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2/9/16 12:12 A

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I had heard about the different intelligences in my own classes, but didn't think to find a book for kids on this. Good call!

I found a new book series that I think you would really enjoy: The retired Witches Mystery Series by Joyce and Jim Lavene. I particularly enjoyed that the characters were mature. The first in the series in Spellbooked. I won't tell you any more so as not to ruin them for you, but they are really enjoyable.

I also just got A Wilder Rose, a novel based on the life of Laura Ingalls Wilder's daughter. I am really looking forward to reading it, if I ever find the time!

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2/8/16 11:51 P

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I did a little looking on the library site under "intelligences" and found Multiple Intelligences by Gardner and Emotional Intelligence by Goleman. I'm sure there are other works (these came out after I was teaching). Don't know if any of those could help. Ooh, just found another: You're Smarter Than You Think: A Kid's Guide to Multiple Intelligences By Armstrong, Thomas. That sounds promising!

Mostly working on getting Valentine cards in the mail and ready to pass out to my unit, as part of my goal of connecting. Also did a tiny bit of cleaning tonight, and keeping the exercise streak alive. Watched the final episode of season 3 of Elementary, now checking out the special features. Very interesting character development, and commentaries on humanity, sobriety and friendship.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/7/16 10:59 P

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Reading problems can be very hard on a child. It's important to help her understand all brains are wired differently, and everyone is really good at some things and not at others, and smart in certain ways and not as much in others. Are you familiar with the different intelligences? I remember it being talked about when I was getting my teaching certificate. I wonder if they have any books for kids about the many different kinds.

I don't usually like to be out shopping late, but couldn't resist being in the stores during the Super Bowl for the short lines.
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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
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And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/7/16 3:19 P

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Whoa...those are powerful thoughts you shared, and ones I needed to hear. I have been so frustrated by my limitations in my home and job, but getting rid of clutter would help a lot! I am sharing the idea with my youngest, since she has a hard time letting go of stuff, and having a very difficult time right now. We were at counseling yesterday and she suddenly let fly with some of her frustrations...how angry she gets when I try to say positive things about her dad (she had called him stupid, and I had pointed out some of the smart things about him, forgetting how black and white she perceives things. She is having a hard time with the idea that she can still care about him even if I don't) and how frustrated and insecure she is about reading, and how far behind the rest of her class she is. I had a meeting with her teacher and the reading specialist this week, and they are recommending her to be tested for dyslexia or other learning disorders. She is so upset and sad, and afraid she is "stupid". She just doesn't hear us when we remind her that when things are read to her, she is almost brilliant in her response. Her teacher says she is incredibly aware and able to draw conclusions far above her grade level. But this has been a terrible blow to her confidence.

I am sorry that the job didn't work out, but it seems like things have also improved where you are working, so maybe the concerns you have been voicing to HR have been helping. Maybe you are meant to be there to help instigate change. Maybe knowing that good people are working so hard to get away from there is helping supervisors to understand that things can not continue the way they have done them before.

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2/6/16 2:04 P

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I'm kinda surprised that I'm OK with the news. It was an exciting prospect, and I put in a great deal of effort, and learned things I can use again. Yet an honest, unemotional part recognizes that as much as I desire to move, I'm not very ready on the physical plane. Shedding a great quantity of my clutter will help prepare me to move into a new place on many levels. It will also create the space for opportunities and energies to flow my way. This realization has lit an internal fire for me that I want to fan and channel into producing results--hence my wall posting this morning: What can you do to free yourself from limits and blocks? Take a step in that direction today!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/5/16 10:04 P

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I got word that I am not moving forward in the DRS recruitment, so back to the drawing board again. Sigh. emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/4/16 11:16 P

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I hear you, Amy. Glad the eating plan and weight seem to be positive, and the mice are getting dealt with.

I wasn't 100%, but more energetic today, and made it through work. And though I missed Imbolc also, I did a tarot reading this morning (with quite a few Major Arcana), which I will be transcribing in the days to come.

I finished the Rollins book and it was Amazing! I totally teared up by the end. He created a great animal character--a genetically enhanced gorilla involved in scientific intelligence studies, from whose perspective pieces of the story were told.

Oh, and I shared a link in another thread for a great blog by Coach Nicole that ends with the quote "Cellulite sisters unite!"

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/4/16 10:37 A

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Sorry I haven't been around much. I let myself get too distracted by Things That Must be Done. I will say it wasn't unpleasant, but I got way too caught up by it, and wasted a lot of mental energy. The biggest thing was working on rodent proofing my house. Not very elegant, or something I want to admit to, but necessary. I had to overcome my phobias, as well, so it was really long past due. Rodents really scare me. But I put up metal screening, and will have to continue with it til I find all the mouse entrances. At that point I can put out poison, since I won't have to worry about them dying in the house. And then I can finally get my heater fixed, just in time for Spring. I'm really hoping they didn't chew the wiring on the AC unit, but I'm applying to PG&E for assistance to getting things fixed, and if that comes through I will have them look at the AC unit.

