Dear Monika, I will pray for you that you will find healing, rest, security, and hope in Jesus Christ, our Rock and Shelter in times of distress, during this difficult time. Rest on Him, He is dependable.
I'm sorry that you are struggling with the deep depression. I can understand you not wanting to go back into the hospital, but if that's what is needed by all means follow through and please don't beat yourself up for it. You have done nothing wrong. Sometimes our illness just gets off kilter and it takes time to get it back under control. Be patient with yourself. I am wondering if the hospital has am outpatient program that you could do instead of having to go inpatient. Here where I live that is an option.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Cynthia~~~ A follower of Jesus Christ!!
Proverbs 3;5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; acknowledge him, and He will make your paths straight. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Not sure what to say but I wanted to update everyone on how I am...I have gone down into a major depression and have been having thoughts of hurting myself...I saw my therapist on friday and when she looked at my mood chart and saw how depressed I have been she asked me if I have had thoughts of suicide...well I couldnt lie to her..sigh..she had me sign a contract and I meet with her again on tuesday, we will see what she says...if you dont hear from me for awhile it means she had me put in the hospital...I hope not, I really dont want to do that again, it scares me to think about going there again, I have been in there too often lately...I am just tired...tired of life, tired of my life, and I hate myself for getting myself in the place I am financially...I have been trying really hard to focus on the positive things in my life, but somehow they dont seem to help...I have been praying for Gods help too and it just seems like nothing happens...anyway, I am really trying to pull myself out of this episode, I just wish I could get out...I really dont like feeling this way...thanks for all the support lately, you all are wonderful...big warm angel hugs to all. Monika
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