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I agree, that's weird. I'm really pleased that my back has been much better after that careful morning exercise.

Well, no groceries after the play. The main play, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead was very good, but the 15-minute Hamlet that preceded it, followed by succeedingly shorter encores down to a 1-minute version was utterly fantastic and absolutely hilarious. I laughed so hard I cried, and my stomach hurt.
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But while there was only moderate rainfall on the drive down south before the play, the drive back north was plagued with heavy rain a number of times where the wipers were going double time and the lanes got hard to see with all the water sheeting across the pavement and splashing from the tires. I was very pleased that while I was tense and concentrating very hard, I wasn't at all panicked. I kept up a pretty steady mantra of "I am safe and all is well." My hands didn't cramp up from a death grip on the steering wheel as has happened in the past. But there was no way I was prolonging the driving, and was extremely pleased to make it home. HOping for better weather tomorrow, as I only have a day's worth of several food items remaining.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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4/23/17 2:34 P
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Ah, naproxen is a staple for me, too. :)

Glad you got a good deal on some plants.

I haven't been all that productive the past couple weeks. My soon-to-be-ex-husband has been super nice to everyone, but, a few times he's slipped and almost gone into his usual behavior.
So, even though I'm no longer afraid of him nor no longer emotionally invested in keeping him happy over my happiness or the kids' comfort levels... it's still a bit of an underlying strain, just waiting to see if today is the day he's going to slip and do back to being 'old him'.

Also awkward that I wanted to go out and buy some running pants and he insisted on coming along and wanted to see them as I tried them on.
Um, no. I don't care how many years he was a runner, I don't want or need him checking the fit of my pants.
It's just weird.

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I need to figure out again how to download pix off my phone. I want to look at and share tulip photos I took, and will try pix of my flowers as well. I especially like that I now have more beauty and growing energy in the good fortune bagua (feng shui) of my home.

I spent a lot of time bent over--though much of it seated--while repotting on the balcony. Earlier in the day I did a double workout, 20 minutes of core strengthening exercises, and later a 10-minute "flat abs" (core) cardio routine. Well, I ended up with an achy lower back on the right side. Took some naproxen last night and again this morning. I also just did a double cardio workout for bad backs by Jessica Smith. It's the first time I had tried it since I got my step platform, and I liked the workout. I appreciate that she reminded us to go at our own pace several times, and I was often going slower to make sure I was doing moves safely. Other than that, the only modification I had to make was not flexing my wrists on the forward press: I punched my fists forward instead of pushing with palms out. It's one blind spot she seems to have on her videos. But I liked her back stretch at the end, which she does 4 times--more than usual on her stretches--and I did them all both times through!

Got to run and eat my oatmeal & fruit, shower, dress and get on the road to meet Mary at Panera for our pre-play lunch. Then groceries (and maybe dirt/potting soil) afterwards, on the way home. Have a great day, dear teammates!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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4/23/17 2:23 A

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After picking up groceries at Costco and cat food at Target, I ran by Lowe's to see if I could pick up any spring flowers to plant. I got some of those little plastic trays of 6 blooms in little connected sleeves 3 or 4 inches deep & maybe an inch across--4 of pansies/violas and 2 of petunias. I expected to pay #2.98 each, but they were on clearance of $1 each! I repotted almost all of them, though I've about run out of potting soil. I'll try to pick up more of that tomorrow after our play. Getting together with Mary for the next performance of the season. I'm especially looking forward to the 15-minute Hamlet. I think it's supposed to be followed by the 10, 5, 3, and 1 minute versions, or something like that. The full-length performance is of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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4/21/17 12:14 A

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Yep, we tend to deal with enough heavy stuff in our lives or our history--let's be light-hearted or energetic when we can, if only in a name! emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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lol, I like it. I could use with showing a bit more SAss

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4/19/17 11:23 P

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emoticon for your support, fellow SAssy! (That's my pet nickname for our team) emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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4/19/17 3:11 P
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That's a great recovery, good for you!
Rejection can sting pretty harshly.

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4/19/17 12:33 A

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After yesterday's news that I not only wasn't selected, but didn't even rate a second interview, kept my energy up until the end of shift when I kind of crashed. (My supervisor had come by my desk after my meeting with her & the manager to say if I needed to take a walk, that would be fine.) I thought to myself I'm disappointed, but not that surprised. They really aren't looking for someone with my vision and passion--they may even be looking for someone they can control better.

Once I got home the sting of rejection felt a bit stronger, and other than a 20-minute cardio & ST workout, and a 5-minute cleaning session, I didn't get much more done besides making dinner and Sparking. Cuddled with one of my plush bears (the dark brown one, Molly, short for Molasses Bear) in bed, but slept soundly.

When I journaled this morning, I began with "Let's concentrate on experiencing our Core Desired Feelings today and not grinding on yesterday's news." And near the end wrote "And let's show them how resilient we are, how we will focus on other goals & desires and not lose momentum in moving forward." I was genuinely cheerful & productive for virtually the entire day, catching a couple of heavy thoughts & consciously releasing them. And I did some research tonight, another 20-minute workout, 2 cleaning sessions, and emailing a friend. I really am quite proud of how I'm handling it all!
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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Yes, good luck on making those changes. I have been working on the being less isolated thing, too. It has been helping me keep on a more even keel emotionally.

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Laundry and groceries both done earlier. Took a nap in between them. Also prepped supplements & 2 days of salad extras for work. Just did more dishes and definitely running out of steam. Since my nap went a bit late, I'm thinking I'll see one more Elementary episode before turning in. Good night to all, and have a wonderful Monday!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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4/16/17 12:40 P

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That sounds so positive and healthy, Amy, to work on breaking out of isolation. That's one of my challenges, too, and connecting with people and trying new things & going to new places is one of my ongoing goals. The gift of connection is the reason that conversing in teams & with Spark Friends is my main focus on Spark these days. I spend less time tracking and checking articles since they devalued point gathering by removing the team spins. (That's the unintended consequence of their action that they really don't get--unfortunately.)

Laundry and grocery shopping are the main items on my chore list today. And I want to spend some time doing financial tracking, & sort & purge. Already did one short workout. Want to fit in one or 2 more through the day.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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4/16/17 2:26 A

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Your vacation sounds heavenly! I've heard some about that area, and it's on my bucket list to visit someday.

I'm sorry that I haven't written much lately. It's a part of my depression, but also some really poor time management, and just hating the way Spark has changed it's points and page. I just don't feel motivated to be here as much.

I've been working some on my depression, talking with a counselor from my local domestic violence agency on the phone. She's been great, understanding some of my difficulty in finding a counselor who is trained in trauma and DV. Also understanding my reluctance to commit to going to a counselor, especially with my work schedule and trying to work things around the girls. She has recommended a few articles and some journaling exercises to help me, though I'm not very dilligent with them yet. Journaling is difficult for me since my ex used to read my old journals and use the info against me.

Speaking of my ex, he's acting crazy again, going so far as to come up to my house to drop off or pick up the girls. I told the girls that if it continues I will call the police (not that they will do anything) because it is a violation of our order. The girls begged me not to do it until after their weekend with him because he will act crazy all weekend, and they want to avoid it. It did give me a huge anxiety attack, but I got mad that he was managing to control my mood with his antics. Right about then a calendar reminder popped up that there was an Arlo Guthrie concert in Davis tonight. So I made a point of taking myself out. Although I was alone, I had a great time people watching, and greatly enjoyed the concert. He sang a few of his father's songs, including "This Land is Your Land" and some Bob Dylan songs, and even "City of New Orleans" which I had never seen him do in concert.

