To start off with Thank you to all who have given me some support lately, it has been much appriciated...I honestly do not know how I am today, my moods have been all over the place, I am in what you would call a mixed mood episode...I still am having the urges to cut, and am really looking forward to seeing my therapist this week...Last night I didnt sleep much and when I was asleep I had a nightmare...I just dont know what to do anymore...I cant handle having nightmares, and I hope tonight I wont have any...I am so tired right now, both emotionally and physically. I am trying so hard to deal with all of this, trying so hard to fight these urges to hurt myself.
This weekend should be good, it is a family weekend...my dad and I are taking my older sister and my mom to vancover for their cruise, then Saturday my little sister is comeing to surprise my mom for mothers day..then Sunday we are picking up my older sister and mom and going to meet my older sisters husband and my nieces for dinner...I cant wait to go, I cant wait to see my nieces again. So this weekend my be the best medicine for me. I do see my therapist on saturday.
Anyway like I said my moods are all over the place and it is driving me crazy...
And again I thank everyone for the support I have got...big warm angel hugs to all..
Even the smallest people can change the course of the future.
-Galadriel, Lord of the Rings fellowship of the ring.
Around here we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening new doors and doing new things, because we're curious
and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
-Walt Disney, Meet the Robinsons
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