I have not rewarded myself with food in over 3 months. For a person that weighed 401 lbs, it's been tough. Food was my reliable comfort when nothing and no one else was. Now, I reward myself by fitting into my clothes better, by looking at how much more toned my arms and legs are, and by that scale going down more and more. I don't get anxiety attacks that feel like heart attacks anymore. I don't have acid reflux every night from eating so much food.
Really, the biggest treat for me is that I actually feel good now, something that was fleeting and rare 3 months ago. I especially noticed it this week when I stopped making water consumption a priority; even though I increased my weight training and cardio time/intensity, I managed to gain 7 lbs back. After four days and becoming hysterical, I realized I barely drank more than 32 oz of water every day when I was drinking 120 daily up until Monday. Then I realized, this is how I used to feel ALL THE TIME. Maybe you can't realize how much physical pain you were in, until you finally stop feeling it.
So, SparkTeam, thanks for reading this. It's enough of a treat that this website exists as a (free!) support system for people like me; I wouldn't be anywhere without it.
| current weight: 357.0