Since stopping chemo a year ago, I've been trying to lose the weight I gained while ON chemo. I gained 40 pounds (not on steroids). Insulin dose and diabetes are also in the mix, along with activity limitations due to fibromyalgia, bone spurs, degenerative joint and disc diseases, and a severe intolerance to being overheated (I wear ice vests to appointments and the once/month trip to the store and pharmacy).
EVERY appointment since last September (end of chemo- was on for 19 months) has been focused on my weight. At least %50 of what he says to me is about weight. He's told me to not eat unsweetened fruit. (I don't always get in one serving of unsweetened fruit/day- I'm not fat because of fruit
). Told me to go swim in the YWCA's heated pool- as I'm sitting there in an ice vest. Asked if I sit at home and eat cookies, candy, cakes, and chips all day. I don't even have those things in my home. (and that was kind of snarky, IMO).
Maybe they don't have fat people in Iran, I don't know. I've tried to tell this guy to back off, but he keeps it up. The only time he backed off is when I started crying- then turned it into something about him- he'd worked hard to keep me alive, and didn't want me depressed- I wasn't depressed, I was/am FRUSTRATED. But it was about how hard he worked. I got the point, but it's not about him.
The guy did a great job dealing with the leukemia. I was half dead when I got diagnosed. I've had 4 'clean' bone marrows, starting with the one in the hospital after the induction chemo (spent 6 weeks inpatient initially). I'm now on 3x/year appointments and yearly bone marrow biopsies.
I sent a request to my primary doc for a referral to another oncologist. I have been dreading seeing the other guy for quite a while, and it's not helping the old eating disorder messages that I fought hard to deal with. I don't want to be a wimp, but this guy is a negative now. His job is done. I'm seeing an endocrinologist next week to deal with the insulin issues (were fine before chemo).
I thought I'd get 'skinny chemo'- I got the fat stuff ! But at least I'm alive to whine about it !!
| Pounds lost: 4.0