I am glad that everyone cares about me and was concerned, I guess I made it sound worse then it was...I just want to let you know that I did stay safe last night, I took a shower and wrote in my journal and as soon as I got the opportunity to cut I convinced my self that it wasnt worth ruining my streak...I guess I have more strength then I thought I had...
I just want you all know that I was strictly venting and if it was worse then that I would know what to do, if I was suicidal I would get the help I need, I have been through it enough that I know when to seek more help...plus I can call my therapist if I really need to, she is wonderful...
Anyway thank you so much for the love and support that you all have given me, my anxiety is really high and I still have the urge to cut, but I now know that I have the strength to avoid it, the only way I will cut is if I dissociate again, atleast I hope so...big warm angel hugs to all.
Even the smallest people can change the course of the future.
-Galadriel, Lord of the Rings fellowship of the ring.
Around here we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening new doors and doing new things, because we're curious
and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
-Walt Disney, Meet the Robinsons
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