all great suggestions here :) perhaps you need help outside of yourself. Perhaps Therapy? perhaps a support group, perhaps meetings like OverEaters Anonymous.
What we eat is sometimes eating us. Like me it sounds like something is "off" that your eating to satisfy some urge or to try and numb some sort of pain or discomfort. I do that all the time, I believe alot of us do. We have to find our own path and figure out what we need to do in order to be well.
chances are you already know some of it, if there are things you know you should be doing that would help you but you REALLY don't want to do them, chances are you may need to start doing them *chuckles* I always put off till tomorrow the things I don't want to do today.
Habits can be changed is just takes more work releasing a habit than it is to build one, however it takes time to build a habit so its going to take time to release it.
If you are indeed sick of sabotaging yourself then get up and do something about it!! you don't need to know what to start with, try anything and everything. Do what must be done, only you can ultimately decide what path is right for you, don't be afraid to explore and take chances, take some peoples advice and try it, if it helps keep it, if not then release it.
You will find your way just get moving and you can build it as you go :)
I have been where you are and I know how frustrating it can be, but i am working to do the things i need to do to stay well. i have readings I do mostly everyday, I pray in some fashion, I meditate, I swim for an hour in the pool. I do things like this on the computer, I talk to people on the phone concerning my 12 step program, i reach out to people and I do my best to make the most of my day. Some days i succeed other days I fall short. The wonderful thing is everyday at dawn yesterday is gone, its history, the book is closed. I have a fresh, clean brand new day to do WHATEVER I wish with it, what happens is up to me, and you have the same choice :)
Keep your head up you will make it through this as long as you do not quit :)
" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."
| Pounds lost: 94.0