One of my goals is to make some friends outside of work so that I can go out with a grown-up, and do things without the girls sometimes. I feel like I have been isolating myself through my busy schedule, and it has to stop. No wonder my ex is still controlling my emotions, when he texts me more than any other person ever has! So it's time for me to figure out what my interests are, and find other people who enjoy them.

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It is such fun to get away for a short time, see new things & new places, and enjoy more of the glorious gifts that life offers.

We enjoyed a delicious and filling hot breakfast (complimentary) at the hotel, then played some Boggle before taking off for the tulip fields, this time to RoozenGaarde--fields and gardens. www.tulips.com/tulip-festival-inform
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Oh, boy, the traffic! We've decided on any future trips we'll hit the gardens on Friday to miss the crowds. We were in overflow parking a LONG often muddy walk--past blooming tulip fields at least--from the display gardens themselves. Lots more photo ops of growing tulips, plus daffies, hyacinth, and a few others, much less shopping (we looked but didn't buy anything). Food lines were horrendous, luckily with Best Western feeding us so well, we skipped that. We figure we got an hour to an hour and a half walking in today!

Then it was back to town, passing still horrible weekend traffic headed to the fields, to lunch at the Skagit Valley Food Co-op (across the street from the Calico Cupboard where we lunched yesterday). www.skagitfoodcoop.com/ They have a nice salad bar where we created our individual style salads, then I picked up a latte (with cookie butter flavoring!) and Mary got a Cinnamon Tuxedo cookie, and we headed back south. We took 405 to steer clear of Seattle traffic, and didn't get too slowed up for the most part. Had a truly excellent time together, have a number of gifts taken care of, and made notes to make our next trip work even better.

I've unpacked clothes, done dishes, and have a bit more to put away after relaxing with another episode of Elementary. I've already watched a couple in between chores. I do enjoy alternating between productive and relaxing activities.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Howdy all! I'm sending greetings from the lovely Skagit Valley in Northern Washington. We got away a little later than planned--about 10:30, but it was just a little over an hour up here, and we went straight to the Calico Cupboard for lunch. www.calicocupboardcafe.com/mount-ver
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We even sat in the middle table shown o the mezzanine in the photo on the website, with the plants next to us! I had a nice Tuscan turkey sandwich (half) & cup of a delicious peanut butter vegetable soup--with a cinnamon latte after lunch.

Then it was off to Art in a Pickle Barn (which began in a pickle barn, but is now housed at the Azusa Farm and Gardens. Lots of local artists in a variety of media display and sell their works. I got lovely copper earrings and little notecards for gifts. Then we went to Tulip Town where we did more shopping. tuliptown.com/ Mary and I found beautiful matching sparkly, multi-colored, though mostly purple beaded stretch bracelets. We each got Festival T-shirts with this year's image. We both bought small gifts for 6-Pack and coworkers. And I laughed uproariously at a gift shop sign that read "Sorry for the mess, but we live here." Oh, and we spent $2 each to ride the tractor trolley around the fields with stops for photos. It was windy & chilly, and they kindly provided blankets you could spread across several laps to keep us warm.

Then I directed us to our hotel--our first time at the Best Western Plus which sits next door to my old health club. They give a free pass you can use there, though we're pretty pooped from the walking and fresh air (and early rising to pack!). We did a simple dinner of Subway salads which we brought back to our room and ate as we played games and talked. We've seen lovely country and bought cool stuff for ourselves and friends, and are now relaxing--the best of mini-vacations! Wishing everyone well this weekend and always.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Yay! Glad you found your games AND coffee source. Enjoy. :)

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I even checked to see where the nearest coffee will be to the hotel. I used to bring coffee & cream in a cooler to make it in the room for my first thing in the morning cup. But I find there's usually an espresso stand of some kind pretty close by--I just have to do some checking.

Took care of a few things at work, including my OOO (out of office) messages for phone and email. Managed to do some clearing at the start of the day, and after my shift: slowly chipping away at that built up clutter. After several days with no exercise, I did ~40 minutes of cardio and ST with 2 Jessica Smith workouts. I've pulled together a few items to pack; really should be easy to gather tomorrow morning. And from where I'm sitting on the couch, I finally clapped eyes on my games basket that never got back into the proper organizer cubby. I had warned Mary on the phone I hadn't seen my games, and she'd need to bring hers--but now we can enjoy a mix! So relieved and happy to find them. Just planning to relax with one more Elementary episode before turning in.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Ah, good planning and knowing what is around takes the stress of a trip out of the picture for me. Enjoy! :)

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Well, I'm very proud that I did a bunch of planning for our trip, looking up and writing down directions to get up to our favorite restaurant in the area for lunch Friday, then to one of my favorite venues, Art in a Pickle Barn, followed by Tulip Town for the fields and gift shop. Then to the hotel, to a possible Subway for salads for dinner, then in the morning out to Roozengaarde, more bulb fields--mostly tulips, but also daffodils and other bulb flowers, then to the Skagit Food Co-op for lunch before hopping on the freeway and returning. Of course we may end up changing, but I have some instructions for getting around! I'm so excited!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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4/11/17 11:19 P

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Thanks--I really appreciate it! emoticon

As I said in my wall status, I'm pretty exhausted; it was an emotionally intense day. Looking forward to soup, another Elementary episode. I stopped by the library on my way home from work, and picked up seasons 2 and 3. I just reviewed my post-interview thank you message draft, and like it, so I'll go email that to the 3 panel members--my office manager, the Seattle/Bellevue office manager, and one of our two Regional Program Managers (above the Customer Service Program Manager & below the Regional Administrator).

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Best of luck with the panel! I'm sure you'll do great. emoticon

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I've reviewed my materials for tomorrow. Don't want to overthink or over-prepare. I know I can do the job--probably better than anyone else. The trouble is I don't know specifically what the panel wants to hear. I continue to pray for a better job where I can earn more money and make a difference, use my strengths and talents, have a positive impact. Gotta keep hoping they will recognize how much I offer.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I did a long ST session on Core, overdid a bit, as my lower back was hurting some later, so I took some generic Aleve, and I'm doing OK now. Worked on a profile for a job I saw on Linked In; I'm not sure if it's been filled yet. It's administrative with a Puget Sound educational group, and the pay is Good! So I'll keep working on it until I hear it's been filled. But since it's not through the state, I'm having to create all the data from scratch. I don't know all my GPAs and quarter credits from the 80s and 90s--hope it's OK to leave those fields blank!

I've got another interview coming up on Tuesday, so I printed some documents to review. This is for the CSS Lead in my office. I know I'm eminently qualified, but I don't know what they'll be asking or how they will be judging. Oh, and I did ask about the first interview, but was told they are still in the hiring process. I thanked the supervisor for the update, and just have to hope that she sees my interest as a positive thing. I think 2 and half weeks had elapsed, so I don't think I was being pushy to inquire.

Did a couple quick errands to deposit birthday checks, which I'll be using for my Skagit Tulip Festival trip with Mary, and mail a birthday card and letter. I realized I don't really need groceries. I think I can make it until I return from our overnight up north.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I've been busy today getting little tasks done and do some clearing and cleaning, even reestablished my 2 small kitchen OOs that had been MIA for quite a few days there. Much relieved! Also have a card and a letter ready to go out in the mail emoticon --it feels good to connect to people. emoticon

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Much happier after eating that big kitchen sink salad! emoticon I didn't mention (because I was busy submitting my application) that Monday at work I was very proud of my contributions to a staff meeting with Central Office bigwigs. This is the second year they've come around to the regions to discuss the results of an agency wide survey on how well they are doing at being "an employer of choice" (recruiting and retaining the best people--1 of 5 major department goals). I made the point when the invitation went out to participate that last year, Customer Service staff rotated in and out for 10 minutes or so out of a 2-plus hour meeting, so got little out of it. We were promised that they would make sure those who wanted could attend. So Monday comes around and we have several people out, so my supervisor asked me if I'd like to attend the morning session (being held in Seattle) by Skype--which I did. (Good thing too, as the afternoon session in Tukwila was held when we were rotating lunches, doing our 3:00 financial reconciliation and deposit, and swamped with customers besides!

