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Was at the clinic during lunch hour, luckily they have a vending machine with healthy snacks, I had some rice crackers. When I got home I was so busy I did not have time to get hungry. Snack time rolled around and I ate 2 1/2 oz nuts. Dinner is planned and I have a really good book to read. Today is a good day.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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SUNNYSIDEUPMARY- Thanks =)

CRAMPERELLA- Grats on the no binge streak.

APPY626- Welcome.

CHANGINGTURTLE AND CAREBEARARUM- sorry things are not working out. Stay strong!

GREG32572- wow! Nice planning and tracking!

My day so far isn't to shabby. Didn't eat well for lunch but still under my calorie range for the day and going to do my best to behave at dinner. Probably fruits and veggies and maybe some soup for the dinner meal.

Might make a healthy popcorn snack for later...

Got a F2F meeting tonight at 6:30pm. I'm excited about it since some new members are in from another state and they had some really good things to say last week! Cant wait to hear from them again!

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7/30/14 12:15 P

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Wow! I am on a no-binge streak. Hooray! I have a visitor coming to stay, so it will be interesting to see how I do while he is here. Exercise has been enormously helpful, as well as my meditation and hypnosis apps. I hope everyone has a day filled with thoughts other than food! Stay strong!

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Good morning everyone. Day 3 of yet another attempt to get my weight under control and work through my eating issues. So far I'm feeling positive and motivated. If I go to bed tonight feeling a little hungry I will count today as a success.
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Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to say today, I have been off my meeting plan I need to get them in, I am working on getting a schedule in place, I may not hit a meeting everyday but my goal is at least 3 a week.

I will also work to accomplish all the goals on my plan of action, but I will forgive myself if I do not get all of them accomplished.

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Pray before/after meals
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Do 9:45 phone meeting if I can get home in time
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Voice of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 pages in my BB
Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up
Check out 1 VO site
Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts
Get out and walk around the block

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Welcome!! Welcome!! Appy! glad you joined the team!! check out all the sites on our forum. There is a lot of information in there. We have a very supportive team and they are great! Hope to get to know you on these check in. emoticon

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Appy, WELCOME!!

Kathryn, I hear you about throwing out your journals. Some things are better not re-read/rehashed.

Good for you, those who are doing well ! Happy for you.

I have had two days of eating cookies. I'm sick of myself.



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I've had a rough week already, well it started the last three weeks. I messed up a bit on my food journal, but I'm getting back on track.

... one step at a time ...


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7/29/14 5:01 P

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I throw away all my old journals this morning too many emotions in reading them. Have not binged for 7 days.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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Hi everyone. I'm new to the team. I have just started a new eating plan(again). This time is different for some reason. I started on 7/18/14 and haven't cheated once. That's a BIG deal for me. YAY!

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7/29/14 2:31 P

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I am slowly rediscovering my love of exercise and should not be amazed at the positive effect on my mood, but I am. I am working through Brain Over Binge and feel hopeful. I haven't binged in days and haven't even thought of bingeing. The journey is wobbly but fun.


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Howdy, y'all! I'm doing fairly well - must still be on a post-hike strenuous workout high from yesterday. :) I hiked 13 miles then bike shuttled back in the hills around Devils Lake in Wisconsin. Exercise really helps with my sanity :).

Debbie - Congratulations!

Kathryn - {HUG}

Greg - Glad to ready it was a little incident rather than a big one!

Cramperella - :)

Sweet Pea - Good for you!



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Doing ok so far today. Got my exercise in so that's big thing. Now I need to get off my butt and do the other things that need to be done.

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Had a bad night but I did not let that ruin my day and I got right back on the wagon!! emoticon

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Another great day. Sunny and warm. Had lunch with a friend and watched the ferries sail by. Had a beer, some salad, some salmon and all is good.

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HI, I'm Debbie, a compulsive overeater. I have 7 days of abstinence under my belt at this point, hoping to make today the 8th!

