I am using my brother's laptop for the moment, other than that I have no computer connectivity, so I'm still on a SparkBreak and am just stopping by to say a quick hello.
My sister passed away peacefully on Thurs, Dec 2 in Cheyenne, WY hospice at 10:15 am. I was holding her hand at the time so she did NOT die alone, and she was not in visible pain; two things I will always be grateful for. She was on heavy duty pain meds and liquid morphine. Docs don't like to trust laypersons at home with those kinds of drugs, especially dispensed to 3rd parties. And my sister needed care that could not be given at home. That afternoon I drove 70 miles to Wheatland, WY to stay at my sister's & BIL's home.
From Thurs - Thurs Dec 2-9, I stayed in Wheatland, WY. I did alot of cleaning, cooking, organizing, and throwing away of trash. Also cleaned out a huge fridge (reorg) and cleaned out a huge freezer (reorg).
While I was working in the rest of the house, my BIL bagged up a ton of my sister's clothes, most of which either didn't fit her daughters or they didn't want. Some of them were my size and some weren't. So when I was tired and aching, I would sit down and go through the bags of clothing as a "rest break". I don't understand the logic of this, but handling her clothes elicited more tears from me than most other things. It wasn't just me though, because one of her daughters couldn't handle it and stopped looking at her clothes altogether.
I didn't count but I know there were more than 20 bags of clothes. My Honda now contains 3 very large black trash bags of clothing, plus more on hangars.
The other bags went to the church & Goodwill.
I didn't expect this. I always take less home on road trips than what I started with. But not this time, this being a special case . . . I also have the juicer I bought her and had shipped to her when I was trying to get her to go natural . . . it's still unopened. Something I would have never bought for myself but now will definitely use for my own health, after all I've learned over the past year about cancer and nutrition.
My sister was a packrat, plus hadn't moved in 30 years, and was not very organized. Plus she had been sick for a year. It's genetic because I am using Flylady.net to become organized & quit packratting. We did not learn basic skills at home when we were growing up.
So as I was saying, I cooked and cleaned and organized and sorted, and taught her two youngest children, 11 & 12, to get their clothes out every night, and to take a bath at night. "Getting ready the night before", and running the dishwasher every night, was a new concept.
On Tuesday Dec 7 we had the funeral, which was packed out especially for such a small town. My sister was a gentle, sweet spirit and much beloved in the community. Even though I had already said goodbye while she was alive, and goodbye when she died at the hospice, I knew I would lose it at the funeral and I did. I remembered to take sunglasses and lots of tissues with me.
On Wed Dec 8 I thought I'd stay in Wheatland at my BIL's house to finish a handful of cleaning and organizational projects, plus we were working on cleaning the kids' rooms. But I ended up leaving Thurs night Dec 9 instead, because laundry (which I'd already done a ton of) was backed up, plus just needed more time to get everything done.
So I left exhausted Thurs night, slept on the road, headed to Denver to my brother's apt, and arrived Fri morning, yesterday morning. He wanted to spend some time with me before I headed home. I think he also knew I needed this break away from it all; and I did. So I will stay here til Sun or Mon, but I really really really want to get home back to Maryland. Though things are pretty much returning to "normal", whatever THAT is, for me now. This journey started for me the week of Nov 15, with flight issues and car issues, so it's been a full 4 weeks of this saga, & my 5th week begins tomorrow. By the time I get home, it will have been 4 continuous weeks away from home, which is the longest for me in a very long time.
I have missed being online with my SparkFriends very much.
I won't be able to read, catchup, and respond until I am back home in Maryland.
Edited to correct dates.
Edited by: CAROLFAITHWALKR at: 12/12/2010 (13:35)
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