Anyway, I did ask questions and make a few points (the only one from my office group to do so), including a passionate call for a different classification and pay scale for customer service staff in the field offices who have to understand, explain and work with the rules and forms of every agency program--and other agencies as well!--plus handle monies and payments of all kinds and provide administrative and facilities support to an entire office full of staff, vs those in Central Office who work with one program & set of rules and never handle money or interact with customers face-to-face. I was proud of myself for speaking out, and for cluing the organizers of the second session about some of the sound problems that made it very hard for the Skype audiences to understand what was being said.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I'm sure we will! Now that we have a reservation, I can be a little more leisurely about looking up favorite eating places, arts and crafts sites and activities. It's so nice to have trips and festivities to plan, especially with people you love! emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Crazy busy afternoon at work! At home I talked to sister, agreed we'll drive up to the tulip fields a week from Friday, each taking a day off for less crowds. I got us a reservation at the Best Western Plus in Mount Vernon, right by my old health club when I lived up there.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I'm glad you are aware of the possibility of depression, even a less severe form. It's good you are staying aware of your moods, and talking with your doc is probably good. I want you to find the activities and habits--and the job--that brings happiness and peace to you and your daughters. Finding ways to connect to Spirit sounds really good. Praying for blessings for us all.
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Had a lovely day off, catching up. Wrapped and mailed a birthday gift--a wonder DK visual guide, in this case to American Girls--to a special young friend. Hit Costco, Safeway--where I enjoyed chatting with my favorite clerk, Lisa, who no longer works weekends, and TJs where I found the cutest new bag of small (4-5") carrots in different colors. Returned a couple items to the library and picked up Star Trek season 1--all 10 discs! Not sure if it's extra features or that many extra episodes all those decades ago! Those hour long shows will probably run closer to 50 than 40 minutes. Oh, and then I did laundry--and have even gotten it put away!
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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I'm glad that you spent some time on the application process, though I hate that they might have access to your work without giving you the job. But if it helps you get into a better position, I am all for it!

I've been lurking but not writing much...sort of a general malaise since the equinox. It finally occurred to me that this may be a milder form of depression than I have dealt with before, and that perhaps I should ask my doctor about it. I sort of want to see if it deepens first, but at least I'm on alert for signs.

I've been investigating other jobs. Substitute teaching would improve my income, but I might not qualify for MediCal benefits anymore. If I have to get my own insurance, it might cost me more than I could afford, and actually put me a bit backward financially. I'm sort of looking at Office Assistant jobs with the state, or working in the tax phone lines office. I love working with kids, and it's definitely a dream I wanted to accomplish, but I am just not sure that's being realistic about my financial future and retirement.

I am having to replace my roof, and that is going to cost a lot more than I was expecting. But at least once it's done, I won't have to worry for several years.

My children's counselor is pushing me to get another court date, since she is accountable to the court. The girls' fathers' behavior has been a huge stressor for the girls, and I suspect there are a few things that I could handle better. She needs to report without the parents knowing what she is saying, which I've told her is fine with me, but it is still a bit unnerving.

I've been trying to open up myself a bit more spiritually, but I am a little bit scared, since that was a major trigger for my abuser. It's one of the reasons I chose to follow the Goddess group (I've been lurking a bit there, as well). But it's a bit daunting.

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I didn't do as good a job today balancing the application work with other activities, and I neglected some normal weekend chores in favor of working on my application. But the 2 big documents--the 8 page (size 14 font, outline form) training plan for new employees detailing 4 months of weekly lesson plans, and the 1-1/2 page cover letter (I usually keep it to a page, but not this one)--are written and polished. All I need to do now is review the state application and tweek a few pieces for this app and attach the documents, then submit it tomorrow evening.

Of course, if I get the offer on the employment standards job that I interviewed for, I will snatch it up in a heartbeat, since the pay is way better than the Customer Service Lead I'm applying for now. But they would still have my plans--not that many others would be able to carry it out.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I'm relaxing tonight, then will hop into the application process with both feet tomorrow, and crank out a revised and improved training plan. It would be great to submit the app on Sunday, but I also need to do laundry and groceries, so we'll see. Affirming that I *will* get a better paying job very soon.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Still haven't heard on the Employment Standards position--but still hoping! And now a new opportunity has come up. My office is getting a CSS3--a lead customer service position, like what I applied for in the Bellevue office last fall/winter. It's only open to internal candidates. I'm reviewing my materials from last time to see how I want to revise them. Not only is a cover letter required with the application, but also a training plan for new employees. And if any of us get it, they would have to hire to replace us, so there should be a new employee soon to test out the training plan on! I had planned to start reviewing and revising tonight, but I only just finished reading my Star Trek novel Vulcan's Heart (fantastic; reviewed in the What are you reading thread), and my brain is tired. I did arrange all the pages I had printed, but I'll start in earnest tomorrow or this weekend. It closes on the 5th, so I need to get working on it!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Feeling grumpy after 2 bad workouts--first an earlier Jessica Smith (who's gotten a lot better lately with modifications and cues) bodyweight cardio & ST combo that strained my elbow & may be bothering me for weeks, then tried a Spark TV new instructor for me, Liz Lefrois, with
A Cooldown for Any Workout (supposedly yoga for beginners) that was definitely not knee-friendly. So 25 extra minutes of activity, not not happy ones--sigh!
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But more cleaning success at work! Broke down a couple largish boxes that had been sitting there under my standing desk, one empty & one with a few unclaimed Wellness prizes. Broke those down & put in recycling bin, then emptied a banker box & filled with various stacks of papers and files to be sorted, liberating desk surface. It's so exciting watching this transformation. My supervisor complimented me on my progress a couple days ago.
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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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It was good to get some feedback from my interview. It sounded like I may have been their 3rd pick, with just 2 job openings. As the supervisor said, he knows I have the skills to do the job, so he had to think about fit. And he had 2 minor concerns he voiced--with one of them being clutter. I've never had anyone say that, but I'm not surprised, and it gives me that much more incentive to keep purging all the stuff I leave undone or keep hoping to get to. He was very complimentary. And afterward I learned the 2nd person (after the one who's been in a temp position in the unit), is making a lateral move, and that her job may be going away. She's been working in the region even longer than I have; in fact I took over her Office Assistant position when she promoted to her current job.

So waiting still to hear about the 2nd position I interviewed for. And today they posted and informed us all about the CSS3 Customer Service Lead position for our office. I tried for the one in a sister office (with a commute I would not have liked). I'll start working on that one, utilizing some of my work on the last try.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I posted on the Success thread tonight--had to brag on a work win. And last night I shared a gratitude story on that thread.

