My back story is a long one but here's the abridged version: I have severe anxiety and used to be on medicine. Gradually tapered off of it with my dr and was doing well and was optimistic. Then I started to have a few days here and there that were worse than others but I could usually get through them. Now that it's getting completely out of my system (My doc said it would take about 4 months after being completely off for that to happen), I'm really sensitive to any slight shifts in my routine and really really sensitive to stimulants such as caffeine. It's really bad right now and has been for a week. I can't take the constant chatter in my head anymore and think I might have to go back on medication.
The thought of going back on medicine kills me. I felt like I was moving forward and everyone in my life said I seemed like I was doing so much better. I feel like going back on medication means that I failed and that I am moving backwards again. I was finally starting to feel like a normal person and not like I had "issues." I'm always the one in the group with issues and I tend to define myself by them. I just really need some support. I feel like going back on medication will make me depressed (which seems counter intuitive) but I was so proud of myself for not having to be on anything and now it looks like I just can't cut it. Please help :-(
Starting Weight: 350
10% Lost: October 11, 2012
20% Lost: July 7, 2013
| current weight: 284.5