I know I am still grieving the loss of my husband, I still do eat for comfort, but I also know I have made progress to stop the bad behavior and get my life back. Sometimes I just have to give into the tears, after I do feel better. Some things we do, the kids and I, we make celebrating the life of their father at special times mean more to us. For instance, on his birthday we will go out to a restaurant for breakfast, because that is something my husband liked to do, so we do that. For Christmas we have a special 3 ft tree that is decorated with all the ornaments that I have bought my husband over the 38 yrs we were together, plus his favorite Christmas Character the Grinch is the tree topper. For what would have been our anniversary, the kids and I go out and have a special dinner, I then ask the server to bring 3 glasses and a small champagne or wine. We make a toast to my husband, having only about one swallow of the champagne each. Other times we indulge in the good things about my husband, I keep him alive by telling the kids this was your dad's favorite movie or actor or things like that so that he will always be with them in memory.
Now that I am 2 yrs since the death of my husband I have started to work on a memory album for each of the kids, I could not do that before, but I have found the strength to go thru childhood pictures and pictures since we got married of my husband and copy them, so that each will have a special scrapbook of dad. Making these memory/scrapbooks of my husbands life has been very helpful to me.
By the way, so as not to get anyone upset, my kids are not kids, they were 22 and 18 yrs old at the time of their fathers death, so a small drink of wine or champagne is not doing damage to a young person.
No matter what you do to get thru it is the right thing for you, the main thing is we get thru this as best as we can. I do not think there will be a day that goes by for the rest of my life that I do not think of my husband and how much I miss him, what is important to me is that I take strength from the man he was and the time we did have together. I also know I will have many things in my future that will be harder due to his death, when the kids get married and start a family of their own, for instance, I know these will be hard times for me, but I have to believe I will get thru them.
Thru all this I have relied on my belief in God and his strength, that has been the most helpful for me.
In all this I hope I have said something to give you hope that you can get thru this, it is hard, but we all must get thru this, in my case I MUST be there for my kids, so I had be strong.
Goal: Just to get thru each day.
| Pounds lost: 29.0