So far today I have exercised, strength trained, meditated, eaten well, tracked my food, written a blog, commented on many posts, read some Spark articles, made a new salad, cleaned my house, worked on my basement organization for 20 minutes, picked up my kid from a friends, and now I'm getting ready to make a call to my sponsor and another OA member.

I am doing GOOD! =)

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Greg I hope you got a chance to go out and walk. I love my morning walks. I might just take a nother one after I get done on Spark.

I had a very emotional night last night. I read my journal from around the time my best friend died. I ended up not eating dinner but did eat some fruit before going to bed.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was going to say I was abstinent yesterday however I did have a soda in the afternoon under the guise of low blood sugar. I was starting to drop it had been a while since I ate and lack of proper planning had my lunch long over due. I could have grabbed anything else to help with that but I “wanted” a coke and make the excuse to have it I am grateful my HP helped me see the dishonest in it and be truthful this morning because I wasn't going to be.

Phil had warned me to be on the lookout for such behavior after the birthday party self-will incident.

Not much else to say, my weekend was well. Had a great Skype meeting yesterday, I am grateful to those who showed up, great recovery shared.

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Do 9:45 phone meeting if I can get home in time
Make 2 outreach calls
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Read Voice of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 pages in my BB
Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up
Check out 1 VO site
Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts
Get out and walk around the block

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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I finally got brave and read the comments on my Forgiveness blog. I am a grateful for the kindness of my fellow Sparkers.

Been having a challenging time of late - hoping its a sign of making progress.

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I have been having a good week and have not eating because of emotions. I have been seeing a therapist about my problem and have gotten some tools like taking a deep breath and doing other things instead of eating. This is working for me.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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7/27/14 11:22 A

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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a compulsive over eater, I was not abstinent yesterday. I was at a birthday party for my nephew, and when it came to the time where there is a certain food that is served at these types of functions I decided I would have some.

I was served and I only had that section, but the compulsive anticipation while I was watching it being passed out was like a lion waiting to pounce on a unsuspecting animal.

I did not pray about it, nor did I contact my sponsor to ask his input I made the choice myself

I did not feel bad yesterday, I was proud I only had once slice, but if I could have had more I would have.

Today I am ashamed that I just decided to take my will back and do what I wanted


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Text Phil before/after meals
Chair skype meeting
Read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB
read 2 pages in 12/12
read 2 pages in my VO book

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good morning

my name is Greg I am a compulsive over eater, I was not abstinent yesterday. I was at a birthday party for my nephew, and when it came to the time where there is a certain food that is served at these types of functions I decided I would have some.

I was served and I only had that section, but the compulsive anticipation while I was watching it being passed out was like a lion waiting to pounce on a unsuspecting animal.

I did not pray about it, nor did I contact my sponsor to ask his input I made the choice myself

I did not feel bad yesterday, I was proud I only had once slice, but if I could have had more I would have.

Today I am ashamed that I just decided to take my will back and do what I wanted


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Chair skype meeting
Read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB
read 2 pages in 12/12
read 2 pages in my VO book
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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7/27/14 10:12 A

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The author of Brain Over Binge is Kathryn Hansen (former anorexic turned bulimic). I downloaded the book yesterday and am really enjoying it. There are several youtube video interviews with her too where she discusses her ideas. It is also recommended by a lot of psychotherapists. I think it is a valid approach to dealing with bulimia or BED. I doubt it will be a magic bullet but it does provide some very interesting brain research based theories on how to overcome bulimia and BED. It is just another tool in the arsenal.

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Did anyone find out the author of " Brain Over Binge" I would also like to read it! emoticon

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Having a little pity party for myself, giving myself lots of kisses. Unfortunately they are the chocolate kind. I just threw out the rest of the bag, having already eaten way too many.

