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10/17/10 9:58 A

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Linz,

Good for you for recognizing the urge to binge and fighting it. It sounds like you are becoming more aware of your inner dialog, but it still gets very tough. I think getting aware of that inner dialog, but not believing what the inner critic is saying (not believing that Harriet really knows what she is talking about) is helpful. But just becoming more aware of the way our mind works when we feel like bingeing. It sounds like you have also been tolerating some negative feelings instead of eating them away. Even though sometimes crying feels like a defeat-- in actuality sometimes crying is a victory when it means we felt our feelings rather than distracted them away with a binge.

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SLENDERELLA518's Photo SLENDERELLA518 Posts: 154
10/14/10 8:28 P

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I know what you mean. I used to feel so powerless against the food and against all of my emotions!
Have you read the Shrink Yourself book by Dr. Gould? I highly recommend it.
I have been doing his online program since September 25 and it's helping me an enormous amount. It's really been helping me to know that when I tell myself I am powerless, it's just not true.

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Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (NIV)


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10/14/10 8:21 P

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Usually it makes me feel worse than I felt in the first place. I have little self-esteem and that battle always contributes to feeling worthless. It really does affect many angles in my life.

Lately if I have the urge to binge, I've been able to fight it, not always completely push it away though. One night it was so bad I really almost drove myself nuts with my inner dialog. It's really hard to fight it, and usually end up crying cause I have no idea what else to do.

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SLENDERELLA518's Photo SLENDERELLA518 Posts: 154
10/12/10 9:23 P

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Ugh, I've always hated the shame and remorse after that last bite.
Toward the end, when I realized how serious my eating disorder was, I was bingeing three times a day with little or no psychic relief. The amount of food
had to keep increasing for me to numb out the way I used to.

I am feeling so much better about myself since I haven't binged in a few weeks...
but it's definitely a process that you have to be ready for.

Sue


Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (NIV)


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