I am not feeling well.I am still battling virus- sores in my throat.
I have been having a lot of bloating, gut and pelvic pain, back pain, pink discharge sometimes, etc..for 1 month or longer and bladder issues.
I was having an anxiety attack over all these tests and all this medical stuff today. OMG I feel like I cannot handle anymore. Lyme is bad enough to handle.
I went in to Lyme doc for alternative assessment and treatment and they said I had a allot of inflammation in my gut and intestines and small bowel area. Lyme can cause inflammation all over so it could possible be causing inflammation in my bladder too. Who knows, that may be why the bladder wall is so thickened in 1 area. I know urologist does not believe it is cancer although he said it is unusual in a woman to have thickening but they cannot truly rule out cancer without a biopsy - which means being put to sleep in the hospital to have it done.Then recovery and we are leaving on this trip to take Ryan to Seattle a week from Tuesday.
OMG I am also being tested for ovarian cancer- blood test and pelvic ultrasound tomorrow afternoon Still waiting for what the uterine biopsy showed.
I just feel like I cannot handle anymore medical stuff. It is just too much. I am thinking of postponing the bladder biopsy until after the trip and after John gets back from his conference- so 5 weeks.
The whole thing is stressful- it is stressful having procedures and then having to wait- esp when it is scary stuff and it is stressful not knowing. But in a way I just want to let it go and postpone it until after the trip.
I am exhausted from everything and I want to have time to get ready for the trip and look forward to it.
Any wisdom??????.I kept hearing in my head today- "Let it go" today after I saw the Lyme doc.
Love and hugs
| current weight: 140.0