It has got to the stage where I was under so many specialists at the same time (endocrin for PCOS and thyroid, Rheumo for possible lupus, Nuero for sleep apnea, on treatment for high cholesterol and blood pressure, and a specialist for a srious achilles tendon injury needing an operation and daily physio for knee problems) and at 41 yrs old I became terrified of my future. I am a ballet teacher and I wondered how on earth I was going to teach for the next 25 yrs till retirement when I was already sat in a chair only able to dance with my arms and teach by clear explanation.
I got fed up of weighting for some kind of miracle to occur that would reliave these conditions and realised that the majority of these conditions would at least get a little better if I could lose some of my weight.I just decided to start one day but without making past mistakes of using milkshake meal replacements or low fat diets or low cal. Whilst investigating healthy ranges for the food groups for a balanced diet I came across Sparkpeople and was off on my journey. I decided to cut out sugars and flour to try and cure my PCOS and this stopped my cravings and chocolate addiction.
Within 3 months of starting my blood pressure was normal, my cholesterol was low, I no longer had sleep apnea or migraines, and had had my first period for 5 years (and have had monthly ones ever since for the first time in my life. This is NOT due to being lighter because I'd never had a regular cycle even though I weighed between 7 !/2 and 9 stones...I think it's related to processed foods affecting the hormones and causing insulin resistence).I also no longer needed the achilles tendon op and my knees are slowly starting to cure themselves.
I don't think that my success this time was due to feeling motivated. It was more a sense of being dedicated to doing something that just had to be done and NOW. I knew I was heading for even bigger problems than the ones I had. I've had a image of myself these past months as a donkey with blinkers on its eyes going after the carrot.
There were lots of things that happened last summer that made me want to lose weight (breaking 2 chairs in public, having to ask the man next to me on the airplane to do my seatbelt up because I couldn't, my 6 yr old daughter having to defend her Fat Mummy to schoolfriends who made nasty comments about my size.....being charged double the price for a leg wax for being large...) and these made me want to lose weight desperately but in the end it was the health issues that made something click.
If you want be a butterfly then you you have to want to fly so badly that you are prepared to give up being a caterpillar.
| current weight: 209.0