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12/27/09 9:44 P

Oh, I'm so sorry you missed the performance. My daughter was to be in her winter concert last Tuesday night and my husband was going to miss it due to work, but then we got a snowstorm and school was cancelled the whole week. We're hoping the concert will be rescheduled...and we'll all be able to attend.

Working nights is the pits. Some semesters I have to; others I don't. My kids HATE it when either DH or I aren't home around dinner time (he doesn't always make it for dinner but still is usually home by 7, except for the dreaded "work nights"). They tell me all the time to stop working nights, but it's usually not my call.

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12/24/09 3:34 P

Thanks. I do get 2 days off. I worked last night and come home. I decided not to go to bed, but to force myself to stay awake and get things done. I'm actually not feeling overly tired. Anyway, I don't go back until Saturday night and then only Saturday. I then go back for 4 twelve hour shifts next week. That will all depend on what the census at work is though. The last couple of nights have been very busy - unusual for right before Christmas. People don't normally go the hospital unless they feel they have no choice on Christmas. It should definitely be less work the next few days anyway.

Have a Very Merry Christmas and A Wonderful New Year full of Hope, Happiness, and Health. May you accomplish all that you set out to do.

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12/24/09 9:30 A

Thank you.

Your words really helped a lot. I do feel better today.

I also wish you luck with your job. Those nights can be tough. I hope you get a few days off for Christmas.

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12/24/09 6:24 A

I know how you feel. I am so sorry you are having to miss it. My daughter had her band concert last week for Christmas. She is 1st chair in the flute section. They held it on a Thursday night, and I work every Thursday. I told her I wouldn't be able to go, and I could tell in her tone of voice that she was so disappointed - she just got upset and said "fine, I just won't go - it's not that big of a deal". But I could tell by her tone that it was a big deal. A wonderful lady from church took her and my nanny took her brothers and sister. My husband also had to work and missed it. I have felt really depressed these last couple of months as well because it seems like I have to miss out on so much with my children. Also, I have gained back 18 pounds in the last 4 months because of eating like garbage at 3:00 am when I'm tired, cold, and doing whatever I can to stay awake at work. Also, my sleep has been suffering during the day. Sometimes I can only sleep 3 or 4 hours and then my body wakes me up and I'm wide awake and then dead tired later at work in the middle of the night.

I wish I had magic words to tell you that would stop the hurting and anger, but there aren't really any. This is life and we have to do things to survive and take care of our families. You are supporting her even though you may not feel like it. Without you working, she may not be able to enjoy the dancing and other things she is involved with because of lack of funds. I have been there so many times. It is so hard to tell the kids they can't do something because you can't afford it - especially when all their friends can do it and they feel left out. Maybe that can be a small consolation anyway.

I hope you feel better. Good luck.

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12/23/09 10:41 A

My daughter is dancing at the Nutcracker production tonight and I feel really bad that I would not be able to do her hair bun for her. I know that seems like such a small detail, but she can't do it by herself yet and neither can my husband. I feel bad that I had to go to work and will not be there to help her with make up and hair. Because of this, I am so mad at everything and everybody. I am mad that I have to work, I am mad at my husband, at my boss, at my co-workers, at my life, etc. It is just not a good day for me. Of course, my monthly hormones are a little up today also on top of everything, which makes things even harder.

Thanks for listening.