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I had a long john sweet roll this noon. It tasted so good! I know I shouldn't have had it but it is a once a month treat. I didn't have any lunch because the calories were so high. yes I put in my food tracker. I will do dinner better. emoticon

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The author is Kathryn Hansen.

hi, my name is Hope

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Who is the author of "Brain Over Binge"? I would like to read it if it is at my library.
I reached a mini goal of losing 10 pounds and wrote a blog about it.
It has been 4 days since I had a binge. I am trying to do other things instead of having a binge like reading a book or reading blogs on SP.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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Looking forward to reading Brain Over Binge. Saw an interview with the author and what she had to say made sense. It's warm and sunny today. That always makes me feel hopeful.

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emoticon I am doing good. Change my eating habits. I have had some non scale victories.

We didn't gain our weight over night so we aren't gonna lose it overnight.

Put one foot in front of the other. Keep pushing and we will reach our goals.


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Sounds like you are all doing rather well !! YAY!
Welcome to our newcomers (yep, I've been here a full five says, LOL)

I read Brain Over Binge and it's a great book. To think of that voice in our head as not being "us" is very powerful. To think of that voice as something we can hear peacefully yet not respond to makes me very hopeful.

hi, my name is Hope

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So it's been awhile since I've checked in so here it is. I'm doing good a little stressed but I'm not emotional eating at all. I'm controlling it, however I am drinking a lot of pop so I'm stopping that So onto the next step..

... one step at a time ...


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Hi, I'm new posting to this group. Thinking about trying Clean Eating. Going to the store today, wish me well on getting a menu made and sticking to it.

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I succeeded last night to wake up at 3am and I didn't eat!! I am proud of my efforts to watch what I put in my mouth and when. emoticon

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A real roller coaster of a week! I binged, I recovered and am back on track! Feeling hopeful and looking forward to a great weekend. Saw a youtube video with the author of Brain Over Binge. Very interested in learning about how she overcame her binge eating disorder through understanding how the brain works, especially the amygdala which is the seat of our urges and the conflict between the amygdala and our higher brain function. It made sense to me and gave me hope. I think I will be doing lots of reading this weekend. Have a great weekend everyone. I am so glad you are here when I need you!

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Doing the Happy Friday Dance emoticon

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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I have been depressed a lot this last week-week and a half. Just several things going on and had the monthly thing, girls you know what I am talking about. This week a family friend past away. I am really feeling down about things!!!

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I had a good night last night. I slept all night with no trips to the fridge! one more day under my belt! I hope this day will go well. I hope y'all have success fighting your demons! emoticon

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Yesterday was a no binge day, but I did overeat. I did manage to get some meditation in, so all in all an o.k. day.

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Last night went good and today I see my therapist and get off my chest every thing that is bothering me

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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I am having a good day. Pretty stress free, at lest no new stress. My hubby is being extra nice and all my friends are being non combative. I have been reading labels and getting rid of thing that are over processed. I have a whole chicken baking in the oven to have for our lunches for the rest of the month. I plan on having some of the breast for my dinner. I do not plan on over eating tonight, I am tracking my food.

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My days have been rough. I want to eat all the time. Probably because there has been a lot of stress in my life recently. I am going to get things going. I have to I'm diabetic.

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emoticon emoticon I hope everyone is having - at least - a satisfactory day. A day that stays within the perimeters of your comfort zone. Possible leaning towards GOOD. So far - my day has been good. I am in control today but I am not beating myself with it. I hope you won't either. emoticon

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I tried not to eat out of boredom but I ended up doing it anyway. I have got to figure out how to keep my mind busy when I want to eat junk.

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Yesterday was a no-binge day! Hooray! Today my goals are to set the table, sit down, eat mindfully and to carve some time out for meditation. So far, so good!

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Morning, Greg,

How long have you been abstinent?

hi, my name is Hope

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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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LOL, AuntAlice, do people actually have stress free days? I would like one of those, LOL!!

Hope you all have a successful day today!! Happy Tuesday.