My house is still a mess, and very little laundry got done, since it is rent paying time and funds are low. But things are getting slightly better, maybe because Spring is upon us. I missed doing anything for Imbolc, and I am sort of kicking myself for it. I'll have to be sure to observe Ostara. In the meantime, I will light a candle.

I did start a new diet plan, since my food journals revealed that my carb addiction was out of control! So now I am sticking to a protein and vegetable plan for two weeks, then adding in other carbs.My doctor is pretty happy with the plan, and my weight is finally moving in the right direction, so I'm happy too.

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2/3/16 9:25 P

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I took a sick day and really rested and journaled, did some cleaning. It was exactly what I needed. I'm feeling myself again, ready to keep taking those babysteps and positive actions at home and at work. The loving support of emoticon s really helped!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/2/16 10:49 P

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Kind of struggling tonight. I'll Spark a little, have some soup and hope to get to bed early. No Imbolc activities tonight--just too tired. emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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1/31/16 9:35 P

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Here's a link to a Spark blog which features a link to a 5-minute video about changes to the Barbie brand, which is becoming more inclusive and more real: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
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nal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081457

I agree with Eva that this is a good thing!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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1/31/16 12:00 A

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When journaling this morning and writing my Status Report (shades of Star Trek), when scanning my body, mood and energy, I found I was tired and didn't have much energy, yet I didn't feel exhausted or in deficit, merely waiting to regain energy. So I finished watching Season 2 of Elementary, including special features, while doing small chores like dishes, handwashing, breakfast, and finally starting laundry, but resting in between trips down to the basement laundry room. It was exactly right, as was my post-laundry nap.
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I sent an email to my 4 job references outlining the competencies the new position is looking for to help guide them in what to emphasize, in case they are called. When I hear a decision, I'll pass it on to all of you, who have been so supportive and encouraging through this 2-year long (and counting) job hunt.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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1/29/16 11:35 P

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Oh, I hear you Amy! Neglecting what we need to do can happen so easily. I haven't accomplished much since the interview. Work has been extremely busy & I come home exhausted, and haven't really rested and recovered from the energy I put into the interview preparation. I have many things I want to get done this weekend--and I would also like to take it easy and just *rest*! Not sure how I will end up balancing things yet.

Really hope you get feeling better, dear friend! Take good care. Know I'm sending you positive energy and virtual emoticon !

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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1/29/16 10:15 A

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I am sorry I haven't written. My work schedule was changed, and that is throwing everything out of balance for me.

I have also been under the weather...still going to work, but coming home fairly miserable. I think I have a sinus/ear infection, but haven't been able to take off work to get it checked out. Somehow, this brings up abuse issues for me as well, because so often I had to neglect myself to take care of my ex. The extreme fearfulness about missing work might be related to that as well.


That being said, I am really glad you had another interview. Maybe having so many will remind your boss that you are sought after, and get her to take you reccomendations seriously.

I'm having a lot of issues with clutter myself these days, as well as packing a lot of stuff into our schedules. I am just plain tired, and need to take some time to get myself, and my house, organized. Also to do a lot of basic care actions. But I get so caught up in what I have to do that I neglect what I need to do.


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I am sorry I haven't written. My work schedule was changed, and that is throwing everything out of balance for me.

I have also been under the weather...still going to work, but coming home fairly miserable. I think I have a sinus/ear infection, but haven't been able to take off work to get it checked out. Somehow, this brings up abuse issues for me as well, because so often I had to neglect myself to take care of my ex. The extreme fearfulness about missing work might be related to that as well.


That being said, I am really glad you had another interview. Maybe having so many will remind your boss that you are sought after, and get her to take you reccomendations seriously.

I'm having a lot of issues with clutter myself these days, as well as packing a lot of stuff into our schedules. I am just plain tired, and need to take some time to get myself, and my house, organized. Also to do a lot of basic care actions. But I get so caught up in what I have to do that I neglect what I need to do.


What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


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1/28/16 11:46 P

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I sent my interview thank you emails a while ago. Feeling torn between catching up with chores, and still wanting to rest. Or that may be from my negative reaction to today's fitness challenge workout. Those High Intensity Interval Training sessions are odious to me. I followed, kept to the low impact version, slowed my pace as needed, so didn't get as dizzy or nauseous as I have in the past, but I don't like pushing my body that way. I'm much more a moderate pace, I'll keep going a let's enjoy the journey kind of person. I like getting strong, but don't like subjecting myself body to that kind of extreme activity. I need to just skip them and substitute something else instead of trying to make them work for me. Wow, just talking about it is bringing up emotional stuff--this is triggering abuse issues for me. (I can feel an observer part lifting a Spock-like eyebrow, saying "Fascinating" that such an incongruous situation could bring all this up.)

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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1/27/16 11:27 P

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The interview went pretty well today. The drive down and up was fine, I felt calm and confident. Some questions were ones I had encountered and prepared for, some I could wing, and 2 brought nothing to mind; I skipped those and we came back to them at the end. The problem is that I have no sense of how I might compare to others. But I'm pleased with how I did, and I'll just wait to hear. I will be contacting my references (as they recommend) to advise them they may be contacted, and what they'll be looking for (the competencies listed on the job announcement).

