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10/18/10 6:05 P

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Wow. I agree with you that we need to learn how to get in touch with feelings that we've automatically drowned in binge eating. I think that we will find that we have power where we thought we had none, and we will realize that our feelings can actually be our friends, rather than something we have to run away from.
What I wonder about, when it comes to childhood comforts, is if I will ultimately be LESS happy without the food. I have spent almost my whole life comforting myself in this way and for so long...it worked!! My expectation of the food and all of the subsequent feelings of shame and disgust were what I knew. New territory can be truly frightening.

Sue


Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (NIV)


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10/18/10 3:01 P

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Last night I was coming home from work, and I really wanted to stop at the store and get these ridiculous seasonal carmel corn corn cobs. They are carmel corn shaped into a corn cob and the store get's one batch every year and when they are gone they are gone.
I really could care less about carmel corn but these, for some reason, have become a compulsion of sorts. They are more like a popcorn ball really and I think they elicit some old memory of childhood and my delve into food as comfort. There was a time in my eating disorder where I would make popcorn balls and binge on them. Sometimes when I am tired, and depleted, I confuse that with sadness. The sadness of fall when it get's dark so early, and I feel alone in the world. That is a really old feeling. And honestly, sugar was the only thing I had to look forward to for many many years. I was so lonely and isolated in my family that sugar was like my secret friend. It buoyed me when there was absolutely nothing else.
I am really wanting to end the struggle with food, and sugar is at the center of it. I think I just crave it when any kind of old sadness waves over me. I am not sad in my life right now I am happier than I have ever been. I think learning to identify that feeling when it comes up will be key. I really do feel ready to end my abuse of food and I think my internal child is really scared about how to face the scary feelings without it.
I am happy for the support here.
Cindy

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SLENDERELLA518's Photo SLENDERELLA518 Posts: 154
10/17/10 11:11 A

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Keep up the good work today, Susan. :-)

Last night after dinner my husband went to take a shower, and that is my prime private binge time....at least it always used to be! My immediate reaction was this rush of adrenaline...yay, food time!!!!! yet I realized quickly that this is a habitual response, and doesn't mean much as far as true hunger. I ended up cutting up an apple and a small banana and threw in some raisins, and the sweetness of the fruit really helped. I ate slowly, and it was delicious and I was
proud of myself for heading off what could have been a binge, for sure.

Sue


Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (NIV)


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SUSANHKS's Photo SUSANHKS Posts: 891
10/17/10 9:44 A

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Today I was finding the food that is in the refrigerator that is not on my plan was "beckoning" me. One thing I learned from Shrink Yourself is to just pause. There was no readily identifiable emotion, except maybe a little bit of annoyance. It gave me a few minutes to think rationally about what I wanted. I decided I did not want to rebel and eat something that isn't good for me. Instead I had a breakfast of healthy cereal, a pint of strawberries, and some walnuts. Yummy, healthy and fits with my plan. So far so good today.

Tonight we have a family celebration hay rack ride and wiener roast--- I'll really have to be mindful of emotional eating tonight.

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SLENDERELLA518's Photo SLENDERELLA518 Posts: 154
10/15/10 3:42 P

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Try to notice whenever you feel like overeating or are tempted to eat the wrong types of foods. Then explore your own mind to see if you can determine why you are feeling this way and how you might deal with the urge to overeat in some way other than eating.

What are you finding?

Sue


Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (NIV)


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