When my kids were growing up, there wasn't a lot of money for a lot of extra food around the house. That sort of negates over-eating so maybe not having a lot of money is a bonus. To me, junk food was always literally a luxury. We ate home cooked, balanced meals, had a soda once in awhile as a treat, and a bag of potato chips for a holiday week end party as opposed to a daily ritual.
The kids grew up and left the nest, the cars were paid for, the mortgage was paid off and over the course of time there was more money to spend. We started spending on stupid things like dozens of donuts, bags of chips, cans of nuts, all sorts of new flavors of ice cream and any other kind of food that looked good in the store. And we ate it as though throwing it away would be some cardinal sin. Heaven forbid that a handful of potato chips or one cookie should be wasted. We had to hurry up and eat them so we could go buy more!
The next thing you know, none of our clothes fit so we had to buy new clothes. That cycle continued for nearly 20 years.
I still cooked wholesome meals, by the way. We'd order an occasional pizza or stop at McDonald's if we were hungry and I didn't feel like cooking upon occasion but fast food/junk food has never been a daily meal habit because I never considered that real food. Problem is, after we eat our "real" food, we'd sit in front of the TV every night mindlessly munching away on all those snacks. I don't eat donuts for breakfast, never have, but I definitely wasn't shy about grabbing a couple as a morning snack and chasing it with a candy bar. And when you have sugar, you have to have salt so oh, those little bags of chips were handy to have around! I don't know if everyone else knows this or not but the more junk you eat, the more you crave. So bad habits made me a binge eater and I am waiting for the day when I can trust myself not to fall off the wagon.
Now, literally a hundred pounds later, retired and on a fixed income, we are (once again) weaning ourselves off most of the junk. There is seldom any soda of any kind in our refrigerator. Water became our drink of choice as much as five years ago. That was the first really positive change for me and it did wonders. That and walking every day whether I wanted to or not helped me lose 45 lbs. which I gained back in about a year with binge eating due to lack of activity.
Today, the freezer and cupboard space is either empty or filling up with real ingredients for recipes I'll probably never make before the ingredients expire and I'm trying to break myself of the habit of buying 20 packages instead of 1 of whatever's on sale. But at least it's real food, not half gallons of ice cream, cookies, candy and bag after bag of salty snacks.
I'm proud to say, I only buy one package of cookies or one bag of chips at a time these days. Although there is candy of some kind in the house, it is the kind that is least likely to tempt me and if I get a craving for a chocolate bar, I buy one, not ten.
One day, one step, one inch at a time. I haven't lost a lot of weight because they aren't kidding when they say the older you get, the harder it is to lose. But I've lost a considerable amount of "girth" in the past few months since I made up my mind that I am tired of not being able to breathe, walk, or squeeze into brand new clothes that I never got to wear because I gained another five pounds since I bought them.
Every time I step on the scale, I get disappointed again; but every time I look in the mirror or zip up my jeans without feeling like a human sausage, I know that something is changing and I feel a little better about myself.
| Pounds lost: 5.0