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5/5/14 5:44 P

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Hi Alicia! Sorry you had such a rough one but hopefully things are looking up again for you.
One foot in front of the other and one step at a time.

I just came to this group and it doesn't appear to be very active but, if you're looking for a friend on here I'm willing.

Have a great one!
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Good Morning Everyone emoticon

I am new here but wanted to check in as well as introducing myself. It hasn't been the best week. Honestly I didn't know that even when one is retired you have weeks that you would rather forget. This was one of them.

It did start well enough until Tigger decided to open up one of my fingers. She never really means to hurt but since she didn't have any time with a momma to teach her how to behave her behaviour is a bit off. DH had an appointment on the Tuesday. Early beyond belief and we were up at 5:30 in the blessed morning to find out after it was all over that he didn't have to drink all that water before going over. Too bad they didn't think to tell him that before the procedure so that he could have been more comfortable. Wednesday saw me trying out a new dentist and may I say right now I will NEVER go back to this dentist again. Beside the inside of my mouth feeling like a piece of raw meat from the x-rays this dentist pushed that it would be his way or no way. Never listening to one thing I said. I know I was spoiled by my Ottawa dentist who was a wonderful dentist but still I do like to be heard. Thursday we dropped off our tax stuff - I know, Enough said. Friday got a bit better with a visit to Mom's and getting groceries and finding out we didn't have to worry we are getting a refund. emoticon Saturday was windy and cold so it was an indoor day.

Anyway, I am glad that one is behind us. Think it is going to be nice today and perfect for a long nature walk. Fresh start to the week.

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Hi Everyone. Hope you're about to have the start of a great weekend. It's supposed to be a rainy one here.

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4/28/11 2:38 P

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It's been too long since I checked in. I hope everyone is doing well, and I apologize for my long absense.

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Just stopping by to say HI to everyone!! I pray each of you are having a great week and enjoying your life!! Life is wonderful . . the sun is shining, the wind is blowing and the Lord is awesome!!!

I pray for rain in Texas where all the fires are!!!
I pray for Japan and everything going on there with the nuclear plant!!!
I pray for everyplace that had a tornado in the last week or so!!

God bless all!!!

Favorite verses:
John 3:16; Isaiah 40:31; Psalm 119:50; John 8:32; I Corinthians 13

Life is precious . . don't take anything for granted.
Life is made for living, decide what you want and go for it!

Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moment, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.

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Wow...that studio sounds awesome! I'm a sucker for dance classes...guess it's my own little addiction.

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It looks like Curves here has hours from 3:30 pm to 7:30 pm so theoretically if a 9 to 5er went straight there from work she could get her workout in handily.

I have some friends who work at a business which is part dance studio, part music studio, part dojo, part fitness studio, part gym. I may take some dance classes there. They have drop in rates and no contracts, which is excellent!

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I'm so jealous you got to go to New York! It sounds like it was amazing!
I've never been to Curves. I thought of joining one, but it seems like their hours are geared more towards stay-at-home moms with kids in school and not for those of us who have to work until 5pm...but then again, maybe that's a Curves in Utah thing. I like the do reps as long as you can notion, but the caveat needs to be do as many reps as long as you can do them with proper form since improper form can lead to serious injuries over time.
I wonder if you and I are suffering from a similar issue of simply not feeling strong or healthy? Perhaps if we make a few more changes that focus on strength training we'll feel more confident and be happier in our bodies? Just a thought. ;)
Another thought: there isn't a one true way to HAES. There are a number of different ways of practicing it and the most important thing is to make changes that work for you--and it isn't an all or nothing way of thinking. This is all about honoring ourselves and our bodies and as far as I can tell you are ready for those things. Change must come from the inside out and only you can determine which changes are sustainable and right for you. ;)

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Hey there folks. I haven't been by in a while - coming up on tech week for the operetta (a week between now and then to go), I had two major exams, took a trip to New York which was awesome but left me so sore from the extreme walking I did that I had to rest for quite a while.