Tonight I'm taking it easy! So how's everyone else?

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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1/26/16 11:18 P

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I've done about as much preparing as I can for tomorrow's interview. Plan to relax and make it an early night, give myself lots of extra time for the hour drive, and read over ideas and experiences I've already written down. Gladly accepting any and all prayers on my behalf! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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1/25/16 11:55 P

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From a report on another team:

A busy day at work, BIQs at lunch and at home, running out of steam though. May just relax the rest of the night before bed.

Nope, sadly emoticon no new OOs (that's Oases of Order, an organizing term from my other main team, the BBs or Babysteps Brigade) to report. I've really been focused on the job hunt and prep for this DRS (Dept of Retirement Systems) job I'm trying for. It's been a challenge, but I'm learning a lot and enjoying it.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Take really good care of yourself, Amy! And let your girls take care of you too. emoticon Glad you were able to connect at the reunion and see so many people. I always enjoy seeing relatives, too. And yes, some interactions are more awkward--and that's OK too.

Yesterday I ran some errands in the rain--went to the post office to get a mailer and stamps, donated some clothes and household items (a tiny dent from decluttering, but 2 bags gone is less clutter in my home!), and picked up a new scratching post as the last one did not last long.

Today I got groceries in the sunshine, even went for a walk in the neighborhood during one of my breaks, while chatting with a friend in California as I walked. In between it all I've been identifying scenarios to answer various BIQs, and writing out descriptions of the situation, my actions, and results. I may not be ready for everything they throw at me on Wednesday, but I know I'm doing what I can to prepare, so that feels good.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I went to a small family reunion yesterday, as it was my uncle's 70th birthday, and my fathers 71st. My dad had flown out, and all of the extended family in California were there. Many of my fathers cousins, whom I hadn't seen since I was around 20, were there. My brother was there too, which was a bit unnerving, as he hasn't spoken to me in several years. My kids hadn't even believed I had a brother! We did talk a bit, and he hugged me, and said that he hadn't been in contact because he'd been afraid of my ex. I'm not sure I accept that as an excuse, but I am grateful that he is now talking to me, and that he met my kids, and I met his daughter. Perhaps, if he does get in contact, we can discuss it further. If not, we have a big family reunion coming up in July for my Grandmothers 100th birthday.

This morning I woke up with a sinus infection. I made my kids take care of me, but my dad and uncle drove up and took us to lunch. So now I am just trying to conserve my energy til I work tomorrow.

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I was so happy to reply to our new member's introduction message yesterday, that I forgot to post my doings from the day. Here, copied from another team was yesterday's message:

Did a project at work, got to work an hour and a half with one of the new girls. Spent some time at the counter, but not 4 solid hours like yesterday. Trained the new sales auditor on handling NSFs. We can go many months with none, and we had 2 in 2 days--and wouldn't you know they were each very unusual? I had never run into either situation before, so many emails and phone calls for assistance and clarification. I spoke with the supervisor at the end of the day about how nice it is to have a more positive energy in the unit. She agreed, and said I wasn't the first person to mention it. We discussed some of the contributing factors, and I complimented her on the part she has played. It is so much nicer to have a better relationship with her. I still want a different, more satisfying, better-paying job, but I feel less like I need to run screaming from the current situation. They will still get an earful at my exit interview, whenever that may be--but I may not be as vehement.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I started some potato soup myself. It won't be ready to eat tonight. I started red onions, celery and carrots heating in some meat stock. Then I added some chopped potatoes (tri-color from Trader Joe's: red, white and blue) and peppers (red, yellow, orange). Actually there's no room for mushrooms, kale, sausage. So I'll simmer this, then transfer it to a large container, possibly freeze some, and combine it with other items cooked in veggie juice or purple veggie stock in the days to come, as the mood strikes. I don't normally cook with salt, but I keep back about a third of the seasoning packet when I make up a TJ's dry soup mix (which I always add to plenty of other ingredients). That way I have salty seasoning to add to my soup or stock to help with preserving, since it often lasts for numerous meals--being constantly stretched and "improved" with new/more veggies, legumes/corn, and/or meat. While the current pot continues to simmer, I'll start with a TJ's salad and start tossing in other ingredients for a nice big dinner salad.

Another hectic day at work. We had a 2 hour unit meeting today--we hadn't planned on that long, but there was a lot to cover and plenty of discussion, so good thing we began sooner than planned when the previous group finished early and the room came free. We had 2 visiting CSSs, one each from the 2 sister offices in the region who covered while we were in our meeting. When we returned at 12:30 and folks started staggering lunches, there was a backlog of 10 customers waiting in the lobby. Things were pretty chaotic as we tried to catch up, with lots of customer interactions happening side-by-side at the counter, with one computer station whose credit/debit card reader hasn't worked in many, many months.

