Hi colormethin, (loved the nick)
Honestly reading what u wrote felt to me like I am reading my own journal. It seems like we have lots in common (I am also a teacher by the way). I am also an expert on excuses and beating myself up and finding reasons why I am alone and putting it all on my weight. It is liek the weight is everything but u know it really isn't right?
I have gone through a long process with myself starting to take all kinds of workshops (postivie thinkin, meditation) and really working on myself.
Honestly I am the happiest I have ever been even though I am the heavist I've ever been. I found out that all the cliches r true. For example if u come to a date feeling sexy, confident and happy your date wouldn't mind your extra x pounds. (It's true)
My love life is blooming I have gone on many dates all of them wanted to meet me on a second date and start a relationship with me. Is that a coincidence? Don't think so. I really believe in the power of thought. U r a teacher. u know that when your student fails what do u do? Do u tell him " Oh well, that was obvious, u'll never get it right, u r the kind of excuses etc?" Or will you give him a hug, love and kind words? Don't u deserve the same treatment? Be your own best friend. Would love to email with u more since I feel we have a lot in common.
as to exercise u really have to find something u enjoy
I just stopped my membership at the gym since I felt like I dont really enjoy it and I am looking for something new maybe dancing which I love.
be happy to be in touch
xoxo from Tel Aviv
| current weight: 247.0