I often feel like I'm just not ready for HAES you know? Like, I know this is the size I am, and the size I might always be, and it's not that I don't want to be healthy regardless of my size (the fact that I'm moving towards health as an end rather than a means is a good start I guess) but I can't lie - I always hope there will be some kind of loss - if not weight, then inches. The inches because I'm so short, it's hard to find clothes I like. I feel swollen and puffy, like maybe this isn't normal body weight. The weight mainly because I don't want to go to the doctor and be put on a diet. Isn't it funny that not wanting to be put on a diet sends me into a bit of a diet way of thinking?

Have any of you been members of Curves? I know the end goal of their diet plan is normal eating, but all of their testimonials and stuff tend to focus on weight loss. I bought the Curves: Permanent Weight Loss without Permanent Dieting book. It definitely holds to the HAES philosophy only about 33% of the time. (As you might guess from the title!) I'm definitely going to try the exercises in there - they're nice and rely on doing "as many reps as you can" in a certain amount of time, which I think is good for someone like me who feels constantly weak and out of shape. It's always 30-90 seconds so it's not intense stuff for a long time. I'll try it anyway and see if I feel stronger. But I'm curious about experiences any of you might have had at an actual Curves gym. Can you just go in there and say, "I want to focus on exercise, not on weight"?

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3/10/11 12:21 P

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Yeah...and I haven't ruled it out yet. The thing is, the pain isn't just isolated on my right side. Sometimes it's on my left side as well. It isn't as bad this week.

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hey there, question about the abdominal pain you were having.. do you have your gallbladder?

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Wow...I think the craziness has died down a little. Springfest was yesterday and it went well so now that the first dance performance of the year is behind me, maybe things will be less hectic. I've also had some sort of weird pain in my upper abdominal area for the last couple weeks... which made it really hard to eat for a while. I hate to say it, but I started not focusing on eating just so I could get something in my stomach when my sugar levels dropped. It was taking me an hour just to get a couple apple slices, a little cheese, and a couple crackers down. Whatever that was seems to have run its course so I won't be making a doctor's appointment (thankfully...I really can't afford it).
Next week I'll have my second burlesque class...the first one was an awesome workout and I'm sure this one will be as well! We'll also be trying to figure out what our second troupe dance will be for my belly dance class.
The pain was so bad that I basically couldn't focus on anything so now it isn't the problem it was I can start focusing more on physical activity this week. :D
Catherine, welcome! It's really not that easy to get all that physical activity in, so definitely pat yourself on the back!

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Hi! I'm checking in. I'm relatively new to the team. I've been reading HAES also. I'm still on the first half and it's very interesting. I've started to read Intuitive Eating a couple of times. I get about halfway through and then lose interest in it. I'm still trying to get the hang of this - I've been dieting so long, it's so scary at first.

I'm trying to exercise several times a week and I successfully accomplished this.

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Sorry to hear that.

It's exciting that you joined a gym. I've found movement to be the most important thing I do for myself. I hope that helps you find something you love there.

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i'm feeling kind of bummed this week. I made some positive moves towards better health - joined a gym, got a local Spark buddy, started ttaking a Tai chi class; saw the doc to find out why I'm fatigued all the time and got a fasting blood test done. Well, I still have no idea what's causing the fatigue but I found out my cholesterol is super high and I will have to start a statin. I know each thing is not related to each other but it still feels like "one step forward, two steps backward".

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That's awesome! I am still struggling with this. Go you!

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LOL oops...I forgot to check in! The weekend went by so fast!
I've been trying to focus on mindful eating for the last couple of weeks. I've been paying more attention to feeling full/hungry and for the first time in years I'm actually able to feel when I'm full before I'm absolutely stuffed. For me that's a pretty big breakthrough.

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Hi all! Last week was okay. I am excited that my copy of Slow, Fat Triathelete came in the mail. I am nearly done with two other books, and it is next in the queue behind them. I can't wait to read it!

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2/17/11 5:32 A

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@BeatriceBunny: glad to see you!! To all who are lurking and afraid to delurk b/c you don't feel safe, have nothing positive to report or ? I encourage everyone to take the same attitude to checking in that we are trying to develop with our attitudes toward body, food and movement. That where you are at is ok, that it is safe to check in regardless of whether or not you have "progressed" and that to check-in is a way to show caring and compassion to yourself and to others who are struggling and need support.

