Guess what y'all! GUESS WHAT???
I did it!
Day 2 DONE!!!
Now you have to understand, besides my inner devil finding out a million excuses not to workout , I planned for my baby to go to sleep at 11 am so I can start working out then...now she is 1 y.o and she ALWAYS sleeps exactly at 11 ( we are overseas now, Texas is still sleeping). So of course, the day I plan to exercise and I prepare my videos is the day she decides not to go to sleep, she cried when I put her in her crib, I left her 5 minutes ( usually she falls asleep) but she started screaming...
I cried, and cried, I felt horrible, I hated everything around me, why does this happen to ME?? This is so UNFAIR! All I want to do is workout!
I calmed myself down, I am not managing an inconvenience, it is my baby. Right now I need to put her to sleep, rock her, play with her, whatever it is she needs. If she doesn't go to sleep then I will push working out to later today. If she goes to sleep then I will workout even if dishes, laundry and cooking doesn't get done. I am #1. I need to be #1 so I can focus on my baby well, focus on myself and stop the train of guilt.
now I am gonna wash dishes and shower.
The only choice is whether I will take the next step or not, beyond that, it is not up to me right now.
| current weight: 240.7