Today I put in some planning and intentions time after work--I'd like to make that a more regular habit. And I did a Jessica Smith video I like--1 mile plus lower body toning with weights. (I also like the corresponding or complimentary upper body workout.) For the first in a few weeks I used slightly heavier weights for most of the exercises, though I scaled back down for lunges--gotta be careful with those knees!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I did my 3-pronged grocery run this morning--Costco, Safeway, Trader Joe's. I've cleaned and chopped the Costco mushrooms and divided into 8 little baggies that are now in the freezer ready to be tossed into a soup. emoticon A head of red cabbage has been chopped and put in a plastic container for adding by the handful to salads. emoticon And I planted 3 peony plants I picked up at Costco. emoticon So not only did I clear clutter on the balcony and sweep it, but I planted some flowers to encourage growth in my Good Fortune area. Also did some cleaning in that corner of my bedroom. I figure it can't hurt, and just might help!

On the way home from groceries, I stopped by the library to drop off a couple books. None of the several items I reserved last night had arrived yet ( emoticon ) so I looked through the DVDs in stock and picked up a couple. I saw Mother's Day by Garry Marshall with a big cast and alternating and intersecting stories. Had some funny moments and some "ahh"-sniff-sniff ones, too. Wow, Julia Roberts as a grandmother (of an infant)!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Learned yesterday I was not chosen for one of the 2 program coordinator jobs--rather surprising, but at least the supervisor offered to meet to discuss the interview and give me feedback. Today I got my taxes done, and will be getting a whopping $5 back! Was able to do my efiling for free.

I did some cleaning on the balcony, part of my Good Fortune (feng shui) bagua. Want to do what I can to positively influence the other interview decision! emoticon And I continue to do a little sorting and organizing each day at work--actually more consistent than I've been at home. After a post-taxes nap this afternoon, I did do some cleaning, managed to shift my recliner over a little for better clearance. Feeling content tonight.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Not sure why I'm so tired tonight. Had a good day at work. Had a number of nice interactions with coworkers and customers and managers. Continuing to organize papers & catch up on little things. Did a 20-minute older Coach Nicole workout (when she had really short hair). Hoping to get taxes done this weekend.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Now I want to remind all the staff (wearing my Wellness Coordinator hat) to do their SH surveys by 3/31 for that extra 100 'Early Bird' points. emoticon emoticon

I'm really enjoying clearing old papers off the old desk at work--and from under the desk too! That's where I had a small box pretty full of papers that is down to the last 1/4 to 1/2 inch of paper! emoticon emoticon

Did a couple short Jessica Smith videos after work--one for bodyweight ST & one for cardio. That also feels really good! emoticon emoticon

And I was thrilled to find my 4# of coffee waiting in the apartment office--when I checked online tracking last night it predicted delivery today. Since I am almost out at home & work, I am *much* relieved! emoticon emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Trying to get caught up with work again at work--like getting through my week's worth of contractor packets from February before my next week starts--next week! I'm continuing to purge papers, though I haven't done much yet with filing what I'm keeping. I keep thinking that if I do get an offer in another program, I'll need to step up the sorting and tossing greatly!

Finally took my Smart Health assessment for 800 points toward the 2000 I need by 9/30 for next year's health care discount. Once I hit that milestone I pretty much stop tracking there, since I track here--though with less emphasis on Spark points now, maybe I'll keep more up with their challenges and activities. Though they don't have fun teams like here!

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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So sorry for the work stress; I feel for you, and am sending prayers emoticon and healing energy emoticon emoticon your way. Very cool about the walking routine! Small consistent activities (like walking at breaks) is what really helped me start to shed my weight. And I keep it up to clear my head and focus on my well-being, instead of just entertainment. And very cool about the emoticon and vacation plans! emoticon

I feel good about the interview. I have no clue about the competition--the 2 people I know are both other CSSs in the region, one a long-timer like me, the other much newer. But I feel like I responded well to the questions and kept emphasizing the strengths I bring to the table, and ways I can contribute to the unit, beyond my own workload. The assessment wasn't what I was expecting; it was very practical, and what little prep I did helped. I'll send my thank yous and solicit feedback on my performance if I'm not selected. They hope to make a decision quickly, since the position that's being filled has been vacant since December!

I have no assumptions either way on how they'll decide. But I feed good about how I did, and hopeful. We'll see what the outcome is. And I have more incentive to keep tossing old papers at work, since I might be clearing out my cubicle for the next person rather soon. (Hope, hope!)
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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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It sounds like the job may not be for you, but hopefully the interview will open up some other possibility for you.

This week was really rough at work, and I am beginning to realize that it's time to start actively pursuing something better. The three year olds I'm working with this year are really tough customers, and there's a lot more of them this year. Also, my boss now has her office in my old classroom, so the four year olds share a space with my class. It's a lot of kids in a small space, and it's taking more mental energy than I want to spend.

The kids and I have started walking to school 3+ days per week. It's 1.4 miles from my house, so I take the kids up til the last quarter mile (because it's embarrassing for an 11 year old to be seen walking with her mother, and the last part is in sight of the school crossing guards, so I know they are reasonably safe there). Then I walk to the McDonalds by my work and get a cup of coffee to drink until it's time to go in. Then I either walk home at lunch to get my car, or walk home in the evening. It's nice to have that time to clear my thoughts, and to get that little bit of exercise. I used to walk a lot, and it's nice to start getting that piece of myself back. I can't do it on Mondays because I have to carry my library books and other school supplies, though. Bummer.

I'm getting a better tax return than I expected, so I am hoping to pay off some debts, get the roof fixed, some basic maintenance on the car (the axle boot needs redoing), and hopefully, there will be enough to take the kids on a good vacation. I'd like to visit my Mom for a few days and maybe go to a theme park for a day, if one of my relatives can let me stay overnight. In addition, my cousin invited us to spend a few days with them in Pismo Beach, telling me all I would have to pay for is the trip down (her fiancÚ is renting a house for us to stay in so we can get to know each other better). The kids are really excited, and I must admit, I am too, despite my phobia about water...and my dislike of sand and bathing suits. emoticon

I am really trying hard to be positive about the week ahead, but it's been difficult. I am just not liking my job very much right now. One of the other teachers is going through abuse from her husband, and it has brought up a lot of feelings, especially as they are "trying to work things out." I am trying not to be judgemental, since I stayed in my own marriage for so long, but it takes everything in me not to shake her by the shoulders and say "What are you doing? Get out!" I know everyone must go down their own path, but it's hard not to try to guide them down another way.

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emoticon It's interesting. I did 2 loads of laundry & got groceries. And I've tried to prepare for tomorrow's interview, but my heart isn't truly in it. I've reviewed the Wage Act itself (& boy is that legal language hard to take!) & the Customer Service University overview of the Employment Standards program. I looked and looked but could not find my application materials, including the job posting itself which I wanted to review, so as to emphasize which of my strengths match what they said they are looking for. I tried to review some of the Excel tutorials, in case they are in the assessment portion of the interview, but just couldn't cover much. Don't know if the universe is telling me this is not a right fit for me. I'll do my best, but just can't/won't knock myself out trying to nail this. I'll do well or I won't, but I know my value is not dependent on that hour and a half I'll spend with them tomorrow.
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Still got my fingers crossed, though! emoticon emoticon

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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I expected to get more done, but have done a bunch of relaxing, with some work accomplished. I did post longer messages today on gratitude and Spark resources threads.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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The potato feed at work was good. I had one potato w/ a little butter, some cheese and bacon, lots of the garlicky sauteed spinach I brought, and some bacon. Also had some corned beef and kale salad. Pretty healthy, but heavier than I usually eat at work, and felt tired and sleepy much of the afternoon.

One of the agents who does the work I'm interviewing for on Monday kindly took time to give me ideas on what to review to prep. Nobody can guess just what the assessment portion will cover. But I'll do some review and brushing up on Excel, to be as prepared as I can be.

