I am so sorry you were having such a rough day, Monika. But you know that things are not always as they seem. There is a higher power within you at work. There will be other job interviews for better jobs. Take what you can learn from this experience, and put it to good use. Learn what to do to prepare for the interview, and how to handle similar situations in the future. What can you do next time to make things go more smoothly?
You'll get 'em next time. You are a splendid, magnificent person who just got a hard lesson. But you're still here, and will have another opportunity to improve on the last. Okay? I'll be rootin' for ya, every step of the way!
Forgive yourself and move on.
"If you have (love), you don't need to have anything else. If you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have." - Sir James M. Barrie
"God give me the courage to love with an open heart." - India.Arie
"...I am a pathetic loser...I am always screwing up...I hate myself so much sometimes..." Please Monika treat yourself with kindness and compassion; the same way you would a dear friend. Also be cardul of the hot words like always....we don't usually "always" anything. We might do it often but not always. You are not a loser. You are a human going through a tough time.
Hope today is a better day. Cynthia
Cynthia~~~ A follower of Jesus Christ!!
Proverbs 3;5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; acknowledge him, and He will make your paths straight. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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I had an interview today and was late because there was some construction and the road I was taking was closed...they didnt give me the directions in time last night so I got directions off the computer, well the road I was supposed to take was closed...and I forgot to take the phone number so I had to call home to get it...so I was late which increased my anxiety and when I got to the interview my anxiety was horrible and I froze and only gave them very little info...they said they were going to call me in the next week or two to let me know if I got the job or not...I really doubt they will hire me the way I froze during that interview...I left nearly crying...now I really want to cut...I have been trying to quit cutting but I am not sure why I should bother trying anymore...I am a pathetic loser...I am always screwing up...I hate myself so much sometimes...I dont know what to do anymore...
besides that interview crap I am feeling sick, I didnt take that new med that is making me feel dizzy so I felt decent for this interview but I am still feeling dizzy, I was ok for the interview but now it is back...maybe in this case it is my anxiety because this is more the way I feel when I disconnect...I dont know...I just hate feeling this way....
I hope everyone is having a better day then I...big warm angel hugs... Monika
Even the smallest people can change the course of the future. -Galadriel, Lord of the Rings fellowship of the ring.
Around here we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening new doors and doing new things, because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths. -Walt Disney, Meet the Robinsons
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