your mood real quick
Some of the places we went were quiet and beautiful, you could tell people just generally don't come there aside from riding through.
I had to work through some fear in some areas where we had to go down steep hills and places that just looked bad **chuckles** I was fearful that being a big dude I would tip the wheeler over at some point, but it didn't I even had to race up a pretty steep hill that gave me pause, but I made it up with ease. The longer I rode the more comfortable I got with it

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Sent report and words/grat
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting
Read 20 pages in my VO book
Read Daily OA readers
Check out http://www.flylady.net/ to help get organized
Check out 1 VO webpage
Use my Journal to write about how I am feeling, things I need to get done

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/15/14 6:07 A

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**Food Mentioned**

Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday.

I totally lost it yesterday, I ended up in the drive-thru of a place that everyone runs on, originally I was after a smoothie however the food porn on the board swayed my judgment, I ended up with a drink that was not a fruit smoothy but a liquid cookie flavor, and what better to go with that than 2 things with holes in the middle?

I really didn't give a s*** at the moment, and at the time it actually made me feel better, until the guilt set in.

I didn't mention it to anyone because I was ashamed and went about my day like nothing had happened.

Truth be told I have been off balance for a couple of weeks now. I have an overwhelming desire to eat, aside from the fact I am a sick compulsive over eater I am unsure why. The urge has not been this strong in a long, long time. I have not broken down and gone to any other drive thoughts, or indulged in a certain food that comes in a square box and is a round shape.

I feel like I am losing my got d*** mind. I have been praying for help, making out reach calls, going to meetings, reading literature. I came across a few readings yesterday, or the day before I cannot remember now that REALLY spoke to me. They talked about a relationship with my higher power and how he would be strong when I was weak and carry me through.

I desperately want that, I have prayed, cried out, cried, begged, pleased for that. I feel like I am not doing something right, to be honest at this point its really p***** me off. How much begging do I have to do before my HP, I don't even know what I expect, my hp's image is that of my best friend who passed away. When I talk to God, I talk to my friend Jeff. I feel so cut off and alone, I am taking the actions that have been suggested by my sponsor, it seems the more I do the worse I feel, I have not felt this bad in a probably a year, at least not sustained like it is. The depression is back, the suicidal thoughts are back, its like WHAT THE F*** I am doing what is suggested and I am getting this? It wasn't until right now I realized exactly how angry and upset I am about the whole thing. its been simmering below the surface and I knew something was wrong, I just didn't know what. I know when I talk to Phil he will tell me to pray and meditate on it.

I have to be honest at this point I have very little faith in prayer, I have been praying for help and taking actions and I get nothing, not that I am looking for a gift or gold star but a little frigging help would be nice. I guess while I am being rigorously honest I am about 2 steps away from saying F it, I am miserable in program and miserable without it. At this point its hard to see a difference between the two. Somewhere inside I know there is, but I cannot see/feel/access that right now. My therapist recommended I use a “thought log” to write down how I am feeling, I guess that s what I am doing.

Although I appreciate the kind words people usually leave after a post like this I am not seeking attention, only sharing what I am going through in the hopes perhaps someone else can relate, I am not sure if my intention is for them to not feel alone, or for me not too. Despite all the people in my life, all my friends, family, my 12 step family, loopies, sparkers and everyone else in my life. I feel isolated and alone. I am not hiding in my room like I used to do, I am getting up everyday and going out and doing it, yet I still feel alone.

Plan of Action

Pray (when I wake)
Submit meal plan (6am)
Call Phil (6am)
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Refresh step 2 in 12/12 (7-8)
read pages 83-88 in BB (7-8)
Read Daily Readers (7-8)
Read 20 pages in my VO book (8-9)
Check out 1 website (9-930)
Attend 9:45 phone meeting (945-1045)
Listen to VO my lesson from the weekend (11-12)
Make 2 outreach calls (12-1)

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/14/14 5:43 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

It was a strange weekend, Saturday I had this unending hunger most of the day, I am not certain as to why. I found myself wanting to eat all day long. Saturday night I was leaving a friends house, driving home I suddenly became very tired, like cannot keep my eyes open tired. I got home and felt dizzy and disoriented and went up to bed. I had a hard time getting my self situated to get into bed but I managed to get the job done. When I woke up Sunday morning I felt horrible, like I had not slept in days, I was still dizzy and disoriented, I canceled my step work meeting and the Sunday Skype meeting and spent most of the day in bed. I got up mid afternoon and felt a bit better but still a bit dizzy and disoriented and not at all rested.