Yesterday was clear and cold--so nice to see the emoticon again, and the morning was dry, but by lunch the skies opened up. So glad we have the big golf umbrellas from our Wellness program to encourage wet weather walking. emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I wanted to talk more about the interview, and some blessings that happened yesterday, but I got caught up finishing all my St. Patty's cards to deliver to coworkers, and reading a bunch of blog comments (including one that told me to quit complaining & support other people), and running to Costco to pick up spinach, then sauteing up a bunch of it with garlic and olive oil to contribute to the annual potato feed at work tomorrow. So I'm too tired to do much more Sparking, but there's always tomorrow!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I think today's interview went well. I believe they are filling 2 positions, so I think I have a good chance. I took the bus up, got there plenty early, but had work to do. I finished a CSU (Customer Service University) module (on Employment Standards!) that everyone is required to finish by 3/31--it's on our training plan. Or at least I finished the quiz. I haven't read every word--because there's too much material!

Then I started working on my contractor packet reviews from the last full week in February. It's my turn again at the end of March, so I'd like to have my previous round done before I start a new one. And I've found a few issues that need to be dealt with by the original CSS who processed the transaction. Anyway, it was easy to be productive without customer interruptions!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Not only am I interviewing tomorrow for the IME job (for a little more money), but I just was offered to interview on Monday for the Employment Standards job (for a lot more money). So I'm hoping there may be a change of duties and wages in my future!
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You know, it's weird not to be chasing points, but I like it! And I actually made 100 points yesterday! Of course it was my 30the day on the site, so I got 25 points for that. emoticon I've been drinking 8 cups of water quite a few days, so that some extra points--and of course it's fun to get some, so I can buy goodies for friends.
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Just finished my second reading of Etched in Bone which ends so sweetly (after both terrifying and humorous moments). I cannot wait for the next to come out--a year from now! emoticon It's going to be hard to wait. I wonder how many times I'll read the (now 5) books again, before the next installment.
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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Got some more purging done at work after work. Oh, and I got a call to interview Wednesday at 1 up in Seattle for the Program Coordinator position which may be 1 range or 2 above mine (a little room to grow). emoticon

I'm pleased that I got the 3 St. Patty's Day cards going the farthest (APO-Turkey, Hawai'i and Tennessee) into the mail today, and I just finished 3 going down to California (from WA state). Tomorrow I'll prep the ones to Oregon and Washington, then the ones being hand-delivered to coworkers.

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Good to hear from you. I need to get to bed soon, with the time change, so I'll be reasonably energetic tomorrow. Will try to catch up more later.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I took some time off from Spark to get myself some rest and get my head back on track, so when I came back and found that the parts I like most were gone, I was really ticked off. I don't deal well with change, but I do believe that if you are going to make a change, you should post a survey about what needs to be changed. As it is, the only thing I can see that they added was more commercials.

Sophia took her science trip, and got her new glasses. Sara took care of me when I was sick and distributed most of her girl scout cookies. I found out I'm getting a large tax refund, so I am using part of the money to sign up for Weight Watchers. I'm not trying to leave Spark (yet), but I think I need a better system for losing weight, and the points system worked for me in the past.

I have been reading a new series, The Green Rider series by Kristen Hamilton, and I think you would love it (except the 4th book, which is okay, but very very different, but which you have to get through to get to the last).

I've also started looking into getting another job. My babysitters mother works for the state tax office, and suggested I get a job with the call center, but I'm not sure I can handle people calling and yelling. It's too much like my ex husband. But I am thinking I might need to look into a state job and give up teaching, at least until I am fully credentialed (which I haven't been able to do, because I always had to work. It's a conundrum). The other possibility is substitute teaching, which won't make me rich, but generally pays better than what I make, if I work at least 4 days per week. I am looking into other jobs with the school district, but support positions generally don't pay well.

This week feels like it will be better. Spring is in the air, and that always makes me hopeful.



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A member on another team spoke of the initial shock of the change, but noted that change can encourage us to stretch and grow. I can appreciate her (self-described) attempt to find something positive in this situation, but also noted that as I addressed in my new blog, I believe the backlash is much more than mere resistance to change. And I'm embracing a different sort of change: I'll be spending less time on the site, since I really don't care about how many points I earn now. I'll mainly support teams and Spark Friends, use the exercise videos and spend more time on other activities.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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My post on the Message Board: Where is the Friend Feed? discussion: www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/messageb
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Gotta say, I and many, many others hate not only the changes you keep making--and throwing away things we really enjoyed and found motivating--like team point spins, but the fact that you do these things with no warning or explanation, and we flounder around trying to figure out how to do the things that matter to us here. I've heard a few just can't take it anymore and are leaving. And what a shame--seemingly because you all want to make Spark more like Facebook or Twitter or other sites.

Hey, if we want to fritter time on social media, we can go to those other sites. Most of us hang out on Spark because we want real support--only it feels less and less supportive here. And frankly, a lot of older members get the impression we aren't your target audience, so you don't mind alienating and driving us away, because you want to cater to a different demographic. I'm staying, but spending less time here, because it's less and less fun, or centered on the values that matter to me--and used to matter to you.

And here's my comment on Spark Guy's blog to announce the change www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
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I despise the changes and hate that you dumped the team spins, which many of us found motivating and more of an element of "community building" than that stupid feature that we've had to fight with to turn off or escape from. Since I'm among the members who is definitely not feeling the love from Spark--or even basic respect, I can't imagine ever using the "I love SP" emoticon again, because I just don't enjoy the site as much anymore, since you keep insisting on taking away things I like and tools I use, and foisting useless elements or activities and styles to mimic social media sites that I care nothing about. This camper is NOT happy.

And on the Message Board What Happened? www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/messageb
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I tried to read Spark Guy's blog (way too long) & it did nothing to sway me. Still hate the changes, and want team spins back. I really upsets me that you are so blase about throwing away things we care about, and reasons we are here.

And finally on the Message Board New Community Goal Feature: www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/messageb
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So relieved I can finally turn off that hideous Trending nightmare! Hated it!! And no, my community feeling has not increased--in fact it is less now because you got rid of the team spins that many of us loved and reported on daily with our teammates. Teams are where the real strength of community is found, not in your techy buzzwords or numbers games.

Please bring the team spins back!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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emoticon Grr! emoticon Boo! Hiss! emoticon (What I want to do upside somebody's head) emoticon Not again! emoticon (Closest I could get to raspberries--or maybe) emoticon (but without the cute smile, just the tongue) emoticon (What I wish they'd do to these unannounced, unnecessary & unwelcome overhauls)

Yeah, that sorta sums up my feelings about the brand new blindsided-us-again-without-warning changes to the site--in this case the Start page. I already posted one blog that was pretty mild. Then I posted this on another Team Leader discussion thread:

Hate to say, but they keep taking the fun and dependability out of the site. The chaos and upheaval caused by sudden changes, robbing us of tools and resources we count on or enjoy is NOT conducive to consistency or motivation. Our progress and enjoyment--not to mention sense of SAFETY is greatly compromised. They keep exhorting us to pay for premium, but I would NEVER enter into a contract with a partner this irresponsible and disrespectful!

I'm not ready to say emoticon yet, but I'm not as invested. I certainly don't recommend them as enthusiastically as I used to. It's a shame they are so unfazed about upsetting and disillusioning thousands of members with their high handed & authoritarian tactics. Love my teams still, just not the site so much. emoticon

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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For the second time this week, I stayed a little bit past the end of my shift to purge some papers that have been stacked in my cubicle--in this pile for almost 2 years in some cases. A few have gone into an envelope box (just a little larger than 8.5 x 11) for filing, but most have gone into the shredder bin. It feels great to be making a little headway at work!