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Thanks for the great book tips! I read Intuitive Eating last year and it really set me on my journey. I am currently reading "Rethinking Thin" but I'm not far enough into it to have a lot to say about it yet.

Also, this is my weekly check in. I have been in hiding and am trying to force myself back out.

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Intuitive Eating is actually the first book that really shifted my attitude (although Fat is a Feminist Issue was a big influence earlier on). At the time I was looking for a book b/c I thought I had Syndrome X and I was looking through different diet books feeling very depressed about the thought of dieting again and suddenly, like it appeared through dark clouds, the title popped out at me and inside I just felt this big YES! take place.

I am reading a book now that I really like, Shape up with the Slow, Fat Triathlete. It kind of takes the same attitude toward movement in your life.

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The first 2 I posted are more Size Acceptance but sprinkled with IE. My first IE book was *rules of normal eating*.

There are some amazing resources out there to be had!

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2/12/11 8:49 P

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Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch is another good book.

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thanks for sharing the info!, I will definitely try and find those.

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HAES is a great book! I also recommend Squeezing Your Size 14 into a Size 6 World.

I read both when I went into ED Recovery/counseling. For me I have come to enjoy the feeling of pushing my food away before I realize exactly why. It sit and am almost confused bc "hey, I was eating that!" dialogue takes place. Then suddenly I realize, Oh! I'm not hungry anymore! It's taken almost 2 yrs, but I can finally without thinking push my plate away. I still have moment of getting in a few bites, but I do so consciously and with intent.

Those 2 books along with The Rules of Normal Eating, I give all the credit for being in a better place with my body and mind. It's never easy in the beginning and it can be overwhelming at times, sometimes- all of the time. But in the end, the journey is more than well worth while.

I hope you enjoy the book as much as I have. It's also nice because it has a lot of research studies and resources to back the author's claims. So when ppl give you the 3rd degree about it just being another "pro-fat, pro-lazy, pro-poor health" book, You can use the studies as a solid argument to tell others to back off, play nice, and mind their own Bizz-nass.

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@Papillondelune: I can definitely relate! My depression has been under control with meds for the last several years but not so much lately. It really makes it hard to do anything beyond survive sometimes. Remember to be kind to yourself.

@DarthLaurie: thanks for mentioning the HAES book. I have a hold on it at the library now and am looking forward to reading it..

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Those are great observations, Eileen! Thanks for sharing that...I totally understand it.
I'm trying one of the exercises in Health at Every Size. Yesterday I started keeping track of how hungry I am, feelings/sensations before I eat as well as after I eat. I'm trying to focus more on the sensations of eating and I really didn't think it would be as hard as it is! But... I think it really could help me become a bit more in tune with what my body is feeling.

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well, this has been a mixed week. I managed to eat more fruit, I meditated some, I read some of fellow team members blogs but I really struggled to do healthy things. I found myself engaged in unhealthy activities (like sitting at the computer for hours) to avoid unpleasant feelings and I realized that even though I don't use food as much anymore to deal with life, I am using other unhealthy ways to deal with emotions. The best thing though, for me anyway, is that I was able to be open to this realization without shutting down. I am trying to be compassionate and non-judgemental with myself like I would with someone else who was stuck in a self-destructive pattern. I am hoping I will start to see what is happening more clearly.

I did notice, after several members posted about rebellious eating, that I was doing some of that at work where I have been inundated with "Biggest Loser" diet talk.

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A bikini? An actual swim-style bikini can be custom ordered?

Hot Damn!! I've been wanting a retro bikini!!

Can you privately email the contact info?

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Depression is insidious. I've been dealing with it since I was probably four or five. Another terrific resource is The Feeling Good Handbook-- it's a cognitive behavioral therapy approach. The biggest thing I learned from that approach is to question certain thoughts and show myself the lie and distortion in the way I think. I hope you pull through it soon!

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Hello HAES friends!

