It's great that you have found somewhere you like going, so your new church will be a good thing. It will get you to interact with other people, and of course it will get you out of the house more. I struggle with that alot myself!
I too, find it quite hard to look in the mirror, but as the time has gone on, this has got alot easier to deal with. You should give yourself more credit, well done for having your hair cut and sticking out. Just remind youself that you didn;t have to stick it out, but you did :)
I'm really hoping 2010 goes well for me too. It's been a really rubbish few years dealing with my anxiety and other 'fun' things that makes life challenging! I'm sure your year will be fantasitc. Try and be positive. :)
~*~ Be a first rate version of yourself, not a second rate version of somebody else! ! ~*~
1st Goal : Get from my start weight of 16st 11 (235 lbs) to 15st (210 lbs)
I will set another goal when i have completed this one!
Today has started out ok, I went to church today, I really like this church that I have been going to for the last 6 months, I feel so welcome there, I really feel like the pastor cares...anyway, before I went to church I found that paycheck that I had been waiting for, my mom didnt put it where she usually puts my mail, so it got buried...I managed to get it cashed and went to get something to eat...I also got my hair cut...man I hate going to get my hair cut, I like the place I usually go, but I have to sit there in front of a mirror, it takes all I can muster to not run and hide...I was attacked from behind while looking in a mirror, and those mirrors are about the same size as the one I was looking in...anyway I sat there and focused my attention on looking out the window instead...and as far as the hair goes, I got it cut too short...sigh...anyway back to staying positive...like I said I got my paycheck so I have money now to go see my doctor and get some meds that I need, that is what I am doing tomorrow...and tuesday I will work on the application for social security and call about the medicaid...I pray that things will work out with those...Right now I am at my friends house and hanging out...I am trying hard to focus on good things, I am really hoping that 2010 is better then 09...ok that is how things are going today, just trying to think positive and not freak out, anxiety is a bit high from sitting in front of that mirror to have my hair cut...I hope everyone is having a good day..big warm angel hugs to all. Monika
Even the smallest people can change the course of the future. -Galadriel, Lord of the Rings fellowship of the ring.
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