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It's interesting, reading all of your posts..... it keeps bringing me back to that thought of, "what constitutes a binge" which I know is chatted about in another section of this forum.
Yesterday, for example, my eating was good all day, and then in the evening I was feeling a bit peckish, so I had an english muffin with a smear of peanut butter. Did I need the extra calories?
No. But was it a binge because I wasn't hungry? I don't think it was that, either. I think that sometimes I should be okay with eating more calories than advisable, if it means that I have not eaten FOUR muffins with peanut butter, which to me constitutes a binge. In my opinion I had a binge-free day, yesterday.
Thoughts?

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Was there a full moon last night? I binged too. I think not being satisfied with my dinner might have been what set me off. I had two serving of Hamburger Helper, some thing I rarely eat. I think I won't eat that again. I have been making my own meals and think there were too many things in this box of helper I am not use to eating. Started today using the tracker and will stay in my calories for the rest of the week.

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I went off the deep end yesterday. While my binges are no longer as frequent or unconscious as they were in the past, it was a bit of a surreal experience being completely present and in the moment while I was bingeing. Today is a new day and the sun is shining and I can only do this one day at a time.

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Good morning y'all!! did 20 minutes chair exercise this a.m. had a good breakfast emoticon yesterday I planned everything so well and I was determined! However, I tripped and fell. in the middle of the night I had a slice of bread with peanut butter. Not good! but it is a new day! I will be back on track today! hope everyone has a stress free day! emoticon

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to report, I am recovering nicely from my 4 wheeler incursion. I may have not mentioned it yesterday, Sunday I was out to my buddies house and wanted to take the wheeler for a spin. I went down a trail I had been on with my buddy only once, I was going up a small stream bed and did not realize where I was going, I hit a drop off probably at foot or so keep, it all happened so quickly that I didn't realize I was in trouble until my wheels dropped down and I went mostly up and over the handle bars.

Amazingly enough I only had a few bumps and bruises, I tell ya it was pretty startling to realize that your butt is coming up off the seat and you are going airborne. I feel pretty good, I am not in as much pain as I thought I would be, I can feel it a little bit in different spots but overall I feel good.

The last few days the message I have been receiving is pretty much a given but one I have not really been appreciating and that is being in the program everyday.

It doesn't take a rock scientist to realize that unless I am in program, in the work on a daily basis I, well won't be in the work/program everyday. It never ceases to amaze me how easy it is to forget this simple, fundamental lesson. I am grateful for the daily readers while remind me of the lessons I am most in need of when I need them

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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Today is my second day binge free. My name is Hope and I am new here.
I am pleased with myself that I decided to get back on track. Just a few months ago I weighed a weight I hadn't seen in over 20 years. That lasted about three days, lol, I think that scared me and so I sabotaged.

I have ruined my life with my binge eating and need a new way of living. I am such a liar and a thief around food! I want my integrity back.

Glad to be here and looking forward to getting to know all of you.

hi, my name is Hope

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Sorry for your weight gain could it be the salty food maybe just water weight gain?

Greg not good skipping meals you can do better than that emoticon

I woke up this morning determined to stay on track. I am a fighter, a warrior I can do this emoticon
I am doing a streak of being binge free 21 days I am on day 9 , I can do this!!!!

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emoticon I'm doing well with turning food away, but I want it so bad. But I had just a little of fries and fiesta potato from taco bell, tracked on my tracker but still gained a pound. Very upset that the number went up.

We didn't gain our weight over night so we aren't gonna lose it overnight.

Put one foot in front of the other. Keep pushing and we will reach our goals.