I feel the same this morning only not as bad, I am going to make an appointment with my DR, I am not really sure what he can tell me from the symptoms but its worth a shot.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make out reach calls
attend 9:45 phone meeting
Read program material
Read 10 pages in my VO book
Check out 1 VO website
Look over Music to add to show
Check in at work about music logs
Check in at work about promoting concert


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/10/14 10:16 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
listen to speaker file
read program material
practice VO script
read VO book
check out 1 VO page or watch video

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/9/14 6:18 A

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**Food Mentioned**

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday. I took my nieces swimming and then got them something at the local dairy bar.

I had a small milkshake, but I did not plan for it nor did I text my sponsor and let him know what I was having for a snack.

It is not something that is a trigger food for me, yet the compulsive side of me was afraid I not get permission to have it so I deceptively just didn't clear it.

Things like this are an ever present reminder that I have come so far but I still have a ways to go.

The rest of my day was well food wise. I took positive actions by attending a phone meeting and making out reach calls. I was not present and pray before each of my meals, I did give thanks afterwards. I will be mindful of this today. I had a great day hanging out with my nieces.

I am going to discuss some things with my sponsor regarding my "romantic" life as it were. I tend to get distracted by women and dating. I honestly have no idea how I will be able to remove that distraction, but then again I never thought I would not be eating pizza either, anything is possible

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 Eastern Standard Time Phone meeting (712-432-5200 pin: 836731#)
Read 100 pages in my VO book
Read program materials
Read 1 VO webpage
Make time with Phil to do my step work
Practice VO exercise
listen to last weeks session and practice scripts
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/8/14 6:12 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

I have not really been feeling that great lately. I've been feeling stuffed when I eat. I have not been eating more than I put down if anything I eat a little bit less. I am still in a "mood" I have gotten away from my daily program routine, I will get back on track this morning

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Read program material
Make outreach calls
Do a phone meeting @ 945
Read 50 pages in Voice Over book
Read 1 web page
Watch Video Tom Sent
Practice Script
Meditate for 5 min
Do VO exercises
Get out and walk for 5-10 min
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/7/14 7:20 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I didn't feel like I was abstinent yesterday, but I didn't do anything that I shouldn't have. I am in a horribly bad mood today, I have been for a few days now. Yesterday was a really sad and odd day. I had harmful thoughts most of the day, I went for a drive down to my sisters and kept eying telephone polls and wondering if I could hit it hard enough to not survive the crash, with my luck I would and then be paralyzed from the neck down *chuckles* I have no idea where it came from. Last week I was flying high, so much so that I wasn't sleeping very much and I felt fine (well mostly) this weekend has shifted hard into the other direction.

I think part of it was there was someone who was interested in me, and despite my better judgment I spent some time with them. Nothing bad happened, they are stuck deep in addiction which just reminded me the difficulties of dating up in my area. A lot of people have been drifting in and out of my life as of late, I guess that is frustrating to a certain degree. I crave attention and affection just like any other drug. I think I was literally flying high last week, and once I realized how things would inevitably end up and how I just cannot be involved with someone using I crashed.

On a more positive note after some very loud, very very angry music I am starting to feel a bit better *chuckles* I would ask why life cannot be simple, but I already know the answer to that.

The only things within my control today is sticking my plan and doing the work.
Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make outreach calls
Do 9:45 meeting
Read program materials
Read my VO book
Check out 1 site/video
Practice my scripts
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/4/14 6:14 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Had horrible using dreams last night, thankfully I woke up and I am still abstinent, I will be on guard today

Action Plan

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend an online meeting
Read program literature
Check out a VO website
Read in my VO book
Practice my scripts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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i now have at least three places i can live in by next month or sooner. things are definitely looking up for me.