I had a bit of a revelation this week. For the past few weeks I've been feeling off. I've had trouble with my goals, especially with adding new ones. I'd figured out that it was because I'm having a bit of a depression relapse, possibly triggered by a stressful semester earlier and some critique I received and took too much to heart from where I was doing an internship. But I hadn't done much about it.

I started reading The Depression Cure thedepressioncurebook.com/ soon after I figured out that depression was the problem. That was about two weeks ago. But I wasn't doing anything about it and I kept adding new Spark goals. Well, one of the symptoms/effects of depression is trouble initiating things - which made it really hard to actually achieve these new goals. And guess what? When you don't achieve goals, and you're a depressed person, what do you do? Fuss at yourself for not achieving your goals. But you don't then take initiative to achieve them, because you're depressed. (I know to some people this sounds stupid. They're like, "Why don't you stop feeling bad and just DO the things?" Mental illness is hard to explain.)

Anyway, I realized that until I deal with this depression problem, I'm not going to be able to focus on those other goals. So I'm rearranging my goals to meet the requirements of The Depression Cure. Before I thought it was my physical health that I needed to take care of before anything else, but I realize now that until my mental health is improved, I won't even be able to focus on my physical health.

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You're going to love your new bikini and you'll feel so sassy!

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I LOVE my wii! It's so nice for days when i want to get a little something in.

I wanted to let you know that I talked with the designer who made your great costume. I am definitely ordering a bikini from her.

Have fun in your classes. Those sound great!

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I'm getting to know my Wii again. Did a workout the other night using the My Fitness Coach game and tonight I played a few of the mini games on Wii Sports Resort and got my heart rate up and played several minutes longer than anticipated. Tomorrow is our belly dance class. We have five classes before Springfest and our first performance of the year. I am so glad my beledi dress fits after the crazy weight loss and gain since I first purchased it! I also signed up for my first workshop since I sprained my ankle in November-- it's a burlesque workshop! I'm so excited about it! I bought a cute bra with a bit of ruffle to go with my plaid ruffle bum outfit so I'm set! How is everyone else doing?

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That feeling of being deprived is such a hard trigger to fight. Good for you for recognizing that you were experiencing it and loving yourself enough to face up to it. That's awesome!

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Hi Gals,
Glad to see it's been an interesting week for pretty much everyone. Last Friday I had some drama at work and I ended up not being able to take a lunch break (and I was so busy earlier I didn't have all of my breakfast). My body reacted badly...on some level I was reminded of the times when I went without as a kid and let's just say I more than made up with it over the weekend. We had friends over to play games and we had all manner of chips and salsa (hey...the salsa was healthy-- I made it and I know what's in it!) and cookies. The cookies ended up being left with us. Not the best thing when part of me is kind of freaking out. On the bright side, we went to a gathering on Sunday and I took the huge tub of cookies and left them there:)
I'm pretty manic still but today I worked out for 45 minutes with one of my Wii fitness "games." I've also done reasonably well focusing on making healthier lunch choices. So yeah, it's been a mixed bag for me:)
I just finished reading the first part of Health at Every Size this afternoon and I'm excited for the second half!

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It is interesting reading everyone's posts how much our lives and our eating are entwined. I think that is one of the things that makes it all so tricky. If it were just a matter of putting fuel in the tank it would be simple.

I had some successes this week. I was much more aware of what I was eating. I consciously ate more fruits and vegetables although not as much as I would have liked.

I did the Peggy Cappy yoga dvd several times and really liked it. It was amazing how just doing the warm-up, which was not at all strenuous, made my metabolism increase and my body felt very loose and movement after that was much more fluid. I have decided to try and do it each day when I come home from work (I work nights) in the morning to help me transition healthfully. Transitioning to sleep until now has been a big meal, t.v. and the computer to sort of sedate myself.

I met up with a local Spark buddy tonight, which was a very positive and supportive connection. Talking with someone who is dealing with similar struggles felt very relieving and nurturing.