It was good to meet together and start making plans. We'll be doing this regularly--once a quarter in each office. I let my supervisor know how much I appreciated it, and that I will be happy to fill in at another office when they need coverage. But boy am I tired tonight!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Today was amazingly busy at work. All the people who wanted to come in yesterday (on the holiday) showed up with the normal Tuesday crowd. I worked the counter solidly for 3 hours, took a late break, got in a few phone calls, more counter customers, took a late lunch--no catch up today.

I called a friend after work, and wrote a card to another to mail. Did Coach Nicole's seated Core workout (12 minutes), made some yummy soup--Progresso Minestrone plus extra veggies, sausage, shredded Parmesan on top--for dinner. Just copied a list of 75 BIQs that I will print and use to practice. I've got a few examples under my belt, but much more to do still.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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emoticon Thanks for sharing the smile today! emoticon

I went shopping during the Seahawks playoff game--very short lines in 3 stores! Got everything put away, and did 2 loads of laundry (up and down stairs multiple times). Did remake the bed with freshly laundered linens, but Dora is sleeping in the basket on the rest of it. I haven't dumped her out. I will Finish that later.

Did the Booty Blast toning workout--only 6 minutes, but Boy Howdy, they were intense! emoticon www.sparkpeople.com/resource/videos-
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"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Saw this and thought of you!

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. Henry David Thoreau


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Don't know what to say to encourage you and the girls re selling. But I'm very happy to hear you'll have paid holidays soon. Hope your health stays uncompromised. Maybe you can do some visualizing of having shields up to contain all harmful germs and bacteria, and give those white cells a pep talk about being strong and protecting you from any would-be invaders.

I got a sad surprise when I went to put in disc 4 of the 7th season of Castle, that finally came in from the library last week--disc 5 is missing! I called the library and explained, the librarian checked to see if it had come out in the library, but didn't find it, so added a comment to my account. She asked me to bring it in when I return it, and not to put it in the drop chute, and mention the situation and the comment. She also put me at the front of the line to get the next copy that comes available. I don't remember how many weeks I waited for this one. I'm enjoying it greatly, and may end up adding it to my DVD collection, not sure how it will fit the budget right now.

I've been catching up with some cleaning & organizing, and cleared a little space at the dining table to work on my BIQs (behavioral interview questions). I started by reviewing and writing a condensed version of the job position competencies, which I will want to tie into my answers and mention to potential references as qualities to address.

Did Day 15 on my exercise challenge--30 minutes of walking cardio w/ Jessica Smith. She did a better job of warming up and offering modifications, but the cool down and stretching was totally inadequate. And she never reminds you to drink water as you're working out. Those are real peeves of mine. I lowered the intensity at a couple spots to get through the 30 minutes, but it also grated to have her tell us how energized we must be feeling, when in fact I'm rather wiped out, but feeling like I really need to stretch out more.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I am so glad that you got called for the interview!

It's interesting that you love to organize at work, but you feel cluttered at home. I am the same way. I spent time organizing all the childrens books at work, but at home I don't even want to face the bookshelf unless I am choosing something to read.

The girls got their first week of selling cookies out of the way, but they are both feeling as though they are behind the rest of the troop, so I took them out door to door after their counseling appointments today. It didn't go very well, though my youngest got some orders. My oldest did not (they were taking turns at houses) and so is feeling very upset. It's hard not to minimize their feelings, because I know that once they get actual boxes and are at booths they will sell a lot more, but they don't. I'm trying to be reassuring, but I am not sure they believe me. In the meantime, we have had a pinkeye outbreak at work, as well as the flu. I feel for the kids, but I am terrified I will get it. I missed so much work with the holidays, and I don't get paid holidays til I have 90 days, in two weeks, so I can't afford to miss work yet! In a couple weeks I will feel much more secure.

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I was *tired* tonight! It was a crazy afternoon. The morning was good though. I spent some time and cleared a few things off my desk that had been covered up and never finished. Then when a coworker showed me some receipts put in the wrong places to send to various departments, and I advised the supervisor, she asked me to take on a project to help us organize and review where things go.

This totally appealed to my love of organizing information and clarifying procedures, and I got to create some cool and totally useful tables for the many hanging plastic file pockets where we put documents, forms and receipts we receive. I had columns for names, mail stop (where they are sent), what goes there, what doesn't, and special notes. The plan is to review it at an upcoming unit meeting to make sure we are all clear. I got to work in the computer lab in peace for a while to create two large and two small tables. I felt very productive and organized, and I got to use some Word skills too!

Oh, then when I got home and checked my email, I saw a message from Dept of Retirement Services where I did the orientation and skills assessment a week ago. I passed the assessment, and was asked to pick an time for the first interview. Mine will be a week from Wednesday. At least I won't have to leave home in the dark for the hour drive this time! I'll really start on the behavioral interview prep this weekend! WooHoo!

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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There are a lot of not-too-long workouts. Some are good, some less so--depends on your body. I didn't finish the Pilates Core one by Coach Nicole tonight--too much strain on neck and lower back. Instead I switched to my own core routine borrowed from various sources. Listen to your body and find the ones you like.