My work buddy, Melanie, brought in one of my favorite desserts, coconut cream pie, for an extended birthday celebration, which was very sweet. And though I had forgotten to bring back my jar of specialty coffee (it was filled, but sitting in the fridge at home), there was just enough left of a bag of pumpkin spice coffee left over from a long ago meeting which I had tucked away in the butter keeper in the work fridge for just such emergencies! So I got my lunchtime cup of coffee emoticon to go with my slice of pie. emoticon And tonight I pulled out the jar at home and left it on the cutting board where I pull my lunch together each morning, so I won't forget again!

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I actually spent my few minutes after work today putting up some St. Patty's decorations. I didn't get around to Yule or Valentine decorating this year, as I often do, and I've missed it. Tomorrow I want to do a little purging again. Probably won't take a timer to work, since I don't want to stay that long, given it's my own time after my shift. Too bad I never find time during the work day for organizing!
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I drove right over to the bookstore for my Mercy Thompson book--which I was not happy to see was only 20% off. Sure I added another 10% with my BN membership (which it was time to renew), but the pre-order online price had been over 40% off! So next year, I'll buy the Mercy T online and have that one shipped to me, and I'll buy the new Others novel from the store where it was also 20% off, pretty much the same as the online pre-order price. Anyway, I'm reading a few pages, then doing a little work or prepping food, or Sparking, then reading a little more. I'm trying not to lose myself to the detriment of everything else, plus I'm trying to make it last a few days until the Etched in Bone arrives.
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"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I processed checks today, and took calls for several programs. But every customer I helped at the counter was a construction contractor, either renewing or getting a new contractor license (our most complex transactions, given all the required research), and most of them also needed a state business license or to change information on their business license. So not much chance to catch up from having been off for 2 days. But I did take a few minutes after my work day to do a tiny bit of cleaning and sorting through old papers in my cubicle. I want to clear some of that clutter, so will continue trying to purge a little bit each day.

I got another application submitted tonight, for a job that would be assigned to my current office, but in another department, making a little more money. I'll let y'all know if I get an interview, as I'm hoping.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I commented on the blog, and sending both you and Sophie emoticon wishes and prayers.

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I'm glad you had such an enlightening moment! It sounds like divine clarification.

This was a pretty tough week. It seemed like it took everything in me to get through work, and then Sophie got sick (I wrote a blog on it). By the time the week was done I was tired and achy, and felt like I was getting an ear infection. Unfortunately, I'm not sure I can afford to take another day off work, especially since it looks like Sophie will need several follow up appointments. But maybe I'll do it anyway, before I get worse.



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Yesterday was mostly playing with sister and taking it easy. Today I got some things done (see Success thread) & am feeling very productive. I also did some 15 minute sessions both for working and reading. Worked quite well. And I found a couple short Jessica Smith videos featuring cardio and strength training, each with no equipment, though the latter did use a chair. Found them on You Tube, not Spark.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Taking 2 days off--tomorrow, my birthday, and Friday. Mary is taking tomorrow off also, and coming up to spend a few hours and have some fun. As with the new year, my birthday is a time of reflection on values and goals, and thinking about growth and positive changes I want to make. Something came to me on a walk yesterday. Somehow the question Why am I here, or What am I hear to do, came up, and an answer came from my heart--not my head: to shine my light. I was a little surprised, but I like it. I've played with variations: to let my light shine, to share my light. It's like I know I have something bright and beautiful inside that I want to express and allow to be seen, and I'm tired of hiding it or not letting myself really be seen. There's a subtle change going on that feels good and right. I'm thinking on a couple blogs--ideas I want to express. Maybe I'll find some time, or begin this long weekend (for me).

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Ooh, thanks for the early emoticon wishes! I haven't done any particular rituals around protection, but just did a little online research, and sent you some links via Spark mail. I hope something there might appeal and help. I'm sorry you're all suffering, and will continue sending prayers and positive energy. If he's harming the girls, can or will the courts do anything to restrict his access or influence? And don't go into the details if it's too upsetting. I'm just not familiar with details of family law, and what legal protections do and don't exist--or how well they work/are enforced.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Happy Birthday in advance!

Thank you for the offer for spells and crystals. I would absolutely appreciate it, especially as all I can think of is some pretty dark stuff, which I avoid doing. It's hard for me to focus on protection spells because my thoughts turn to things that make me angry or anxious. So if you are willing to do any, I would be truly thankful.

I am working on being able to clear my emotions so that it isn't affecting my health, actually. I am trying new affirmations, trying to keep my equilibrium.

This week was hard. The girls father is really pushing the envelope with the mental abuse, and since he can't reach me, he does it to them. Work was really tough. And I have been sick with a lingering cough that has sapped my energy. But I am optimistic that this week will be better.

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It's been a quiet and balanced day. Journaling, then a 30-minute Coach Nicole workout on DVD. Then leftover soup w/ lots of extra veggies to stretch it out. A little cleaning, some reading and Castle episodes, working on the application. A nap in the afternoon, more application work & Castle, a big salad for dinner. I have my supplemental questions complete, and about 2/3 of my cover letter. I'll have no trouble finishing & submitting the application tomorrow--or doing grocery runs, the only major chore for the weekend. I'll do a little more cleaning, some Castle watching, and then bed. A satisfying day.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I've decided to whip out an application for an Industrial Relations Agent position (mainly dealing with wage complaints) that closes Sunday. One requirement is to type 40 wpm, and the application kindly provides a link to resources including online typing tests. The results have to be from a 4 minute test and taken in the last 12 months. Can't recall when I last did one, so got permission today to go to the computer lab and take one. Since my first test (48 wpm) didn't give the option of printing a certificate (I had to scroll further down the page for that option), I had to take a certificate awarding test again (same material) and got 54 wpm that time. So I scanned it to myself so I can attach to my application this weekend. Luckily we weren't too busy at that point. Spent time dealing with different issues and projects, and got out of work a bit late. relaxing at home with a big salad for dinner, watching Castle's 8th and final season. Sketched answers to the multiple choice questions on the app; only 2 require short essays, and a cover letter to write tomorrow.

Oh, and that emotional weight did come off-- emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Had a successful phone meeting with Tresa, reviewing my assessment, giving her some of the new numbers I had found. Turns out those missing figures from the Dallas Post Office may be due to a separate pension contribution instead of Soc Sec. I do recall I pulled out the cash. Plus, they use the last 10 years of wages for calculating benefits, so numbers from 30-40 years ago would have been moot.

She will send me an Excel spreadsheet for tracking & calculating expenses, and some questions about spending goals, so we can plan to cover the expenses that matter to me into retirement. I'm just so happy to be working on this and starting to get more knowledgeable and comfortable about financial matters, rather than feeling worried and ashamed at my lack of understanding and planning. As I told her, it's both a relief and energizing to be reducing fear & worry and increasing confidence & hope in this area!

I did 2 short stability ball workouts w/ Coach Nicole from Spark TV tonight--and I can feel them! Also doing some little cleaning tasks around the apartment tonight. I let myself get aggravated with some issues at work yesterday, and my weight took a jump. Hoping that as I release some of that mental energy that the emotional weight will drop off and even out. I'll let y'all know. Wishing everyone a wonderful Thursday night and a great Friday!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/23/17 1:30 A

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I went through my checking account online and jotted down some regular expenses to add to the list for my meeting with Tresa.