I had been using the nutrition tracker and tracking each meal but it started to feel too much like the old dieting, food-cop mindset and I could feel the rebellious part of me kick in so I decided not to use it. I already know intuitively what I need. For me, tracking each bit of food takes it away from the body and intuition and puts it back in the mind and analysis and judgement. I need to go the opposite direction, out of the mind and into the body.

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BeatriceBunny- It is interesting how our perspective can change once we embark on this ituitive eating journey! I know that I am kind of growing out of the whole tailgating all day actvities which can sometimes invovle a lot of alcohol and not so healthy foods. Anymore, I have the mentality that I would rather have a dirnk or two, and I am good with that. I still have friend thought, that still want to drink and eat all day, and sometimes that can make it tough when it isn't something I find appealing anymore.

Papillondelune- I hope things will turn out for the better. Remember to keep your chin up, despite what the circumstances may be at the moment.

This week I am in Florida for work. I am in a far better mood compared to last week! A lot of times I find that it may be hard to eat healthy on the road, but I am trying my best, and the place I am visiting has lots of sidewalks where I can walk to a restaurant. I've also found that I have been craving salads and fresh fruits more often than I have in the past, and that helps too!

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PAPILLONDELUNE, I am sorry to hear that you had such an unexpectedly stessful week. It's so hard to focus on our goals when life throws curve balls at us.

Last week, was pretty good for me. I'm in the middle of doing something completely new, and it's kind of scary, but I think it is going well. I partied too much this weekend. It was great to see people, but there was too much food and alcohol in the center of it all. I need to reframe to the things that make these events really special for me.

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1/29/11 11:53 A

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Here I am for my weekly check-in! It's been a mixed bag for me this week. I didn't have nearly so many of the bad feelings about myself as I did the week before. I had a good conversation with a friend who really understands my body image issues and has a lot of the same struggles with her metabolism as I do with mine. I did well on my goals the first couple of days of the week, but I think I was a bit ambitious and set too many new goals at once so I'm going to have to revisit things. There's a reason why the SparkPeople program on the website is set over quite a few weeks, unlike the 28 day program in the book, and I need to allow myself to take my time to get healthy - drinking enough water and moving joyfully and such.

Thursday morning, my husband received some news that indicated his career trajectory is not what he had thought it was going to be based on earlier conversations with his supervisors and colleagues. A lot of our plans for the future were riding on a change in his work schedule (right now he works nights) and staying local; we're both in school and I've got to look for jobs now. I was at a loss for how to do that now that I wasn't sure we'd be staying here instead of moving. My bafflement just kind of has thrown the past 3 days off, although I am feeling much better about things now.

Fresh start every day, but especially on the first day of a new week, so that's what I'll be doing tomorrow.

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1/23/11 11:36 P

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It's been kind of an off week for me too. I didn't do all the training I've been needing to do, but this week was just so.....awful! And for some reason it really hit hard this Friday and Saturday. Both days I was in such a negative, leave-me-alone kind of mood, and that is really rare for me. Today seems to be better though, and I hope I can move onto next week with a more healthier, positive attitude.

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1/23/11 4:14 P

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OMG! Those swimsuits are amazing. I didn't see any my size, so I sent her a message asking if there were any in the 18-20 range. Thank you so much!

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1/23/11 2:27 P

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thanks for the link, DarthLaurie. Super cute swim suits!

The damage to my knees is preventing me from doing alot of the movement I normally enjoy like walking, dancing, etc... I am very interested in learning Tai Chi and may sign up for a class.

Relearning to love movement is big on the agenda. Controlling pain will be a real factor for me. I'll keep everyone posted on how it goes with the yoga and swimming.

