I haven't been to this board in years, but I felt like checking in today.
Maybe it's to be there for you? :)
One of the best books I ever read was "Believing Christ" - in a nutshell, so many times we believe IN Christ, but we forget to believe Him when He says He can make things right....and that we don't have to be perfect in this life - but that we are perfect as we stay partnered with him.
I can imagine that it's so challenging with family opposition - my husband is stalwart, but being a convert myself my parents are not members, I wasn't raised in any particular faith, etc. Heavenly Father knows our limitations and is pleased with ANY steps we take that lead us to him, even if they are tiny or imperfect.
What about choosing -one- thing and doing that? Maybe....listening/watching one of the recent Conference talks each day (15 minutes or less of your time each day)? Please believe that it is ENOUGH to do one small thing each day....because as you are diligent in that one thing, you will find your strength growing...and more importantly, your trust in your Father's love for you. Because I imagine that is so at the core of what you're going through: are you worthy of His love, even now?
Yes, yes, and YES!!!
(and for what it's worth, coming from the perspective of a RS president/counselor, your ward may be really short on active people - my ward, for instance, is about 25% active and 75% inactive! - and so there may be sisters whose routes are "letter only" because of their limitations in travel, mobility, etc. If you want, message me and I can help you find out the names of your bishop and RS president.)
Janie, Thank you so much! I love the second quote.My kids are 4,6,9 & 11. As for my bishop knowing, no - honestly, I don't even know who it is. As for my visiting teaching I have never meant her, I just get a letter once a month in the mail from her. Thanks again for your post.
I am so sorry to hear about your problems. I know much of what you feel. I have been there with doubts about things. Not so much about the church but my place in it. There are two quotes that come to my mind. First is; "If ever you are tempted to become discouraged or to lose faith, remember those faithful Saints who remained true in Kirtland. Hold on a little longer. You can do this! You are part of a special generation. You were prepared and preserved to live at this important time in the existence of our beautiful planet earth. You have a celestial pedigree and therefore have all the necessary talents to make your life an eternal success story."
--President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "Hold on a Little Longer", January 2010 Ensign
Second is: "Because of Christ there is hope smiling brightly before you, and you need not worry too much about sickness, death, poverty, or other afflictions. The Lord will take care of you. Your responsibility is to keep the commandments, feast upon the words of Christ, and stay in the path to your heavenly home."
--Julie B. Beck, "There Is Hope Smiling Brightly before Us", Ensign, May 2003, 103
Do NOT let your problems come between you & the Lord. I am a single mother from NC & believe me here in the "Bible Belt" you get a lot of opposition to the church. You do not say how old your kids are, but it is important to give them the foundation of the church. I am a single mom of a 20 year old son & I know how important that is. I also have suffered from severe depression off & on my whole life.
As far as weight & shame I know about that. At my highest I was only 15 pounds shy of 500 pounds. I came to realize if that was keeping me from church then my lack of self esteem was more important than my desire to serve & worship him & THAT was NOT the truth! Often we need to look outside ourselves to grow.
Also, does your visiting teacher/home teacher and/or bishop know about your financial situation? There may be help spiritually and maybe financially if you but ask.
I know you are going to think I am a quote crazy and I may be but two quotes from Sherry Dew helped me big time through a particularly bad period for me.
“Challenges that tax our faith are usually opportunities to stretch and strengthen our faith by finding out if we really believe the Lord will help us.”
We're not alone--at least, we're alone only if we choose to be alone. We're alone only if we choose to go through life relying solely on our own strength rather than learning to draw upon the power of God. ”
Please know I will keep you in my prayers dear sister.
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I'll be honest here. I have come to one of the lowest points in my life, full of anger, resentment, and my faith is...questionable. I am a convert. I haven't been to a LDS church jin over a year, despite the fact I have asked my husband two or three times only to hear him say no (because he's embarassed about his weight).
My home went into foreclosure almost a year ago, and I have attempted to take the kids - only twice to a LDS church. The first time was conference, the second time was the wrong time. I ended up going to another church for two weeks in a row, extremely overcrowded, and no one really willing to talk or whatever. It just made my social anxiety worse.
I haven't been the best mom or wife I know I can be. Sometime I cry during the day, have nervous breakdown, and hate life because I feel so alone. Idk what I need. My mom and dad, sister are against the LDS religion and I'm just tired of trying to make other people happy. However, it makes it hard with them.
Any ideas for self help books to read, inspirations or stories would be nice. I'm so tired of feeling alone, depressed, and miserable. I am not extragerrating when I say I have no friends. I have 2 - both 2 I have had since high shcool. However, one is about 3 hours away, the other about an hour.
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