I made a big mistake at work today--I hate that. I'll find out tomorrow how we'll deal with it. Supervisor had left, so I called the manager, emailed both.

I used my new smooth-edge can opener for the first time tonight. I was surprised at how easy it was to get it attached to the can and to start cutting. It cuts on the side, not the top, and no sharp edges to cut fingers or rubber gloves, and the mechanism doesn't touch the contents, so it doesn't get gross and rusty.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I'm glad your meeting was productive, and that your supervisor was so supportive. It's nice that they have your interests at heart.

I've been thinking about breaking things into 2 10-minute or 4 5-minute workouts. I think it will make things more manageable.

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If you want, you can join the challenge I finally did--the 28-day home exercise one. My favorite exercise days are the videos of Coach Nicole--many are under 10 minutes, and she gives modifications to make them easier or more challenging. Or you could just look for some of her Spark exercise routines to try. And yeah, I was just talking w/ a teammate on the GGs about how Sparking can take time away from working your program.

But I like the support, inspiration, ideas and companionship I get from being active on my teams, and tracking and reporting what I've done encourages me to have more to report. emoticon

Had a good day at work. Had my first one-on-one with my supervisor in a while, and it went well. I had prepped a number of topics, and there were no negatives from her. She started out asking about my orientation with DRS, how that had gone, and I regaled her with details, shared how impressed I was with their approach, and being very clear about next steps, and when they would check references. I mentioned that as a state worker, they would be checking with her.

After I ran through my questions, requests, proposals, she told me I'm doing very well, and then talked about a project we'll all get trained on soon. I hadn't known what to expect from the meeting, and found it quite encouraging.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I think I need to find time to do some intentional exercise. Problem is, the time that I have to do it is also the time I spend logged into Spark. So I need to figure something else out. emoticon

I think you may be on to something with the behavioral interviewing. Sometimes, you need to throw away what you've done in the past and try something new.

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Boy, that is a catch 22! Hope it works out!

I've been doing some research, as recommended on behavioral interviewing. I've done it before, but haven't specifically prepped before. I want to for this one, because it would be so good to get away from where I am, and do something really positive with a good group of people, which is the sense I got on Friday.

I have an unbroken streak this month (that started the last week in December) of intentional exercise (beyond walking), which I'm also calling STRAST--stretching and strength training.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Girl Scout cookie season is upon us...God/dess help me!

The kids dad canceled for tomorrow, so I am scrambling to find a sitter. Not my favorite activity, but there isn't much I can do about that. Unfortunately, both my back-up sitters are busy. Groan.

I put my lawyer on notice that I need Child Support, but she's not likely to do much until I pay down my bill a bit. Talk about a catch-22!

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I mentioned the walk I took with a Spark Friend who lives close to me in the Gratitude thread. Here is a link to the park, for anyone interested www.seattle.gov/parks/environment/se
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I just realized the Seattle.gov logo has a stylized Indian chief, who must be Chief Seattle, for whom the city is named--at least I've always assumed so. Pretty cool that this particular park was created back in the 1890s. I'm so thankful for the forward thinking people who set aside parklands everywhere before land was at such a premium or urban growth was so extreme.

Also took a lovely nap, still resting up from my early hours on Friday and the stress around the job orientation and skills assessment. I've been doing some catch up chores, including overdue holiday thank yous and putting away holiday stuff--and I'm not done yet!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Glad I got up at 5, left the house ~ 6:15, as the whole drive was in the dark, and sometimes heavy-ish fog. Arrived a little ahead of the 7:30 registration time--except they weren't ready for us until 7:45. Otherwise they were extremely well organized, presented lots of helpful information about the agency, its culture, the training program and hiring process. We took 3 skills assessments of 25 minutes, 30 minutes and 30 minutes. The first one I bombed--I practiced so many things in Excel and Word, but not what I needed for that task! Luckily the next 2 I did very well on, well within the time limit: interpreting legal codes applying to various scenarios, restating in plain language, and citing the specific code section we used, then a math assessment with various word problems, percentages, ratios, probability, number patterns--fun stuff (for me). I had enough time to review all my answers and calculations--and found one silly mistake: if you have 7 coins totally 37 cents, what coins do you have? My initial answer of 3 dimes, 1 nickel, 2 pennies only represented 6 coins, so I had to change it to 2 dimes, 3 nickels & 2 pennies. All other questions were multiple choice, but I figured my answer before finding it among the choices. We only have to pass 2 of the assessments to move on to the 1st interview. I hope I will, even with a horrible 1st assessment! I should hear in about a week.