I mentioned that my sick leave balance has been dwindling, but I was up over 3 weeks of vacation, so decided I can take time here and there for fun, business, general de-stressing. I got my birthday (on a Thursday) and the Friday approved to make for a long weekend, actually a week from tomorrow. My sister might be able to join me for some sort of merriment!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/22/17 12:26 A

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Managed to get logged onto Dept of Retirement Services and Social Security websites and get some retirement numbers--pretty dismal! emoticon Though what's weird is I made good money working for the Post Office in Texas for 4 years, but my SS numbers don't show that. I've never really examined my report before, so I need to ask someone about it. They say to report problems or bad data.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I didn't get around to rescheduling my missed hair appt, but I did get groceries at Costco, Safeway and TJ's, *and* did 2 loads of laundry--3 weeks' worth of clothes. (I had almost run out of socks and undies!)

I've been working on my financial assessment for my phone meeting with Tresa later this week--assets, expenses, risk questionnaire, etc. Only problem is I don't know how to scan from home; supposedly my equipment is capable, but I seem to be missing something, because I can't find the menus that my Google search refer to.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Amy, I am *so* emoticon to hear about his antics, and the impact it is having on you and the girls. Don't know if you'd be open to any protective spells or crystals. I'll certainly pray that you can get some relief through the courts. Also hoping we can both get better work situations--and that you stay safe in the weird weather!
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Mary and I had a light breakfast in, watched a couple more Gilmore Girl episodes, did a Jessica Smith video together--her first time with one, a game, another GG episode, out for different Chinese takeout, then back here for episode 8 while we ate. I put a sticky note to remind us we'll start with Disc 3, Episode 9 on her next visit. I'm glad to share these with her for the humor, the heart, the fallible and lovable people with all their failings, the dialog. She left mid-afternoon, and I'm back to watching Elementary episodes, breaking for timer sessions now and then--and for Sparking.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Reading about how frustrating it is when workers don't keep adequate change reminded me of how frustrating counting out tills was when I worked in retail. It drove me nuts when people waited until the last minute to get pennies!

I'm glad the rain is giving you a chance to catch up on work. Down here we are keeping a very close eye on the rivers. It's been a little nerve wracking to see it rise to a level that means boats can't go under the bridges. I walked out by the river yesterday (getting a walk in while I could, between storms).

Things have been okay with the returning coworker, but my boss has been a bit moody lately, and that makes things hard for everybody. I think it's time to start looking into something a little better for the next school year, if not something more immediate.

My ex has been up to his old tricks, which is having a huge impact on my girls. I'm so mad about the way he has started gaslighting them (and lying to their counselor) that I feel like I'm going cross eyed. The girls are starting to recognize it for what it is, but even still, they are pretty powerless to do anything about it. I'm hoping to get another court date, this time requesting that he cannot communicate with me except in safe exchange of the children or emergencies involving the kids, so that we can get a little peace. Fingers crossed!

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Caught up on a few things in the morning when customer traffic was light and I was assigned on phones, but we got slammed in the afternoon. Of course, we had one person who called in, one who left sick, and one who left early--if the supervisor knew about the last, she didn't tell us, but then she was off today, too. 2 of us finished customers after 5, then I had to count out the last till I had inherited. Everyone used to have their own tills, then we went to just 2 people taking all the cash transactions. We're making plans to expand to 3 tills, plus a change fund again. I'll have one of them then, which is fine with me, as I'm very comfortable with money, and I've been frustrated with how some coworkers don't get the concept of maintaining adequate change.

At home I did a Jessica Smith workout and a few timer sessions. Rewatching Elementary Season 3, in preparation for my request for Season 4 being filled soon. Looking forward to overnight with Mary this weekend!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Tonight I'm catching up with some commitments to various parts to spend a little time on different projects that had been ignored. Always love the feeling of pride when I keep those internal promises! emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Nobody sick, and our vacationer is back, so a full crew, and somewhat fewer customers (heavy rains). So I've been catching up with work, and completed a couple of small projects, which feels *really* good!

Unfortunately when I went to renew the library book Making Peace with the Things in Your Life, I couldn't because there was another patron waiting. So it went back today, and I purchased a used one through Amazon last night--but it won't show up for a while. emoticon I have an exercise from it to work on, though, as well as a multi-page assessment from Tresa, my new financial planner. (I just sent my first check and a signed contract to her.) emoticon emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I love walking for 10 minutes 3 times a day at work--and it all started with just walking at lunch. Sorry about the work stress and the disappointing outing. I like how you're giving yourself credit for babysteps, and how you're looking at the motivation for change in an uncomfortable situation. emoticon emoticon

Our brand new CSS began today--so happy for another person, and for another African American woman who adds to the diversity of our unit. Not only was it warmer today, but also sunny, so I finally wasn't all the way dark when I left a little past 5:30. On those completely overcast days, it's been hard to tell when the sun's going down!

I got together with my Spark Friend who lives in Tukwila yesterday, and she introduced me to Wii. It was interesting, but I like my Spark videos better for my own cardio and ST. Since she's Sparking on her phone, though, videos don't do much for her.

Only one more episode of Call the Midwife to go, then some bonus feature. I don't know if it's still in production, and if so, if my library system will order future seasons, as their policy is to cut off at 5 seasons unless there is a big demand for more.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I'm so glad that you are feeling better after your fall! It's kind of scary as we get older. One of the things I really loved about martial arts was that it taught me how to fall, instinctively knowing how to go down safely.

It has been one heck of a week! I've been back and forth from the infant room to the 3 year olds. I've got some real discipline problems in the 3 year old class, so going back and forth was a problem. Then they re-hired an infant teacher whom I have never cared for. She has always been rather spiteful towards me, bad mouthing me to anyone who would listen. It may be just what I need to get me motivated to go to the school district as a sub, until I can find something more permanent.

Today was rather disappointing. I was going to take the girls up to the mountains to play in the snow, but we had to stop, as rain and floods had washed out the highway. So we stopped in a community called Apple Hill, which is well known in this area for orchards that can be toured, a lot of winery's, and places for kids. Unfortunately, most of those places turned out to be closed at this time of the year. So the girls were disappointed. There was a little farmstand/restaurant open, so we got lunch and some fresh apple items, but since we couldn't even find a place to do some walking, we were really disappointed.

I've been trying to get some walking in at lunchtime, but since I have to give my cat her pill at that time, it depends largely on how long it takes to give it to her. I do manage to get about 10 minutes in most days, though. It does make me feel better that I am doing something.

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Finished valentines to mail (yes, I know they'll mostly arrive late--sight) & hand out at work. Did a nice workout, a bunch of cleaning timer sessions, and started a wonderful book from the library that I will probably pick up used--Making Peace with the Things in Your Life, by a woman who's a professional organizer and a therapist. So she emphasizes what's happening on the inside rather than stressing this or that activity or system. Fresh approach and inspiring ideas, just a few pages in! And of course I'm watching and loving more Call the Midwife episodes, up to the most recent season--the 5th--in 1961, so things are becoming a little more familiar. But it's fascinating to see how things got to where they did, and some of the challenges involved.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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2/10/17 11:56 P

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A lot I want to do this weekend, as I didn't manage much last weekend when I was recovering, but I'm taking the night off, watching Call the Midwife episodes, with a little cleaning thrown in.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Yep, as I mentioned in my status, I finally got to walk on the sidewalks today. I usually do a combination of the walkway around the buildings (instead of by the busy, noisy, gas-fumy street), and sidewalks by the quieter streets, but had to stick close to the building for a shorter route since Monday. When the snow plows cleared the road, they threw snow onto the sidewalks, which were covered in deep lumpy drifts. Today's higher temps and heavy rains finally melted them down to pavement, with only an occasional chunk of snow here and there and easily avoided. So I got to do my normal, longer path at last!