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1/23/11 12:25 A

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Eileen, glad you decided to try yoga...I hear good things about Peggy Cappy's video, but when I checked it out of the library I didn't have the space to work with it.
The most important thing to me is to find the forms of movement that your body craves. Sometimes it's really hard. For those of us who weren't athletic as kids I think it's really hard. I wanted to dance as a kid, but my parents wouldn't let me. It was either do sports or nothing. But...we can't let our childhoods or our pasts dictate to us what we can or can not do! As adults responsible for our own finances and well-being it's up to us to finance and invest in those things we love to do...sometimes it requires a lot of exploring before we find those forms of movement that we love best. Once you find one form of movement that your body loves, chances are you'll find a few others as well. Along with yoga, you might want to try Tai Chi...super gentle, active meditation...almost like a slow dance. The most important thing is simply explore and see what your body seems to prefer. If I'm in a swimming pool my body prefers to be on my back either floating or doing the backstroke. Occasionally I'll do something on my stomach. Sometimes I'll just roll around and around as fast as I can like I've seen sea otters do. BTW, if anyone needs to splurge on an awesome swimsuit with some sassiness factor, my friend Ro makes the best swimsuits (and dance clothes! I love my ruffle bums in my profile picture!) and she designs especially for curvy girls. Yes, this is a plug. I can't help it. The swimsuit I got from her is my favorite swimsuit ever and I love knowing that it looks cute on me and I'm making thinner gals envious;) Just one word on the monokini style..if you've got a short torso like me, don't bother. It won't suit you. Ro will customize for you as well...so if you're 4x on the bottom and 2x on top, it isn't an issue. BTW, she uses top quality fabric...I'm not wealthy, but the quality and love she puts into everything makes me happy to fork over whatever cash I can save up. I just feel like we all need to feel great in whatever we're working out in. If you don't comfortable in your workout clothes, you can't move around as easily. www.etsy.com/people/ByRoDesigns
Anyhow...sorry about the ad... I just figure it's good to know where to get curvy gal activewear! LOL

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1/22/11 4:22 P

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thank you for sharing that link, Papillondelune!

it struck me, after looking at some photos of my beautiful aunt (that truly did not capture her beauty), that people are not always photogenic in still pictures. Their beauty is in their animation and for some people it just doesn't translate to photos. This helped me see things in a different light - when I look at me in photos now I see the experience and recall myself animated and engaged and like you said remembering the happiness of the occasion.

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1/22/11 4:15 P

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Thanks everyone for sharing your struggles. I think getting healthy in a society that has such an obsessive, negative approach to health and weight is really hard and I'm impressed by how active you all sound. One of my goals is to become much more active and pain-free.

I am getting off to a slow start but that is okay right now for me. I'm 52, approx 5'7" and 270 lbs and I've been struggling with my weight since I was about 9. I've lost close to 100 pounds twice in my adult life and kept it off for awhile but eventually gained it back plus some. Diets definitely do not work for me. I feel like dieting, even though I was trying to do it healthily as a "life change", was a very negative and unproductive path for me.

So I decided to stop struggling with my weight about 10 years ago and at that time it meant stopping anything I had been forcing myself to do for years. No more diets, no more bad foods, no more exercise to lose weight, no more body loathing and no more negative internal dialogue and beating myself up about any of it.

This has been a slow process. Roughly about the same time as I quit struggling I started practicing Buddhism and being more mindful. I think I am now ready to gently work on eating more healthy and being more active while hopefully keeping the positive self-image I have been developing.

I'm a little scared about all this. And I am feeling somewhat compelled to lose weight because I am having serious joint problems that may require surgery. This is causing some confusion for me as I don't want to focus on weight loss.

What I have been doing so far is increasing my fruit and vegetable intake. Purchased a swimsuit so I can try swimming, since I can't walk right now. I also checked out a yoga dvd at the library (Peggy Cappy's "Yoga for the Rest of Us") which has an emphasis on accommodating all body types and ages. I plan to use it on my days off to start with and I hope to increase my water consumption in the coming week.

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1/22/11 10:11 A

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Sounds like we've all had a bit of a challenging week...maybe it's something in the air. P... as a dancer (and not the best dancer in the troupe), I look at my troupemate Jodi and take whatever I can and learn from her. If she moves a certain way and I like it, I do what I can to emulate her. You have a fantastic opportunity to learn from this dancer who joined your chorus (oh and woohoo on being an understudy AND a big part of the chorus!). Pick her brains a bit and learn from her...I'm betting there are things she'd like to pick up from you as well.
At Thursday's class we worked a bit on our routine. I was a bit early so my instructor worked a bit with me on a couple of our zill patterns (I really hate zills. I'm a bit tone deaf so I have a hard time picking up and following a beat) and I think it really helped. Hopefully next class we'll have the last thirty seconds of the dance choreographed so we'll be ready for Springfest the first Saturday of March. Best of all I went through most of the class with very little ankle pain even on the turns!
I'm going to look at this week as a bit of a winter blah glitch and just carry on. Weeks like this happen to everyone;)