I just did a nice stretch routine in my fitness challenge. I put a link for it in the Favorite Spark resources thread.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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emoticon for sharing your good news! I am *so* happy for you!! emoticon emoticon

And thanks for the tip about yellow. I was already planning on a gold colored top; my cream tank just isn't right for a winter professional meeting. (It's not an actual interview, but a group event--orientation and skills assessment; no idea how many of us there will be.) I already where a yellow hair band around my wrist to shift arms when I catch myself focusing on negative thoughts. I'll wear it tomorrow--I might not have otherwise.

emoticon for your support--it means a lot! My brain is kinda fried from all the Word and Excel practice and review. I've been planning just how early I'll need to get up to get on the road and arrive plenty early. Thank goodness they'll have light refreshments there, as I won't be having my normal breakfast & snack at normal times. I want to do well, but don't feel too anxious--just tired. Eager to see what they have in store, and how well my prep will serve me.

So looking forward to lunch with sister afterwards!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Thank you for your energies! I wore purple for spirituality, and several yellow threads for communication (what with Mercury Retrograde and all, I figured it would be good to give communication an extra boost). Although the mediator gave me a scolding about not shielding the kids better from the nastiness between their dad and me, ultimately, what the kids said was their fathers undoing (apparently, instructing them "don't tell the mediator about this" is pretty much a guarantee that they will tell the mediator EVERYTHING). Not only did he NOT get his time increase, or get visitations, but now all the time he spends with the kids must be supervised by another person, either his roommate or a family member. When the mediator spoke to him and his lawyer, the kids and I could hear him yelling through the door. Apparently, he showed his true colors, because the judge adopted all of her recommendations.


As far as your job interview goes, I highly recommend wearing a bit of yellow for communication. Even if it is just a thread around your wrist. I am sending energies for safe travel and a good interview.

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You have them, absolutely, Amy! I want the best possible outcome for you and your daughters.

I'll continue doing some practice, and making sure I have everything ready to go for Friday, as I want to leave soon after 6 am to give myself plenty of time to arrive. I just got their instructions today, which said you can register 30 minutes before, they will start promptly at 8:00 am, and anyone arriving late will not be admitted!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I am sending energies towards your job hunt!

I go to court again tomorrow to meet with the mediator. So naturally, yesterday my kids and babysitter were visited by the police and child welfare. The cops went through my house while the other cop and the welfare person interviewed the sitter. I am a little nervous, because the house was a total mess and we use space heaters, but I haven't been contacted by them, so I guess no news is good news. They did tell the sitter to expect it to keep happening. However, my lawyer got a call that afternoon from his lawyer, asking if I was ready to settle without court. Coincidence? I think not.

I could really use some prayers tomorrow.

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I'm having fun with my Word practice--hyperlinks, columns and breaks. I have no idea what they may assess in terms of skills and knowledge, but I imagine this can only help not just with this Friday's activities for this position, but for other future endeavors also. Besides, I just like to learn! emoticon

I'm glad I practiced driving down on Saturday, so know exactly where I'm going. Will meet my sister for lunch after it's done. Keep me in your prayers, that I do well, and there will be a good outcome.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Sorry about that electric bill, but glad you do have your mom who can help. And that you enjoyed some time outside.

I started with 7 Resolutions You Should Make, featured on Monday's Start page, from there found the Resolution Survival Guide, and in there, came across Make Your Resolutions On Purpose This Year: Gain Happiness, Success, and Fulfillment which spoke to me:
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So far I have 2 sticker streaks going: a smiley face sticker for each day since the 1st for cleaning the litter box, and a heart all 4 days so far for exercise--part of a Bollywood dance workout on New Year's, then 3 days of the 28-Day Home Workout challenge. Luckily only Day 1 (cardio) was a workout I didn't like, and I did that one between Day 3 (arms) and Day 2 (legs).

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I took some time today to get yard work done, and it felt so good to get out of the house! I relly needed some time out, because I got hit with another financial set back. My electric bill was much higher than expected. This is partly because I am using space heaters, and of course, the kids were out of school, so we were inside a lot more. I did talk to the complex manager, and weights and measures is coming out to check the meters of a few houses, because several of us had really high bills, but that won't be before the rent is due, so I had to call my mom and ask for money. I hate that . I am grateful, but I hate that I have to do it.

In the meantime, my house is feeling very cluttered. Sometimes I wish I had more time in the day just so I could clean AND clear out.

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Those books sound interesting. I hope you'll share insights and info as you make your way through them. Did you see the first Exotic Marigold movie? It was also very good!

I gave in & finally joined a Spark fitness challenge, because I could earn 10 points everyday I complete that day's challenge; I picked the 28-day in home fitness. I got started last night, so picked day 3, 9 minutes of arms--it was OK. But when I went for the Day 1 25 minutes of cardio, I started feeling sick just halfway through--and I'm in OK shape! There's no way I could keep up with her; I had to lower the intensity and speed a lot to finish--and then the stretching/cool down was perfunctory. I did not care for it, and think it unwise to hit people with something that hard on the first day. I'm not sure whom to complain to (though I added my comment, I don't know that anyone will read it or care), so I'm venting here-- emoticon
I've got henna sitting on my head & I'm about to have a big breakfast--more of my beans & greens. I'll be doing groceries and laundry later. Want to make some planning time too, and more computer practice. Last night's was frustrating, as I was having trouble with the tab setting. Will work on other stuff today.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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Oh, I really want to see that movie!

