I had an interview today and was late because there was some construction and the road I was taking was closed...they didnt give me the directions in time last night so I got directions off the computer, well the road I was supposed to take was closed...and I forgot to take the phone number so I had to call home to get it...so I was late which increased my anxiety and when I got to the interview my anxiety was horrible and I froze and only gave them very little info...they said they were going to call me in the next week or two to let me know if I got the job or not...I really doubt they will hire me the way I froze during that interview...I left nearly crying...now I really want to cut...I have been trying to quit cutting but I am not sure why I should bother trying anymore...I am a pathetic loser...I am always screwing up...I hate myself so much sometimes...I dont know what to do anymore...
besides that interview crap I am feeling sick, I didnt take that new med that is making me feel dizzy so I felt decent for this interview but I am still feeling dizzy, I was ok for the interview but now it is back...maybe in this case it is my anxiety because this is more the way I feel when I disconnect...I dont know...I just hate feeling this way....
I hope everyone is having a better day then I...big warm angel hugs...
Even the smallest people can change the course of the future.
-Galadriel, Lord of the Rings fellowship of the ring.
Around here we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening new doors and doing new things, because we're curious
and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
-Walt Disney, Meet the Robinsons
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