I am the same way too. If I am having anxiety, look out, the mood is usually bad. Any noise seems 10x louder than normal. The kids chatter absolutely sends be over the edge. I usually have to go into my bedroom, close the door and turn off the lights and just lay in my bed for a while. If don't do that, I will unleash and I don't want to do that. I sometimes don't even know it, until one of my girls, ask "why are you so cranky". Then I realize, I am at that point and need the dark quiet place. Usually about 10 to 15 mins and I can regain my composure. Sometimes longer. It seems we all have different triggers and ways of handling. Sometimes, praying and journalling do it for me. Other times, sleeping. Exercise or walking help too.
I was sitting in church yesterday alone. I always still sit in the same place Kevin and I always sat, and normally I am ok. But yesterday, sitting there alone and looking around at all the families, it was everything I could do to keep from having an attack. I knew if I got up I would start bawling and I didnt want to cause a distraction and do that. I slipped a pill out of my purse hoping it would work faster on an empty stomache. There were times I thought I would just lose it sitting there, and I could not find a reason for this anxiety! It was church for heavens sake!
I made it through somehow and afterwards talked with a friend for the next hour and a half and was fine....well of course I was once the pill kicked in!
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When I am anxious I am usually very short fused. The tiniest annoyances flip me out especially if I am in public.
I also notice when I am axnious things seem louder tha normal....like music is obnoxious, people talking sounds like yelling...a tap sounds like a hug Thump. Anybody else notice this?
Melissa and Marian~ My heart goes out to each of you with your husbands being so far away. I am not a parent, but my mom was a single mom and she sacrificed alot. I can only imagine how difficult it is to be raising kids alone for a period of time.
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My child is older, 17, but I definitely get cranky and irritable with her sometimes and my boyfriend (really common-law). I also can get really irritable with other people, not just the family. For example while driving I get cranky with pedestrians who just jay-walk, or other drivers. At the grocery store too, as I've said before, if its crowded, and I'm anxious because of it, I get irritated with people who move really slowly. Sometimes also with patients at work, although I keep that to myself or just express it to my co-workers afterwards.
I feel for you hun. I am in the Navy myself so I understand the stresses that he is or may be going thru. But my husband was also in the Navy so I also understand the stresses that you are going thru. More than you know as even though my husband is now out of the Navy he is now workig in NY. I don't get out till next April so it is just me and the kids down here in VA. I yell at the kids for the stupidest things then feel bad and stress over trying not to yell at them....like you said a vicious cycle. I am glad that you will have some R&R soon.
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Wow THANKS for your honest responses! I am single parenting now since my husband is in Iraq, and I find I yell alot more at my children! I feel terrible later, it's like a vicious cycle! Anxious, Yell, feel bad, Anxious about yelling again, Yell,feel bad, anxious! ARRRGGGHHH! I am so looking forward to R&R he will be home for 18 day in July!
Very much so, sometimes I get so cranky I don't even like to be around myself. I try and find a way to distract myself, read a book, or do something that does not require a lot of thinking, and I also journal, that helps get what is inside out, then I shred the page and take a deep breath.
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