I am SO proud of myself.
Did it did it did it!
Of course, from the second I opened my eyes this morning I was trying to find excuses not to, 1st my husband's socks in the living room, why does he leave them there? He thinks I am his maid?? Then the dishes dirty in the sink ( I know I know, fly lady**), then, then...my resentment build up and I decided to stay in PJ's and watch a movie...
But then somehow I started thinking: I don't want to be the lazy fat mom who sits in her PJ's and watch movies, I want to be the fit, happy, organized, clean-house mom who is upbeat and positive.
In a whim, I cleaned my house ( meaning I made it presentable :-) ) I made supper and wrote my husband ( he is amazing btw...forget the socks) a love note telling him how much I appreciate him ( I was already playing in my mind how I am going to yell at him and diminish him for leaving his socks in the living room and how lazy, nasty and bad he is...wow)
And of course, I started my workout.
I wanted to give up again after 20 minutes, I cried and I kept yelling to myself " I am fit, I am FIT, I am the fit person who works out for 30 min a day, I am THAT thin healthy fit woman!!!
Thanks for listening!
The only choice is whether I will take the next step or not, beyond that, it is not up to me right now.
| current weight: 240.7