Okay, I'm posting this because I want you to have hope that our perceptions of things can change. When I was in high school, a friend of mine was much heavier than I was at 145 lbs. Forty years later, we are still friends. She has slimmed some and several years ago, I had gone up to 195 lbs. (I'm 5'6''.) We were walking in downtown San Diego and a bag lady was making comments to us. We had passed by and she called out, "I'm talking to you! The one in blue! The fat one!" Guess who was wearing blue? I actually laughed. I remember thinking, "Well, it's official. I'm the fat one." It just struck me as funny that I often work so hard to try to avoid an image of myself, but that that's all it is, an image. It was so obvious that it made no difference if I fit the image or not. I was so much more than the appearance I presented to someone else, especially a stranger. I so deserved my own love and acceptance, no matter what my mistakes are.
I know you believe this in other areas of your life. I hate to hear that you lost sleep over this and pray that your sense of worth grows so greatly in this process that you never take to heart such unkind comments from anyone again, whether you ever get skinny or not.
*"The goal of weight loss is incompatible with recovering from disordered eating." Center for Clinical Interventions
*The No S Diet saved my emotional life! Four years and counting. nosdiet.com/
*Be happy with this moment. This moment is your life.
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|1,535 Days since: I began the NO S lifestyle