So here it goes. I have anxiety all the time, but it's gotten to be so severe that I'm barely functioning. I have an appt. with my psychiatrist today, not that that's going to help and the reason I say that is because she doesn't like prescribing anxiety meds because she says they're addictive even though I think they're necessary to function. So if she doesn't prescribe me any I guess it's time to find a new psychiatrist. So we'll have to see how that goes. One of the horrible side effects of having such bad anxiety is that I'm losing my hair and I mean a lot of hair and it's noticeable. My hairdresser noticed it too. So has my family and my self-esteem has really gone down. I'm completely embarrassed by it. I do not want to go out in public bald. I'm not a vein person, but I do care about having hair. I suppose I'll have to talk to her about my sleeping meds too. I'm confused if she thinks anxiety pills are addictive why don't she think that sleeping pills are addictive. WTH. I was on pain medication and she would always say to me that that is attributing to my anxiety. Well I decided to go off my pain meds and try to deal with my pain as much as I can, which doesn't seem to be working too well, but anyways I've been off my pain meds for 3 months and my anxiety level has increased even more so I don't understand her theory. The only reason that I haven't gotten a new psychiatrist is because it's hard for me to start fresh and give my whole history. It's just so painful to go thru that again, but this time if she doesn't give me what I need, I'll have to find a new psychiatrist.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake anxiety free. I just feel like that will never happen. I can't imagine being like this for the rest of my life. Will this ever end? I feel so down today. It's like this anxiety has just beaten me and mean totally kicked my butt.
Sorry about this depressing and negative post. Just wanted to put it out there.
Thanks for listening
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