After not getting much done after work Monday or Tuesday (to the consternation of some parts), I've made progress in several areas last night and tonight, which is very motivating and satisfying. I'm about to enjoy soup for dinner while watching Call the Midwife. Then I have a least one more timer session in me!

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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All the crew made it in today except for the one person who's on vacation. I was able to catch up with a few things, which was nice. Since it took me a while to get all the windows scraped free, and to go the long way around to avoid steep inclines, given last night's freeze, I got to work a few minutes late, and stayed a few to make up the time. I actually cleared a few pages off my desk, which felt really good!

I was careful when walking on breaks to not risk slipping, so developed this goofy sort of prance step so that my stride length was short, more up and down to reduce the slip factor. I also noticed that where footprints had gone through the snow yesterday, but then filled with a frozen slush, it was sometimes safer to step outside the previous steps and crunch through snow instead. And I'd hop around to take advantage of patches of clear pavement where I could find them. It was actually pretty entertaining, as well as invigorating!

I neglected to mention yesterday's spill--inside! I had put on Yak Tracks, a rubber and coiled metal contraption that fits over you shoe soles to provide traction, before my morning walk. They were fine on the carpet that covers most of the building, but as soon as I took my first step on the tile in the lobby, my feet flew out from under me, and I hit the floor on my left hip/rear end--right on the hip joint. Ow, ow, ow! It hurts to sit and to stretch and to raise my knees (as in last night's workout). So I switched to my rubber-soled boots for all my other walks, since the snow also soaked my shoes and socks under the Yak Trax! Live and learn!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/7/17 12:25 A

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Snow still wasn't sticking when I got home around 4:30 yesterday, but it snowed steadily, and dumped 6-9 inches on us. I was pretty happy that I got the parking space under the tree, so I would have a lot less to scrape off. But the snow was so heavy on the limbs that branches were laying on my car, and plucked off my knit hat when I tried to get to the passenger side windows! Once I got out of the space, I could finish uncovering the windows that needed it. Drove in ruts until I reached the big street at the bottom of the hill. Passed under one cracked limb that would have scraped the top of taller vehicles.

Got to work ~ 10 minutes late, but they had arranged for opening an hour late: at 9 instead of 8, with me there at 8:40. There was one other CSS there, and we were joined by a 3rd near 9. Our normal crew is 8 people (with a new person slated to start next Monday). Very few customers at first, but almost all the ones who came in were contractors! I registered 3 new ones (45 min-1 hour each), and renewed 2 (20-30 minutes). Only 1 person could go to break or lunch at a time. I ended up having lunch really late, and finished my afternoon break just before the doors locked at 5. Supervisor was at Seattle, & manager told us to go ahead and leave as soon after 5 as we could get cleared away. I was happy to leave a little early! Had a little sun late in the day, and some snow melted into slush. Expected to get down to freezing again, so tomorrow could also be a big mess!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/6/17 10:23 A

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I'm glad that you are feeling better. It sounds like a busy few days. I like Plantation, although I liked Sullivan's Island better. Most of Franks early novels were great (Return to Sullivan's Island had a lot of holes in the plot, so I sort of went off her writing after that).

The kids were at their fathers for the weekend, so I just puttered around the house. We are getting so much rain that it wasn't possible to do much more than that.

I'm back in the three year old room at work, which is a lot more work, especially after having had a teacher that didn't really work with them on anything. So there is a lot of catching up to do as far as learning shapes, numbers and alphabet.

It's Monday morning, but I am already tired!

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


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Still on the mend. Head seems all dried up--no runny nose, sneezing or coughing, though my voice is still croaky sometimes, and energy is on the low side. Did a couple workouts, both the Jessica Smith upper body and the lower body circuit 1 mile "walks" with weights--mostly 3# for the first time, with a couple moves still with the 2 #.

Did some little timer sessions today in between episodes of Call the Midwife, season 3. I am amazed at how great this series is! If you loved Downton Abbey, you'll likely love this, too. Different time (the late 50s), different class (midwives and nuns living and working in London's East End with horrible poverty and sanitation, but real community spirit as well), a great cast and engrossing, emotionally rich storylines. I finished the DVDs (season 1 had 6 episodes; 2 & 3 have a Christmas special, then 8 episodes), and have requested seasons 4 and 5.

I'm back to reading Plantation, Dorothea Benton Frank's second novel, which my library system didn't have, so I got it through the Inter-Library Loan program. I actually have a couple more ILL titles that have come in. It's a cool option; you just can't renew them.

Took a nap, and after a quick afternoon coffee, headed out to get groceries, and within 2 minutes of leaving home, it started to snow. Predicting snow and rain tomorrow, then gradually rising temps, and mid- to upper-50s forecast for around Valentines!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

Co-leader of the Babysteps Brigade (BBs), A Gathering of Goddesses (GGs), Survivors of Abuse (SAssies) teams.


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2/4/17 2:40 P

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I'm feeling extremely excited. I had to cancel my lunch plans with a former coworker for today, as I don't feel up to going out, and wouldn't want to pass on any germs or viruses. But I kept my phone meeting with Tresa, the financial planner I found through Katie. We reviewed the proposal she had sent so that I understood the terms better.

I'm proud that I was able to point out a couple of places in her standard explanations where many newbies are going to get confused. She thanked me, and said she was making notes to change some language that would be more clear to the uninitiated or inexperienced client, like myself. I feel extremely confident that she is the right person for me to work with, and I love that she's flexible about how long it will take us to cover the steps we need to take.

She has this cool "Success Cycle" graphic with those words in the center, and going round them in a continuous circle are the steps "Dream > Set Goals > Design Plan > Take Action > Track Results > Compare > Adjust Plan > [Dream]. Pretty cool, huh? I just went to check and see if I could find it on her website, as she should be credited if anyone quotes it--and I found she totally redesigned her site! I'll be checking it out, even though I'm committed to working with her. Here's her link: www.myfinancialdesign.com/

I'm just so happy to be moving forward with this long-neglected area in my life, and with a partner whom I respect and trust.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

Co-leader of the Babysteps Brigade (BBs), A Gathering of Goddesses (GGs), Survivors of Abuse (SAssies) teams.


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2/4/17 12:27 A

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Yep, I went to work, got caught up on a couple overdue tasks, but couldn't stick it out the whole day, left after 4.7 hours (yes, we do leave for tenths of an hour (6-minute intervals). Swung by the library where the next season of Call the Midwife came in, so I've been resting on the couch watching that. Had my salad I took to work for lunch, and a little bit ago heated some soup. It definitely isn't the flu, just another bad cold. And what's really sad is I rarely used to get sick, and had lots of sick leave built up, but I've used a bunch of it in the last couple years as this constant stress & overwork has ground me down.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

Co-leader of the Babysteps Brigade (BBs), A Gathering of Goddesses (GGs), Survivors of Abuse (SAssies) teams.


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2/2/17 12:33 A

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Ran 2 errands after work Tuesday--dropped the package in the mail with all the stamps, and paid my Penney's bill in the store. Felt worn out, and called in sick today. Will probably do the same tomorrow, since I'm still sneezing, coughing and blowing my nose. Watched all 6 episodes of Call the Midwife's season one on DVD--really nice. Slept a lot, and started a new Lowcountry Tale novel by Dorothea Benton Frank, Pawleys Island, that is wonderful. Did a few tiny things around the house, but no exercise at all. Hoping for more energy tomorrow, and continued healing.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

Co-leader of the Babysteps Brigade (BBs), A Gathering of Goddesses (GGs), Survivors of Abuse (SAssies) teams.


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