Okay, first I have to quote the legendary Richard Pryor: "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." It is SO true. You WILL get thru this. And you may feel like your parents don't care, but I really bet they do. I know that when I went thru a terrible depression some of the closest people to me avoided me, because they didn't know how to help me and felt helpless. Maybe there is something like that going on with you and your family. If you don't have friends who can help you thru this tough time (and that's all it is, is a really tough time) then find a support group. Hospitals have them or can help you find one. Don't be ashamed to find people going thru the same thing you are. Then find what you love to do, even if it is by yourself, something that will make you smile. For me, it was stand up comedy! I know, it sounds silly, but it was something that made me laugh. And I watched as much as I could. If you don't have something that makes you smile, then try that, that's what comedians are here for, to make us laugh!
I'm not a religious person, nor am I a trained doctor or counselor or anything. But I want you to know there is always someone out there to lend an ear or a shoulder to cry on. Even if a complete stranger. Don't give up. And there is no rule that says you have to feel all warm and cozy during the Christmas season, just remember that you will feel that way again! It just takes time. Go easy on yourself.
Sending you strength and support this holiday season...Jen.
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