You know, it occurs to me that maybe as you work on de-cluttering, you will be making room in your life to move to a new place with a new job. Just a thought. I've got my fingers crossed and sending out good vibes for you to get this job. Not sure what phase the moon is in, so I am not sure how to phrase the wish, except maybe to replace your current job with something better. I'll check after I finish Sparking.

I went to the library today, as I needed a destination for my walk. I got "You: Being Beautiful, the Owners Manual to Inner and Outer Beauty". I've decided it is time to make peace with my appearance issues and get a healthy mentality. I also got a book called "Second Spring" a book of Chinese Medicine that uses time honored ways to help women revitalize their health. I'm really looking forward to reading them.

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Oops! emoticon I missed your post on 12/30! Funny about using height as a healthy eating motivation. emoticon

I don't Facebook, and don't know what "meme" is. But it's cool that you found something that helps you feel understood and less isolated.

I'm thinking good thoughts for your next court date! {Let the mediator get it. Let them understand and make a wise decision.}

I took my practice drive down to where my orientation and skills assessment will be on Friday for the Dept of Retirement Systems position. (This is Retirement Specialist In-Training that would be located down in Tumwater, so I would relocate. I gassed up at Costco, just off the freeway (which is good, as the empty tank light had come on 10 miles out), then found the DRS building and took a walk around. Then I drove to a city park I had found online, walked around just a little. Tried to find another in the hills, never did, but swung by 2 apartment complexes to check on possible availability in Feb or March of a 2-bedroom, 1 bath.

I got home to a late afternoon cup of coffee and a snack while I watched the Second Best Marigold Hotel that finally came into the library. When I reserved it, I was in the high 900s, but then they have 92 copies! It was very enjoyable.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I've been home with the kids the last few days, making them help clean up a bit, but we really NEED to clear out. I've also been looking into ways to earn a few extra dollars. It feels good to be looking for proactive solutions.

I've also been much more disciplined about my food and tracking. I like to think of it as a post holiday health recovery. The kids have gotten on board with it as well, possibly because I told them eating nutritiously would make them taller. emoticon

I go back to court on the 7th. I am nervous, but hopeful. I am hoping that the mediator will not make the kids do overnights with their father. Hopefully, he will listen to them.

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I think being a trainer sounds right up your alley! I suspect they don't want as much of a "Yes"person for a trainer. I think they would want that at a CSS2 level, but as a trainer you would be expected to anticipate problems and find solutions for them.

I think I am getting more accepted at work, which helps my stress levels considerably. They are starting to give me more responsibility, and they are starting to really see how the kids respond to me (I won the trust of a really tough, angry kid. When they saw him hugging me they started taking me a little more seriously).

I found a meme on Facebook that perfectly describes the way depression is for me, which oddly enough made me feel really happy, sort of like "That's it! Someone gets it!" It was a huge relief to realize that I wasn't isolated.

I realize that depression is a way of perceiving things that is untrue, and that I don't merely exist, but this really defines well what I feel when my depression is active.

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I got to spend a little time today teaching the new girls a few things. These are our 2 brand new unit members, both bilingual--which will be a huge help to our one bilingual Customer Service fellow who's been on his own for months. But it takes months for them to learn all the different things we do, so everything takes longer while we're explaining, demonstrating, observing, answering questions, giving feedback. I really like it though, and will definitely be applying for the new trainer/lead (a CSS3) position they'll be posting soon. It would be a promotion for any of us CSS2s, and something new and much-needed. With my background in education and training, supervising and customer service, I would be a natural, but I'm also opinionated and I point out problems; it could be they'll want more of a "yes" person. I'll have to see how it goes.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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So emoticon about the PTSD episode. I understand how debilitating those can be. Sorry also that you are struggling with several things right now. I hope you can try to stay focused on the next positive thing you can do--which may include taking a babystep toward your goal, writing something down, spend a few minutes breathing, stretching or meditating, hugging your girls, watching or reading something to make you laugh.

I just spent a few minutes on GCF Learn Free which has tutorials on Word and Excel. I want to put in some practice for my orientation and skills assessment with Dept of Retirement Services coming up in early January.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I had an issue with a PTSD episode that caused me to nearly burn the house down, so I am having to keep the windows open. I wish the heater worked, now more than ever. The accident nearly sent me into a huge tailspin. I am feeling overwhelmed by the post Christmas clutter, as well as post holiday blues. And financial issues are really getting frightening.

I am so glad you were able to de-clutter a bit. I imagine it feels very rewarding to get rid of things you don't need, and to find the things that you do. Well done, you!

