Well folks I am home now after my 30 day treatment stay. I am feeling great and totally energized, comes with being clean and sober.
I have a different perspective this time after my second time through treatment in 12 years. I finally get it that I can never drink again, I cannot control it and I cannot ever become a "social drinker" so I am prepared to move on with my life on this basis. Right now I am still busy building a support network and developing a recovery plan out of treatment but things are happening quite nicely. I have another 30 days off of work to get everything in place before I will be allowed back but I am really looking forward to it.
I was successful in maintaining an exercise program in my treatment facility despite a real lack of recreational opportunities where I was and also was able to maintain my weight also despite a hugely carbo heavy diet provided. Many of the clients there were fresh out of detox and most were dealing with malnutrician issues which might explain the dietary issues but I think is was pure and simply a monetary thing and we were served cheap food. however I dealt with it and gained no weight at all.
Good to be home, I will be catching up on Spark things in the next few days.
War never determines who is right .....only who is left!