I hope that I am not committing a group foible here, by answer something posted a month and a half ago (forgive me and gently let me know if I am). But there doesn't seem to be too much talking going on right now, and I think that the motto and mojo of this group is far too worthy a thing to not take the risk here and just jump in wherever :)
And so, Jelly, I hope that you are still keeping on keeping on, because mental illness can be what I call a "twisted blessing." Personally, I deal with BiPolar, type 2, and generalized Anxiety; but I have found that living with these particular types of suffering has given me a form of compassion, tolerance, creativity, and an unwillingness to accept self-doubt in myself that lends to a unique blend of wisdom and a sturdiness inside my soul that no one but Me (and med changes) can rattle. So, I hope that you seek treatment on campus if you are being distracted by your illness; but all in all, try and take the wisdom and compassion it has given you ... and leave the stigmas far behind :)
You have my best wishes, Kristen
Edited by: TURNABOUT4KRIS at: 3/18/2009 (12:38)
"Take Pride in how far You Have Come & Have Faith in how far You Can Go!" (Christian Larson)
GAD - Generalized Anxiety Disorder which means totally nervous at all times -- at least it feels like all of the time unless I'm sleeping! Also, IBS which is enough to cause anyone to be depressed, which I also take medication for. But if you check my profile page, you'll see why stress has gotten the best of me and I have quite the challenges in my life. But, I can't give up -- gotta keep at it!!!
Mood disorders are like PMS except you need to multiply it by about 2000 and add in, self injury, self mulitation, sucidal thoughts, homicidal thoughts, physical pain, mental fog, etc. Some or all of those things can be present in addition to huge pms-like mood swings on a King Kong scale.
I'm not sure if this counts, but I assure you it feels like one...But I am in the thick of perimenopause. I still have a cycle now and then, so between p.m.s., wacky fluctuating hormone levels, and the hot flashes, there have been times I was just beside myself. I'm only 39. I thought I'd have more time before I would have to deal with this stuff...Rats!
I have dysthymia also. I am completely unable to deal with it unless I have medication and regular visits with a tdoc. Please take your disorder seriously and get help. Dysthymia is not as debilitating as major depression, but it is serious and can really affect your happiness and your ability to achieve your goals. I have an entire prevention plan worked out to help me get through rough patches (I have a problem with self-injury). Consider putting together your own prevention plan, including things like "triggers", "early warning signs", "what to do when you are feeling bad", etc. I can share my plan if you like. I have been safe since June when I developed the plan in the hospital with a counselor. Maybe it will help you too.
My daughter has Bipolar, which is similar to what you have but her manic, not depressive, phases are more extreme. She goes thru stages where she cant stop eating either. I try to get her to choose good to ok items to eat, instead of the junk food she wants. We use low fat/low carb deserts when she wants chocolate and it seems to help.
talking to someone is very good also, but mood disorders are very hard to handle without meds. Some people have had good results with fish oil as your brain sees it as lithium but i wouldnt recommend doing this without a doctors input.
I would recommend finding a pdoc you trust to work with you on meds instead of pushing their own ideas over your objections. Find a good tdoc to talk to. Stay with spark people and see what you are eating, try to make better choices or eat smaller amounts of whatever your craving.
i know how you feel...i dont have the same mood disorder, but i sometimes feel the same way...just dont throw the towel in and give up! surround yourself with fruits and veggies and eat as much of those as you want!
I was diagnosed with dysthymia years ago, and I did not want to take the drug treatment route and thought maybe I could cure it myself some how. It obviously isn't working and I'm scared towards what my next step should be. Lately it has really been effecting my appetite, I can not stop eating! If I keep going in the direction I am going now I will completely ruin all of my progress thus far. I just feeling like throwing in the towel, crying, and eating whatever the hell I feel like. Luckily I still have that tiny little voice in the back of my head telling me to stick with it, but he's not doing very well lately lol I feel utterly hopeless.
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