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emoticon Good Morning y'all!! I have 20 minutes of chair exercise in and have my meals planned for the day! It was suggested I use resistance bands and I am going to look into that. I am going to be positive and upbeat today and not let anything get me to eat other than my meal plan. emoticon

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**food mentioned**

Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, pending a discussion with my sponsor ill figure out if I was abstinent yesterday. My food was good, I didn't properly plan and execute my meal plan so it left me feeling shaky from low blood sugar while I was at the lake mid-afternoon. My buddy had a can of coke which I had to level myself out. I should have prepared snacks and had my lunch at the right time, actually I didn't even have lunch yesterday. There was so much going on it never happened. I will focus on planning better in the future to avoid these types of situations

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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Aunt Alice emoticon emoticon

I have been dealing for some time with eating when mad at my hubby. I talked to my therapist about it and we came up with a plan. I have replaced eating when mad at my hubby by doing nice things for him, it confuses him and deflates both our anger. It works out better for me than emotional eating. And the next day I talk to him when we are both calm and work out our problems.So far this has been working out all week and I have been able to stay on track.

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emoticon I had a pretty good day today. But I did have two slices of rye bread and that wasn't on my program. But by watching the dinner and my night snack I think I can stay within my calorie limit.

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Hope everyone is alright, I am doing great!!! Did not over eat yesterday

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Last night was not a good night for me as hubby had 3 friends over drinking. We live in a big one bedroom apartment and they were in the living room and I was in the bedroom. They stayed from before lunch to after dinner time. My eating times are pretty set and I get hungry at 12:00, 3:00 and 6:00. I could not cook as we can't afford to feed everyone and I did not plan to feed them. This was not a planned party. I was I made a PB&J at 7:00. I also had some cherries, and later some strawberries and yogurt. I was not happy to have my meal and snack times altered. To top it all off hubby got drunk and wanted me to cook him dinner after the party. Since he is a mean drunk I did cook for him. This type of behavior by him doesn't happen often. I kept my temper in check and waited until morning to talk to him

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not a bad day overall, did not get as much done as I could have, I will be vigilant about that today
I am falling back into old patterns as far as women and dating that I will discuss with my sponsor, I am stuck in a loop that seems to repeat itself in a never ending cycle.

I emailed a moderator for the phone meetings I attended and asked if I could be a phone moderator. There are not abstinence or time in program requirements. They are full at this time but I am going to be a back-up moderator


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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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I was doing great up until a few hours ago when I went to my mom's and she made homemade macaroni & cheese... yumm! My biggest cravings are always comfort food. I managed to fight myself to only have one small bowl. I won't let it bring me down, I'm still going to the gym later! emoticon

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I had a good day yesterday did not eat when I was bored just went for a walk instead, ended up getting a hair cut. I feel better about myself when My hair looks good.

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Good morning
My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday
I had a decent day yesterday, my food was good, my mood was good.
I went to my buddies on Tuesday night and we did about 2 hours of 4 wheeler therapy, it was amazing, I high recommend it to everything, if you have access to a 4 wheeler and you are having a rough day get out and go for a ride it will change your mood real quick
Some of the places we went were quiet and beautiful, you could tell people just generally don't come there aside from riding through.
I had to work through some fear in some areas where we had to go down steep hills and places that just looked bad **chuckles** I was fearful that being a big dude I would tip the wheeler over at some point, but it didn't I even had to race up a pretty steep hill that gave me pause, but I made it up with ease. The longer I rode the more comfortable I got with it

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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Got some cherries this morning that are calling my name, plan on having my meals and snacks and not over doing it. Will not eat today because I am upset or bored only when hungry.

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Greg - BTW, what did your doc say about those distressing physical symptoms from the other day? I hope things are better today for you.

StillMe - Perhaps I am viewing the world through my own recently written words in my blog, but I sure felt I could relate to a lot of what you wrote. Welcome to SP and this team!

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Good Morning.....well to some of you! We are from all over the world so enjoy whatever time of day it is for you...lol!

