Hang in there. There are times I have cancelled doctors appointments in the next town over when it has snowed even though they clean the main roads real well. Slid once driving and it took me an hour to drive the 15 minutes into the town I was going to. Won't do that again real soon. Talk to you psychiatrist about it when you go and take care.
I think you made the right decision in getting a ride and taking the bus home. Please don't beat yourself up. I can relate to being fearful of driving as I think I have told you before, there was a year or so I quit driving because of fear. Even now that I do drive again, I still don't like to drive with a passenger. I'm so scared I will get into an accident and hurt them. I too am scared to drive in the snow or ice. Always have been. I think given that you have been in a traumatic accident that you deserve to treat yourself with kindness and cut yourself some slack. I will be praying for you.
Hang in there and please keep in touch! We're here for you!
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I know longer drive. I worry that I might cause someone else to get hurt if I am on the road. I have a lot of issues but I think you made a wise decision. Bad weather is not for everyone to drive in. I ride the bus all the time now and rather enjoy the fact that I don't have to be concerned about the other guy. Give yourself a little break and don't force yourself out of your comfort zone on stressful occasions. Take it one day at a time. Try not to project to far in advance.
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I don't drive after dark. I don't drive if it's raining (and I live in a rain forest.) I drive so seldom it is unnecessary that I have a car. I don't drive anywhere unless I can't help it, then I have the GPS on. The odds of me driving in snow are exactly =0. I'm not sure where my keys are right now.
But you know - it's just how I am. I won't answer the phone either (normally) and I won't even call my father. He also is phobic of phones so doesn't call me. It makes keeping in touch rather precarious.
It's not like I never try to overcome it but I'm 35 now and I have to accept a few things about my idiosyncratic nature and celebrate what I kick butt at - when I remember to that is.
I dont think you should be so hard on yourself. A lot of people are afraid to drive in bad weather. I am not allowed to drive right now but when I could I was one of those people who hated to drive in snow and ice. My husband used to drive me to work whenever there was bad weather and now he has to drive me everywhere. Good luck with your doctors appointment.
I'm frustrated and mad at myself. We just had a huge blizzard over the weekend (got like 18 inches of snow at my home) and today I had to go to work. I'm still dealing with trauma from my car accident last year and I'm too afraid to drive in less than perfect conditions, so I had my bf drive me into work and I took the bus home. It feels like a lose-lose situation: I'm mad at myself for being too afraid to do something. If I did drive in, I'd be so nervous I know I'd be more likely to make a bad decision and have something bad happen again. I don't know how to handle this situation. I have an appointment to meet with a psychiatrist at the end of the month, but until then I'm on my own.
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