Hello to my fellow EE's:
I think this fits in this forum as it truly relates to my emotions, food and how to handle.them.
A few days ago after hearing some news from my kids regarding my mother and her weird relationship with my abusive ex husband (too much and too messy to detail here but let's just say she has said on more than one occasion she prefers him to me, spends holidays with him, his sweetie of the week and his family) I jumped in my car and started to drive to the gym.
I was trying hard so that my three teenagers wouldn't see my tears. I mean I know exactly what kind of person my mother is but I don't want my kids to see my pain. She does loves my children.
And suddenly my car turned into a fast food restaurant. I sat there for a moment (no food just sobbing) and realized that I WAS NOT HUNGRY, I was just MAD AS HELL at my mom and the situation. Telling her for the eupth time that it's hurts my feelings wouldn't help or matter.
But what helped me was realizing that it was OK for me to be MAD and instead of medicating myself with food (to be a "good girl") I could yell in my car, walk at the park or take a class at gym. Most importantly I COULD BE MAD and ANGRY.
Since this realization a couple of days ago, I have have stopped my slow upward spiral on the scale and I am back down almost 4 pounds.
I share this because my "MOMENT" turned me around...has anyone else had this happen or a moment like this?
Hugs to y'all
Edited by: REALBLONDE474 at: 5/23/2012 (16:31)
| current weight: 157.0