I will be here a month on the 19th of July. Still learning the ropes of SP but thoroughly enjoying it. I turn to food so easily. It would probably be easier to deal with if it was just when I was sad, or just when I was angry, but it is all feelings and emotions. When I am happy and with friends and family.....we usually have food around and I do not resist the temptations. When I am in a negative place...I really dig in.....it doesn't even have to be food I typically enjoy. If it is there and it is the best of the worst choice I can make...I will make it. I admit, I do sedate myself with food and drink. When will I learn it is only temporary though? I should know this as I have been on this roller coaster far too long. There is something positive in coming to SP though. I have come with a different mindset. I am ready to accept responsibility for many of my issues. I don't want to do the blame game as ultimately, I am in charge of how I allow things to affect me. Many of the negative things in my life weren't necessarily things that I created or deserved but they were things I could choose to accept or reject. Learning to put the past in the past is very difficult for me. Deep down inside of me I dwell on it, reflect on it and become depressed all over again. I try to hide it, not doing a great job...I am sure...but i do my best to smile on the outside as I still pain on the inside. So I am here...trying to overcome some of these character traits as I take charge of a problem that is most likely somewhat easier to change and that is my weight. As I become happier in my life and accept my physical self, I will also work on my heart, my spirit and the joy I want and deserve. That's it for now! Have a wonderful day!

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Greg I feel for you. I keep a journal and find that it helps me, hope it helps you too. I have keep them off and on for years and now and than reread ones from other years. I find them helpful in getting through tuft times. We all have to do what is right for us. I have tried this putting every thing in a HP hands and have not made a connection but every now and than try again.

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Greg - I am sorry you are having such an incredibly rough time. I wish for you strength and peace of mind.



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**Food Mentioned**

Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday.

I totally lost it yesterday, I ended up in the drive-thru of a place that everyone runs on, originally I was after a smoothie however the food porn on the board swayed my judgment, I ended up with a drink that was not a fruit smoothy but a liquid cookie flavor, and what better to go with that than 2 things with holes in the middle?

I really didn't give a s*** at the moment, and at the time it actually made me feel better, until the guilt set in.

I didn't mention it to anyone because I was ashamed and went about my day like nothing had happened.

Truth be told I have been off balance for a couple of weeks now. I have an overwhelming desire to eat, aside from the fact I am a sick compulsive over eater I am unsure why. The urge has not been this strong in a long, long time. I have not broken down and gone to any other drive thoughts, or indulged in a certain food that comes in a square box and is a round shape.

I feel like I am losing my got d*** mind. I have been praying for help, making out reach calls, going to meetings, reading literature. I came across a few readings yesterday, or the day before I cannot remember now that REALLY spoke to me. They talked about a relationship with my higher power and how he would be strong when I was weak and carry me through.

I desperately want that, I have prayed, cried out, cried, begged, pleased for that. I feel like I am not doing something right, to be honest at this point its really p***** me off. How much begging do I have to do before my HP, I don't even know what I expect, my hp's image is that of my best friend who passed away. When I talk to God, I talk to my friend Jeff. I feel so cut off and alone, I am taking the actions that have been suggested by my sponsor, it seems the more I do the worse I feel, I have not felt this bad in a probably a year, at least not sustained like it is. The depression is back, the suicidal thoughts are back, its like WHAT THE F*** I am doing what is suggested and I am getting this? It wasn't until right now I realized exactly how angry and upset I am about the whole thing. its been simmering below the surface and I knew something was wrong, I just didn't know what. I know when I talk to Phil he will tell me to pray and meditate on it.

I have to be honest at this point I have very little faith in prayer, I have been praying for help and taking actions and I get nothing, not that I am looking for a gift or gold star but a little frigging help would be nice. I guess while I am being rigorously honest I am about 2 steps away from saying F it, I am miserable in program and miserable without it. At this point its hard to see a difference between the two. Somewhere inside I know there is, but I cannot see/feel/access that right now. My therapist recommended I use a “thought log” to write down how I am feeling, I guess that s what I am doing.

