When we get a hold of our issues and exam each one, is when we open ourselves up for progress toward why we over eat or make bad choices regarding food or any other addiction we run to. People often say; food addiction is not like alcohol addiction we need food to live. But I must say food addiction used wrongly is like alcoholism in so many ways. The addiction of want, the addiction of escape, the addiction of self hate. The hold it has on you, the hold we allow it to have on us.
My self addiction, was loving food and I still do. Like an addict of sex or drugs, it became my dependant lover. I love food, I love to cook it, I love to touch it, smell it, taste it, share it and be alone with it. I run to it, I cry and even celebrate with it. It gave me what others couldn't, it gave me immediate gratification, pleasure and comfort.
I celebrated and loved people with it as well. I showed my love for others with it. Loving it the whole time, letting it know how much it meant to me. I would wait to share my love with watching their every move. Waiting for the compliments and the woes and awes. It gave me self worth.
Boy has this been a journey to know that; food is not my drug of choice and that I can have an understanding for it. That I alone control my life and my power is with in me. Food will take life away from me, but is my healer and serves a purpose too. Bad and unhealthy food is the enemy, not living food. Living food is life, living food is the one I love. But never more than myself and my life. I love that living food gives to me today, what bad choices took away from me before.
OK Yvonne you plugged me in and got me going :))
Edited by: ERIN1957 at: 5/26/2012 (14:02)
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---Thomas A. Edison
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