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5/12/09 8:37 P

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Feeling invisible is THE big story of my whole life. It's the one thing that's made me who I am... the constant struggle to be heard, to be validated, and to have someone hear me and acknowledge that I'm real, my feelings are real, it's OK for me to feel what I'm feeling, that I'm as good as other people, but most of all that I count for something and that I can fit in somewhere. To this very day I don't see how I fit in anywhere in this world.

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5/12/09 11:56 A

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Hi Monika, I'm not a therapist but does cutting yourself help? I don't think cutting is going to change your situation. Maybe your therapist has given you alternate methods you can use for coping. You sound like a great person but maybe you are trying to get positive reinforcement from people who are incapable of giving it?
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5/12/09 6:50 A

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I am so sorry you feel this way. Can you say to someone, "I need your help. I can't do this on my own?" I will pray you find a way to deal.

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5/11/09 11:10 P

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I have had it, I cant take it anymore...I feel so invisible and unimportant here...My feelings and thoughts just dont matter to my family...Right now I am so upset and so hurt I really want to cut...I spent a half hour crying...I went out for a walk to get away earlier, it helped alittle the sun and fresh air did make me feel better, but as soon as I got home it hit again...I have tried to be patient and participate today, I even did things to help out, when I asked for help all I got was 'I am watching a movie' I wish I could have just sat down and watched the movie, but I made an effort to help out here...I am sorry for venting yet again, but I dont know what to do right now...I want to scream and really want to cut...probably will before the end of the night...sigh...anyway I hope all are well...big warm angel hugs.
Monika

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