Although I appreciate the kind words people usually leave after a post like this I am not seeking attention, only sharing what I am going through in the hopes perhaps someone else can relate, I am not sure if my intention is for them to not feel alone, or for me not too. Despite all the people in my life, all my friends, family, my 12 step family, loopies, sparkers and everyone else in my life. I feel isolated and alone. I am not hiding in my room like I used to do, I am getting up everyday and going out and doing it, yet I still feel alone.

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Pray (when I wake)
Submit meal plan (6am)
Call Phil (6am)
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Refresh step 2 in 12/12 (7-8)
read pages 83-88 in BB (7-8)
Read Daily Readers (7-8)
Read 20 pages in my VO book (8-9)
Check out 1 website (9-930)
Attend 9:45 phone meeting (945-1045)
Listen to VO my lesson from the weekend (11-12)
Make 2 outreach calls (12-1)

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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SparkGuy shared a very inspirational blog today about his 91 day streak of 10 minutes of exercise a day. I wanted to share it here!!

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
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Somehow, his comments made me feel relieved and know that life happens and I'm not a huge failure for not maintaining a 10 minute streak myself. And today, especially and the rest of the week, I know it will be struggle for me, as I need to be there for my best friend. Her youngest son, youngest child, who is only about 3.5 weeks younger than my son, was killed yesterday (sunday) morning just NE of Wichita, in a tragic accident that took his life and the lives of a woman and her mother-in-law on their way to her family (leaving behind two young children less than 5 years of age, I believe.). So senseless, so tragic, but somehow I gotta help us both through this. I know we're not alone. I know I'm not the only one to have experienced this either personally or through our friends. I know I need to maintain my own streak of ten minutes of exercise daily, just so I have something in my own health to share. (I know it's hard right now to think of a more precise way to explain what I'm feeling??).

In any case, fight the good fight, love your family, tomorrow is another day but it's not guaranteed that you or I or our loved ones will have a tomorrow.

Julia


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But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
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Gosh, Greg, that is really odd and I'd be concerned, too. I hope that the symptoms are easily resolved. Please let us know how you are doing.

AFM, I eventually did not do well at the wedding shower. At first I did - drank water and ate fruit kabobs and preportioned taco dip (which is very tasty). Unfortunately, I kept eating. I am proud that I at least thought to start out with the healthier stuff.

I am struggling here. I found out that the summer skirt I wanted to wear to the shower was so tight it cut into me - as I didn't have other options, I made it 'work'. Ugh. So discouraging.

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

It was a strange weekend, Saturday I had this unending hunger most of the day, I am not certain as to why. I found myself wanting to eat all day long. Saturday night I was leaving a friends house, driving home I suddenly became very tired, like cannot keep my eyes open tired. I got home and felt dizzy and disoriented and went up to bed. I had a hard time getting my self situated to get into bed but I managed to get the job done. When I woke up Sunday morning I felt horrible, like I had not slept in days, I was still dizzy and disoriented, I canceled my step work meeting and the Sunday Skype meeting and spent most of the day in bed. I got up mid afternoon and felt a bit better but still a bit dizzy and disoriented and not at all rested.

I feel the same this morning only not as bad, I am going to make an appointment with my DR, I am not really sure what he can tell me from the symptoms but its worth a shot.

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attend 9:45 phone meeting
Read program material
Read 10 pages in my VO book
Check out 1 VO website
Look over Music to add to show
Check in at work about music logs
Check in at work about promoting concert


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Just read in 100DWL - a good reminder before going to a wedding shower for my best friend's daughter. Luckily there is no emotional baggage of mine specific to the people that'll be there - just lots of temptation.

Still lots of struggle with having routines when my schedule is never routine. :( But I am trying to put PT/exercise, food prep and sleep as priorities. Working through the Spark start page is one thing I need to also do for self care.

CT - I like what your therapist said about finding other things to do, like posting here.

Edited by: SUNNYSIDEUPMARY at: 7/13/2014 (15:11)
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Hi checinkg in today with all of you . Hope that they all can say they are having a great day . put some effert into you dealing with everyone . go that extra mile .

