I feel I owe this team an apology. I found it with an inactive team leader, and I decided to step up because I have lived the Sivananda Yoga path for the past 15 years. It has saved my life in many ways.
I also, however, have a long history of mental illness and clinical depression. It has been interfering in my life for the past few months, and has kept me from having the energy to actually lead the team. A Spark Friend of mine posted a blog today expressing impatience at team leaders who don't actually lead. I did reply to her, and said that I feel bad about this every day. But it also capped off a decision I have been considering for a while now.
When things get this hard for me, it's important that I limit my "musts" and obligations. I've never attempted a leadership role before. My heart is very full with my yoga practice. I suppose I just don't have it in me for leadership capacity. This is good that I learned this before I pursued ministry, as I had wanted to at one time.
I've decided to step down as team leader and step away from all teams for a while. I still very much believe in the yogic lifestyle. It's just too challenging in my life to have too many things to keep up with. I hope you all understand.
If someone else wants to try the leadership role, you can do as I did and request that status. If the other leader doesn't reply in a few days, you'll automatically become a leader.
Wishing you all the best ~ peace and joy, love and light.