Hey Guys -
John - sorry about your grumpiness babe! I hear you though. The grumpies get me all too often these days. You will have a better run tomorrow. And if not tomorrow, the next day.
And as for manipulating the system - yep - been there too. And I know all too well how much it doesn't work any more. My body is used to things, the only thing that I think is going to help is jolting it back into submission (taking a break from all food tracking and eating everything I wanted during marathon training when I could) and now I've cut calories severely again. So far so good, but it's Day 4. My issue is the same as Pookie's - hanging on through the weekends and doing this all over again next week, and then the week after and the week after. Because ultimately, I know that WILL work, but I don't have the same patience that I had at the beginning. Again - I'm sick of it. I'm sick of having to count and plan and track and I'm sick of not being "normal". And because I have done this to my body, I now have to live with this burden for the rest of my life. And that sucks. I will NEVER be able to eat what my skinny friends can, because I have damaged my metabolism enough that I will ALWAYS have to eat less. Boo.
So I want to gripe with other people who get how much it sucks to be in this long term, but who can still turn around and celebrate with me about the good stuff and the achievements that do and don't involve weight loss.
It's hard melding back into regular society. When you start Spark, you find THIS community, and in a way, they substitute for the real world of your family and friends and co-workers, etc. But eventually, you need to meld the two and go
back to normal" without going back to your old ways. Integration is a HARD business. Because while WE have learned what it takes to lose weight and keep it off, no one else around us has. So they think "hey great, you've been on a diet and you lost all this weight, so now you can come out with us and drink beer and eat fries again, right?" Um, not right.
So my challenge is with basically EVERYTHING right now. Learning how to be me and get what I need while not being like "this" forever.
"It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not" ~Anonymous
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." ~George Elliot
| Pounds lost: 106.2