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7/3/14 5:15 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

Plan of Action

Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Do 9:45 phone meeting, be of service & share

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Check out 1 VO page

Work on sales script for work

write email about new music I wish to add

Practice VO scipts
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/1/14 6:00 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering COE I was abstinent yesterday. Not much to say this morning, yesterday was a decent enough day, I have been staying up late and not sleeping well, the heat also does not agree with me; however I am getting done what I need to with the assistance of my HP

The deeper into recovery I get the small my world seems here. So many people around me are locked in battles with their own demons. Many are having a "Good" time and do not want anything more, which is fine it is their life, their choice. It just makes the world a bit of a lonely place, I am also romantically lonely. I am taking a bit different road however, normally any port in the storm would describe actions to just not feel lonely, I am choosing to not do that. I feel good about that however it does little to lessen that feeling of being alone. No matter how much out reach I do, how many meetings, how many friends I visit, that feeling just never goes away. I am not eating over it, I do not want to eat over it; its just weighing on me a lot lately


Plan of Action

Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Do 9:45 phone meeting, be of service & share

Go see about volunteering at a local nursing home

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Check out 1 VO page

Work on sales script for work

write email about new music I wish to add

Practice VO scipts

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/30/14 5:58 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday.

I let myself get a little too comfortable and wrapped up in what was going on. It was very warm here yesterday and I was grumpy most of the day. I did not feel like eating my full lunch due to the heat so I only ate a portion. This caught up with me later on in the day and I had more to eat, had I just texted my sponsor and let him know what I was doing it would have been alright, but being a COE, and apparently because I had been on going as of late I must have felt like I was competent to make those calls myself, which should have been a HUGE red flag but it wasn't.

I will talk with my HP and ask to have the character defect of arrogance removed on a daily basis, and ask that next time I reach out before making choices myself.



Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Go see about volunteering at a local nursing home

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Check out 1 VO page

Work on sales script for work

write email about new music I wish to add

Practice VO scipts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/28/14 11:58 A

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Good morning, my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

I was very happy to share with my sponsor yesterday about 15# weight release I had recently. I had been holding on to about 10# for the better part of a year now, up and down, up and down. Finally when I started taking the right actions and following program/suggestion/my HP plan things have started to change. I know we are not about weight loss or diet and calories, but this is showing me that what I am doing is working and it feels good to break below a certain thresh hold that I was stuck at.

Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Practice VO scripts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/27/14 6:40 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

I am beat today I went to bed extremely late last night and I am paying the price for it. I did get to spend some time at the lake with great company. I failed to accomplish a lot on my POA yesterday, I am going to correct that today by getting things done early to help ensure they get done.

Yesterday I did:

*Pray
*Submit meal plan
*Call Phil
*Pray before/after meals
*Text Phil before/after meals
*Do 9:45 phone meeting,

I did not:

Make 2 outreach calls
Listen to step 2 speaker and take notes
Go see about volunteering at a local nursing home
Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book
Check out 1 VO page
Work on sales script for work
write email about new music I wish to add
Practice VO scipts

PLAN OF ACTION for 6.27.14

Plan of Action

Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Do 9:45 phone meeting, be of service & share

Listen to step 2 speaker and take notes

Go see about volunteering at a local nursing home

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Check out 1 VO page

Work on sales script for work

write email about new music I wish to add

Practice VO scipts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/26/14 6:56 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

Had a good day

*I did a phone meeting & was of service at meeting,
*talked to folks on the phone
*read program literature
*read my VO book
*practice my voice work
*stuck to my meal plan
*called my sponsor
*prayed before/after meals
*texted my sponsor before/after meals


Today’s Plan of Action includes most of the things I did yesterday


Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Do 9:45 phone meeting, be of service & share

Listen to step 2 speaker and take notes

Go see about volunteering at a local nursing home

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Check out 1 VO page

Work on sales script for work

write email about new music I wish to add

Practice VO scipts
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/25/14 6:33 A

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Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE I Was abstinent yesterday

Had a great phone meeting yesterday at 9:45 Ill provide the info if anyone wants to join in.

