After a couple months hiatus I am back on spark people and back to my healthy lifestyle! My life has been turned upside down. I have found out my husband has been unfaithful and we are in the process of getting a divorce. While in the process of moving out of the home we rented, I dropped one of my 5 pound dumbbells on my big toe and fractured it. The last couple of months have been the lowest of my life. I haven’t been exercising or eating particularly well, but I have managed to lose a few pounds, I don’t know exactly how much, but I have gone down a size in clothes. With a broken toe, I could hardly walk, so most exercise was out. My husband paid for my gym membership, so now I have to learn to exercise without the gym. My kids and I have moved in with my parents. I will be returning to school next month to finish my degree in teaching. I am moving on and not looking back. My life will be better, healthier. The most important thing I have learned, is that in order to be “healthy”, we have to be healthy all over, mind, body and spirit. I was in a very emotionally destructive relationship, and now I am working towards complete health.
I have been seeing a counselor for a while. It was been a tremendous help. I have learned how to “feel” my feelings, rather than eat them. I truly believe this is the key to living at a healthy weight. I never knew how to identify and express what I was truly feeling, so I ate. I ate when I was mad, I ate when I was glad, I just ate. Now I am learning to stop and say “right now I feel ______”. And if I am sad or mad or just down, I can put words to it. Now I don’t run to the fridge or the drive thru to numb myself.
Since I am now looking at returning to the dating world. I am more determined than ever to get in the best shape of my life. Not because my weight or size of my clothes define me. I am a great person no matter what I weigh. But when I do find someone new to love, I want to be active. I want to go skiing and hiking and kayaking, I am done sitting on the couch and going to the movies all the time. I am starting a brand new life, and this time I want it to be a active, healthy life!
| current weight: 237.0