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One other thing I am trying when angry is just to close my eyes take a deep breath and think myself in to a happy place. It worked yesterday for the anger at my hubby.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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What if your at work! That's what I'm dealing with today...super angry at husband and feeling like filling the emptiness I'm feeling right now!! UGH emoticon emoticon

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE I was abstinent yesterday


Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 Eastern Standard Time Phone meeting (712-432-5200 pin: 836731#)
Read 100 pages in my VO book
Read program materials
Read 1 VO webpage
Make time with Phil to do my step work
Practice VO exercise
listen to last weeks session and practice scripts


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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I talked to my therapist today about my eating when angry and we talked about things I could do instead like getting on here and posting and giving my hubby rub down when angry at him, at first the rub would be deep and hard which hubby might like but as I do it my anger will go away.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
listen to speaker file
read program material
practice VO script
read VO book
check out 1 VO page or watch video


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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ChangingTurtle - I'm glad for you that you were aware of what was going on and that you posted here!

I am also glad that this team is here. I need to be a more consistent participant. I came here now just to do something, to break the ice and get back in. Hello, teammates!

Mary D.


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Today while out for my walk with my walking buddy she said she needed to buy some cookies.For me "they are a trigger food for me and I really don't need to buy any". Why did I not keep saying that as I took myself to the store and bought a bag of them. I opened the bag and ate until I was stuffed. But I did stop there and put them away. I do not want any more and they may get stale before I want any again. Every now and then I feel like it is not fair that I can't eat like my thin friends. Why did I keep eating those cookies until I was stuffed. Why do I do this to myself. Oh well it is over now and I can't take it back but I can learn from it. Next time I will just buy one big cookie and let it go at that. I will not buy a bag of cookies I really don't want that!!!!!
I need to keep myself on the right track and keep things under control. Thank you for letting me vent it is good to have team mates that I can share how I feel, thank you for being there.

I AM A FIGHTER, A WARRIOR I AM DETERMINED TO NOT BE OVER WEIGHT . I WILL STAY ON TRACK

Who I am really keeps surprising me.

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**Food Mentioned**

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday. I took my nieces swimming and then got them something at the local dairy bar.

I had a small milkshake, but I did not plan for it nor did I text my sponsor and let him know what I was having for a snack.

It is not something that is a trigger food for me, yet the compulsive side of me was afraid I not get permission to have it so I deceptively just didn't clear it.

Things like this are an ever present reminder that I have come so far but I still have a ways to go.

The rest of my day was well food wise. I took positive actions by attending a phone meeting and making out reach calls. I was not present and pray before each of my meals, I did give thanks afterwards. I will be mindful of this today. I had a great day hanging out with my nieces.

I am going to discuss some things with my sponsor regarding my "romantic" life as it were. I tend to get distracted by women and dating. I honestly have no idea how I will be able to remove that distraction, but then again I never thought I would not be eating pizza either, anything is possible

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 Eastern Standard Time Phone meeting (712-432-5200 pin: 836731#)
Read 100 pages in my VO book
Read program materials
Read 1 VO webpage
Make time with Phil to do my step work
Practice VO exercise
listen to last weeks session and practice scripts

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Thank you Turtle for your positive words. Its important for me to get those feelings out when I have them, the more I keep them to myself and don't share with anyone the darker I sink down into the hole

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Feeling great today but a little sore from exercising. I did a workout DVD this morning and this afternoon was treadmills and stationary bikes.

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Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

I have not really been feeling that great lately. I've been feeling stuffed when I eat. I have not been eating more than I put down if anything I eat a little bit less. I am still in a "mood" I have gotten away from my daily program routine, I will get back on track this morning

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Read program material
Make outreach calls
Do a phone meeting @ 945
Read 50 pages in Voice Over book
Read 1 web page
Watch Video Tom Sent
Practice Script
Meditate for 5 min
Do VO exercises
Get out and walk for 5-10 min

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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