712-432-5200 836731# Mon 09:45 AM For Today

712-432-5200 836731# Tue 09:45 AM For Today

712-432-5200 836731# Wed 09:45 AM For Today

712-432-5200 836731# Thu 09:45 AM For Today

712-432-5200 836731# Sat 09:45 AM For Today

712-432-5200 836731# Sun 09:45 AM For Today

Not much else to say, I talked made some outreach calls, read my literature, did a meeting, stuck to my meal plan, read my VO book, I didn't get to practice my actual scripts but I do work everyday so its practice in VO, I did not check out a website but I will work to correct that today by doing it first thing when i get home


Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Do 9:45 phone meeting, be of service & share

Listen to step 2 speaker and take notes

Go see about volunteering at a local nursing home

Read at least 15 minutes in my VO book

Check out 1 VO page

Work on sales script for work

write email about new music I wish to add

Practice VO scipts

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/23/14 3:18 A

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My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Had a pretty decent weekend, I didn't get as much accomplished as I would have like but I cannot change that, all I can do is work on fixing it.

Had a GREAT skype meeting yesterday, I am very grateful for everyone who attended.

Plan of action

start my day with prayer
submit meal plan
call Phil
pray before/after meals
text phil before/after meals
reach out to others by phone
Attend Phone meeting
Read Listen to speaker on step 2
Read voice over book 10 pages
Check out 1 VO webpage
Read VO Scripts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/22/14 10:03 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to report it was a decent enough day, had a great session with my voice coach, he says that although I have a long way to go he hears improvement

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Surrender and stick to the play
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make outreach calls
Attend Phone meeting
Read Listen to speaker on step 2
Read voice over book 10 pages
Check out 1 VO webpage
Read VO Scripts
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/21/14 8:29 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

Had a decent enough day, got a couple of great calls in with some people that have strong recovery. I was not able to get a meeting in but I will today.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Surrender and follow my HP'S plan for me today by following my plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Reach out to others via the phone
Read Program Material
Listen to speaker on step 2
Read 20 pages in my VO book
Practice my VO scripts
Read one VO website
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/20/14 6:09 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to say, I did a phone meeting yesterday, that's 2 days in a row I am working it into my everyday routine like it should be and I am making sure its a priority.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Surrender and stick to the play
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make outreach calls
Attend Phone meeting
Read Listen to speaker on step 2
Read voice over book 10 pages
Check out 1 VO webpage
Read VO Scripts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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6/18/14 6:28 A

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.
Not much to report I had a decent enough day, I did not get a meeting in as I was on the road, but I will fix that today. When I get home I will select a phone or Skype meeting to attend.

Its funny how life works sometimes. There is a little market down the street from my house that I frequent a lot. There was a guy there I used to say hello to every time I was in the store, real nice guy I liked him and he liked me, well as much as you can like someone you see for 5 minutes every so often *chuckles* Anyways I did not see him for a long long time at the store. His wife works in the deli and I talk to her frequently. He sent me a msg via FB the other day saying how he enjoyed listening to me on the radio and that I do a good job. I invited him and his wife to participate in my weekend show in some way. We got to talking and through the course of the conversation I asked him why I didn't see him at the store anymore. He explained he has some addiction issues he was battling and had to go to a place to get some help, he also said he could use a friend. Its great because I can use more "sober" friends, my circle is very small. He is a great guy and I like his wife so not only do I get to spend time with someone and do something I can in a way help him and myself out by being around people who are focusing on being clean. I don't think he is in any program at this point, but it still amazes me how recovery extends to all areas of my life.

Plan of Action
Pray

Submit meal plan
Surrender to my HP will for me and follow the plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make at least 2 recovery calls
Attend a phone or Skype meeting
Practice my VO stuff
Read up on 1 VO website
Practice my scripts
Listen to my last VO session

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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