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1/21/11 3:13 P

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I just read this at The Body Positive blog www.thebodypositive.org/blog.html :
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I am aware that when I feel good about myself, people respond to me! I could pick myself apart in a photograph but then I remember, I was really happy when the photo was taken. What about that happiness? Others will notice my happiness way more than my belly, and they will be completely unaware of how I feel my belly looks!
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I realized that this is what's going on with me - I look at those pictures from the recital and I'm not seeing the engaging, entertaining performance - but I know that's what other people saw. They told me so. And the pictures do capture that. Nobody there was thinking about the shape of my face or the length of my dress. They were thinking about how fiery I was, or sultry, or silly.

Isn't it nice when we read a thing when we most need it?

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1/21/11 12:46 P

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I'm having a truly challenging week. Firstly, I think I must be bloated or retaining water or something, because very suddenly all of my pants seem tight and my rings are leaving marks - and it hasn't been a gradual change, it happened all at once about a week or two ago. It's rather discouraging.

I had our first dance rehearsal for the show I'm in which, yay show, yay being understudy for one of the leads, yay being a strong member of the chorus... But I've always been one of the best dancers there. Well this year a lot of new people joined the theatre group, and we've got a genuine actual dancer in the chorus and it isn't really a big deal but it makes me a little self-conscious and sad.

Last night I was all weird and needy and my husband asked what was wrong, and I told him that I felt like I had these teeny tiny features swimming in a great round mess of face. He assured me that this isn't true but also jumped in with his "And when a thing like that upsets me, I find diet and exercise blah blah blah" which I know he means well but I hear as "These are things you clearly haven't been doing." Not his meaning for sure. But what I hear.

And looking at the goals I posted in the "Changing the Question" thread, aside from the bloating, it's really this not-liking-how-I-look-in-pictures that's set the whole mess off, because a friend posted pictures from my voice recital. I had to wear my hair up so it would stay out of my face, but I don't like the way that looks. I really should have the dress I wore hemmed because the length it's at now hits my calves oddly and I don't like how it looks. So I looked at those pictures and thought, "Blech. I look like a doughy mess. A very entertaining doughy mess, but still."

All of this said, I'm much more optimistic this morning than I was last night (when I was actually crying about all of this). Because all I can do is do what I can do: get plenty of sleep, drink a lot of water, move joyfully, and honor my body with the things I put in it and how I look at and talk about it.

So tomorrow I'm going to go shopping for at least one, maybe two new pairs of jeans to wear when I'm bloated like this, which will make a world of difference in how I feel about myself; I'm going to take advantage of the many exercise programs online which start you off gradually and move you towards a goal (I'm going to write a blog post about this); and I'm not going to worry about the rest of it.

But it's a challenge, every day.

emoticon That's what I've got to tell myself.

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1/21/11 9:54 A

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I'm a little sluggish this week because I'm snowed in again, but it's nice to have a little unexpected downtown. I'm trying to treat it like a gift.

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1/20/11 1:53 P

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Guess I should start!
This has been a less-than-stellar week for me. I think in part it might be because part of me is in creative overdrive and I don't have much of an outlet for it right now. On the bright side, I am reading Health At Every Size on my Nook and so far it's been really good...nice to hear a doctor saying what I've been saying (and hearing from others) for a while now.:)

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1/20/11 1:41 P

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Welcome to our first team goal (thanks to Eileen for coming up with this one)!
This is the place to let everyone know how you're doing this week. What positive achievements did you accomplish? Are you loving that body of yours a bit more? Have you managed to get some form of physical activity in most days of the week? How are other goals you've made for yourself like being in a play or focusing on some you time coming along? What are you struggling with? So...let's check in! emoticon

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