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Got my hair trimmed, picked up a couple of tops w/ long sleeves on sale at Penneys, then hit Costco, Safeway and Trader Joe's for groceries. I chopped a small head of red cabbage to add to salads. I still have a couple pounds of crimini mushrooms to chop and bag and freeze--I love grabbing a sandwich bag out of the freezer & tossing the frozen chopped mushrooms into a pot of soup. I did the same with the rest of the TJ's quarter ham I picked up a while ago.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I spent some time today going through my linen closet. Tossed a bunch of stuff, put a few things in the donation pile, and was thrilled to find my hair dryer, with the curly hair attachment. I tested it and it even works after all these years! I had short hair and didn't need it, so buried it in the closet, but I've been missing one, since my hair often isn't dry when I leave in the morning. But I didn't want to buy another until I was sure I didn't have one in the apartment. So saved money, and decluttered one small spot in my home.
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"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Had a lovely time with sister Mary and her husband. Opened gifts, had a healthy meal of Mary's divine crab quiche and fresh veggies, played a couple games, pie with my afternoon coffee, then drove back before it got completely dark. Though there was a fair amount of rain on the way down, the drive back was dry--yeah! A low-key and delightful day!

If anyone is interested, I just updated my Spark Page in the "more about me" section to include new book series I've discovered & correct a film title I was always confusing (Just Like Heaven, not Almost Heaven).

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I adore parsley--both the curly variety and the flat Italian style, but hate the taste of cilantro--even the smell makes me nauseous. emoticon (sort of)
So happy about your mom visiting and helping out. Really hope you emoticon Know I'm sending lots of healing energy your way emoticon Here's the decongesting and energizing fairy!

I'm hoping for a pretty quiet day tomorrow, so we can do a little catching up at work. I had done one piece of cubicle decorating when I came in from vacation on the 8th, and I did a little more yesterday, then a tiny bit just this afternoon. At home this evening, I wrapped one final gift for my sister, and can now clear away the wrapping supplies. I finally opened all the holiday cards and read the letters, and will put them up on my door. And I put something sparkly in my bedroom window (that overlooks the walkway in front of the apartments) from the dollar store. They are a great source of glittery decorations! emoticon emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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My mother came Monday night, and the kids are absolutely loving seeing her. We would like her to move up here...and she would like for us to move back to Vegas. It's something we are going to have to address soon, unfortunately. She was looking pretty frail, to my eyes. She brought with her even more gifts...in my family, the more the better. It could be a spatula from the dollar store, but we will wrap it up and stick a bow on it! She also brought stocking stuffers, which is great because my kids are always with me, which makes it very hard to get things without their knowledge, and we do stockings in a big way.

Last night she and the kids went shopping and made dinner for me, which felt like such a luxury! Oven fried chicken, salad, and biscuits. It felt so good to get home from work and be able to rest.

My cold seems to be turning into a sinus infection. I am hoping my doctors office will be open tomorrow, but if not I will just keep taking OTC congestion pills. Bending down is no fun, but survivable.

I'm glad your party was good. I didn't realize you were sensitive to cilantro. Do you have issues with parsley as well? Parsley is one of my go -to's when I am sick, because it has natural anti biotics.

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We had lots of good food at our potluck at work, though I sadly couldn't have any salad, since it had cilantro (same for the fresh salsa). So I'm glad I had my own veggie snacks, plus someone's store tray, and someone else brought a big tub of spinach dip. I didn't bother with the bread that came with it, but it was great w/ the veggies.
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Anyone who wanted could bring a gift ($5 limit), so I hit the dollar store. Since pretty much all the bowls, forks and spoons have disappeared from our kitchen, I bought those. I have my own utensils and mug and bowl that I use and wash at work. The coworker who picked my gift bag loved it. I picked the one obvious gift certificate--which was for Starbucks. Though I brew my own specialty coffee at home and at work, I will sometimes stop at a Starbucks when we're driving and I need that mid-afternoon pick-me-up. So it will be used.
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I had DS and BIL's gifts wrapped or bagged, but tonight added ribbon & tags. That was fun.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Your tree solution sounds great! emoticon I finally am getting my energy back--slowly; I really hope you emoticon Are the girls better now? When do you get off, and for how long? Hang in there, sweetie!

I finally put in some time wrapping gifts for DS and BIL which I will hand deliver on Christmas Day. And when I got groceries today, I made sure I got what I'll need for the work potluck on Tuesday and to take with me on Friday to add to our holiday feast--my sister makes her favorite crab quiche, which is scrumptious! emoticon

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"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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My kids are in public school, but the preschool is basically private. My hope is that when I've got a bit more experience I can get a job with the school district.

We ended up getting 2 small trees. When we went to the nursery they were sold out of cut trees, so we took a look at their small trees for planting. Since the big tree in my yard was brought down last summer, I had been hoping to plant something new. So we got a small spruce, about 3 feet tall, and a rosemary, cut in a tree shape. It was cheaper than a large cut tree, and it kept the girls from arguing for 30 minutes. It was nice to get out our smaller ornaments, but the bigger ones didn't fit on the tree. I put the spruce on a small table, Between my aunt and my mom, we have a lot of boxes, so it's sort of nice to have a small tree so that there is room for the boxes.

My mom is coming to visit and should be here Monday night, so I'm cleaning house like a crazy woman. Probably just as well, but I wish I could rest. I caught another cold, and I'm very fuzzy brained right now.



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