I was doing SO good, but for some reason today I was stressed and had a bowl of ice cream, and some whoopers candy..didn't even really enjoy them, too sweet after being without it for the last week, but the stress won...back to it tomorrow
"Only You can help you. All you have to do is allow change into your life. Walking and calorie counting is not hard." - Jillian Michaels
Seems this is an older thread, but the previous posts are ringing true for me now. Yesterday, I made 3 trips to the vending machine at work (1 time, I bought 2 things). I wasn't hungry, just felt tired and lethargic...a sugar is going to help, right!?! Of course, that started after I had a brownie at lunch. After that, it was a free fall into the pits of sugar hell. I ate all of my calories, carbs and fats in the afternoon. I even went to different vending machines so no one would know.
I don't know why yet that I have shove sugar down my throat like this, but it is ridiculous and humiliating. My trash can looks like a bomb went off at the mrs Freshley cake factory.
I am going to restart the challenge and hope that I can get a handle on this mess.
Thanks for listening (or reading)... They say knowing you have a problem is half of the battle, but this other half of dealing with the battle is hard.
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Wow! Looks like I am not alone! I tried getting all the sugar out of my house, but that didn't stop me from ordering chinese and then topping that off with a candy bar and some cookies. Then last night, it was sliders and fries with a giant chocolate shake followed by three candy bars, box of cookies, and devil cake snacks. And I asked myself the same thing, Did I feel better? Then I prayed and asked for insight. It seems that I have been overeating since I was 7or 8 and that was because there wasn't any affection from my parents. Really. I would get it from my grandparents with food - the food made my feel special because they would fix things just for me. But since I feared my parents, I would go home and eat again so they wouldn't be angry with me. O, boy, this is a revelation! Affection and loneliness has been driving these terrible binges for all these years! Knowledge is only part of it - now I have to practice what I have been learning from sparkpeople!
Found courage and encouragement in everyone's posts ... glad I'm not the only one!!! Check out my blog from today! -- Brenda (blmhouston)
I was doing so well last week - 2 pounds lost, which is quite a miracle for me, feeling good, on track with Sparkstreaks, tons of water, running 3 times a week.... then Friday happened - and I apparently left the planet for about 24 hours. My daughter had a friend sleep over and we went out to eat then to Main Event for some bowling and fun. So at dinner I ordered a salad with no dressing. It came with dressing - but I was not that hungry so had a few bites and all was good. Then my husband - clearly not understanding the essentials of being a supportive spouse - ordered a massive platter of onion rings for the entire table. WHAT? So, naturally, before I even thought about it I had one whereupon my brain shut of. That was it - 9 onion rings later I started thinking again and realized what I had done. Ugh! So, one little slip up - no biggie I can handle this. Saturday morning I was back on track - suited up to run, little girls sleeping, had my oatmeal and non-fat latte... then they woke up. Pancakes, they both begged - with Bacon!!!! So, I made homemade pancakes and prepared about 6 slices of bacon - just enough for the 10 year olds, not enough to share with Mommy and Daddy. Perfect. But then there was just a little batter left ... just enough for a small pancake. Apparently my alter ego took over again and my real brain left the building. I was already done with breakfast! But I went through the motions of a 1/3 cup pancake... manageable. But then we had REAL Vermont maple syrup on the table --- two tablespoons is way to much for one little pancake. So I had another because the girls had not gotten to the bottom of the serving stack yet. And then they both only ate two pieces of bacon... well you can see what happened next. Oh well. No lunch for me! I never did run - other than errands all day. Then for dinner - our daughter was off to a sleepover and my husband arranged for a celebratory dinner... to congratulate me for my recent promotion. Lovely restaurant - ordered sea bass. All is good - but half a bottle of wine and a full bread basket later and I've now eaten a 2,000 calorie dinner.
Now it's Sunday and I am present and accounting for my last 30 hours and realizing a few things. First, I can't eat just one of anything decadent. As soon as I have one really unhealthy item my brain shuts off and I go into insta-binge mode. Second, that really these food items did not make my life any better.... the white bread from dinner was not all that satisfying. OK, the real maple syrup was probably worth it, but otherwise, my life is not better nor am I a happier person for indulging, rather, I am now regretting it and wondering how many days of careful eating and exercise it will take to make up for my little binge .... now to refocus and not let this become a permanent derailing of my efforts!
I know the feeling of falling off the wagon , when I start eating anything in excess I can't stop myself it seems to continue till it's gone. I fell off the wagon just last week with pizza and ate a whole pizza almost and gained this week but with the help of this group I didn't let it make me spiral down to something that could of been worse. Keep your head up and reach out just like your doing and you will get past this.
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People, it's been a HARD week for some reason! I have TOTALLY fell off the sugar wagon BAD for the past 3 days and tonite is a potluck!!!!! I WILL go to the gym tomorrow, that's not the issue......it's having that first little taste of sugar that spins me outta control! HELP!!!!!
Slow and steady wins the race!
Pounds lost: 44.0
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