Not sure what to say but I wanted to update everyone on how I am...I have gone down into a major depression and have been having thoughts of hurting myself...I saw my therapist on friday and when she looked at my mood chart and saw how depressed I have been she asked me if I have had thoughts of suicide...well I couldnt lie to her..sigh..she had me sign a contract and I meet with her again on tuesday, we will see what she says...if you dont hear from me for awhile it means she had me put in the hospital...I hope not, I really dont want to do that again, it scares me to think about going there again, I have been in there too often lately...I am just tired...tired of life, tired of my life, and I hate myself for getting myself in the place I am financially...I have been trying really hard to focus on the positive things in my life, but somehow they dont seem to help...I have been praying for Gods help too and it just seems like nothing happens...anyway, I am really trying to pull myself out of this episode, I just wish I could get out...I really dont like feeling this way...thanks for all the support lately, you all are wonderful...big warm angel hugs to all.
Even the smallest people can change the course of the future.
-Galadriel, Lord of the Rings fellowship of the ring.
Around here we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening new doors and doing new things, because we're curious
and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
-Walt Disney, Meet the Robinsons
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