My boyfriend suggested SparkPeople to me after he got tired of my ED tendencies slowly getting worse. His mom is on it. I was skeptical at first, but now it has helped me so much!
The name chikadee is my handle on the Internet for most everything. From screen names, etc. It started as a nickname between an ex and I. I used to IM my friends saying "What's up chikadee?" at least my female friends. I was talking to him online one day and said, "What should I call you?" and settled on Rooster. Our pet names were Rooster and Chickadee. I started becoming more involved in an IRC room for a podcast I listen to. This was after the ex and I broke up. I used the name chikadee. Since them it's how I've been known on the Internet.
My goal weight is to get to 165. As far as wellness goes, I want to have my asthma completely under control so I can play sports again. I want my low self-esteem to be done and over with, too.
My breaking moment...hmm. Well, before I started on SparkPeople my binge eating was slowly turning into anorexia. It didn't get serious before my friends noticed what I had been saying and doing. My boyfriend gave me the ultimatum of doing it the healthy way or he's gone. Since then I've struggled with exercise bulimia from time to time but overall things are going really well. I just got tired of hating everything about my body.
The hardest part of my journey...I can't really say there has been one. I absolutely love exercising. I love that I'm losing weight, I love getting compliments and encouragement. It's been easy for me. I guess the hardest part has just been breaking out of old thought patterns.
I would tell someone starting out: Don't ever get discouraged and don't ever let anyone bring you down or tell you can't do something. And most importantly always keep in mind that everything will be okay. If not now, then eventually.
My secret? Hmm...don't view it negatively. Always try to think of it as something positive. It's kind of become a game for me, at least with exercise. I like to push myself and see how far I can go. You also don't have to make any drastic changes. I think tracking my food was the biggest head start in my wellness journey. Also, always think about it in the long run if you start to get discouraged. How healthy you will feel, all the things you can do that you couldn't do before.
I have not read The Spark.
I don't really have mini goals and I don't really set rewards for myself. If there's something I really want to do like paint my nails or some other hobby, I tell myself that I can do it after I work out. Money is really tight so I can't even really buy any new clothes, yet. When I get to 200, though, that's when I'm going to start buying a few more new clothes. My goals and my rewards kind of come about themselves. I'm rewarded when I can look in the mirror and be a little bit more okay with what I see and feel.
Happiness is varied. I was going to say it's when you can feel at least content with most areas of your life but I still have so much stress going on. Happiness is when you can be at peace for a moment. For instance, last night I was happy because I had a boyfriend that loved me and we were texting while I was lying in bed with my kitties and reading a good book. I felt okay with the world and I didn't have any worries.
| current weight: 260.0