First of all, good luck Naomi! You are going to ROCK it. Don't let my ramblings worry you at all. Doing a half marathon is truly an amazing experience. I can't wait to hear all about yours!!!!
You all are so right on. I'm feeling MUCH better about everything being 8 days out from the race now. I think I just sometimes push myself too hard. Growing up I was told by someone close to me that I would never succeed at anything. Now, I realize that is silly, and I'm a "big" girl now....but I think sometimes I over do it just to "prove" that I am good enough. Anyway, I might be over analyzing it. LOL!
This week I'm back to running and getting back on track with my cross training and strength training. I'm going to run a half marathon relay with my husband (his first race) and so it is less pressure since it's really all for him (and he knows that anything he does is a PR and that we are all insanely proud of him). And I'm looking forward to some holiday runs. Sooooo....getting centered and back to my happy place.
But suffice it to say, I realize that I couldn't have done anything more than what I did. I don't need to prove anything to anyone. And that you all are an amazing group, and I'm so glad that I can come here and vent and not be judged! Thank you all!!!!
Newbie perspective here...my first HM is in 2 weeks and I'm nervous/worried about almost everything except my training. Compared to how frazzled I'm feeling, you seem like you were completely under control and confident and you performed well...I can only hope I will have an experience like yours. Every race is an accomplishment and yours sounds like one to be proud of! For what it's worth, you certainly inspired me... naomi
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What you are feeling is totally normal...seriously, and there is nothing wrong with that. It is all too common to have my feelings be 180 degrees from reality. The reality is, is that your training, rest, taper was spot on. you could not have fought a better fight than that.
Your time... fantastic, 1 click under your PR is nothing to sneeze at. also, from what you describe, the course and conditions were different. all of those things, temp, terrain, overall conditions all work together and can affect your time. I think it is time to remove the focus from perfection with respect to time and realized that the perfection in your routine is far more valuable. So many never do get the taper, or the training or some other factor right. there is always an Achilles Heel with every runner. I think your overall performance is second to none and you should be glowing about it. :)
I felt so many of the same feelings after my first marathon... all it is, is smoke and mirrors. I did my best and finished my course and so did you.
Heidi, thanks for sharing your feelings. It reminds me of how I feel any time I look for fulfillment from some thing, some event, some achievement, etc. It's often not as fulfilling as I think it should be. That's when I refocus on what is truly important in life.
This is such an interesting thread. Thanks for starting it, Heidi, and to others for sharing their wisdom. I have been racing a lot in the past year, having just been bitten by the running (and racing) bug. I have a big race coming up this Saturday. There are so many things that make it a big event: it's a repeat of my first HM, only now I've trained more and am less injured so I'm hoping to run a much larger percentage of it than last year. (Last year I ran 2 minutes, walked 4, and finished in about 2:55 (excluding potty stop). This year I'm hoping to run 3, walk 0:45-1, which is a huge difference. It's a destination race and I'm meeting my sister (again), and she's super-speedy (about 1:45 for an HM and she's 50!). So I'm a little worried that I'm too emotionally invested in the clock (or Garmin) instead of how I feel and what I do.
I also have had some races where I felt a bit like you did after your race. I think one of the things that helps me is to think of a race as a whole package - not just my race finish time but the whole experience of the race, PLUS the prep work that went into it. If my time isn't what I hoped for, but I worked hard and smart in my training, developed a good race plan and ran my plan well, then all of those successes buoy me up. And I do assess my performance relative to the course and how I'm feeling.
It sounds like you've really become a pro at running and racing. I'm wondering if maybe the next thing for you to consider (if you're not already doing so) is provide your expertise to others. For example, you could participate in something like Girls on Run (working with pre-teen and young teen girls) or Achilles International (helping people with disabilities run and race)? Aside from the benefit to the people you help, it could also help lift your spirits and finding new meaning in your running.
Thanks all. Good words of wisdom and encouragement.
I'm just taking this week off of exercise (besides yoga....gots to have my yoga) to try and just rest up. I wondered if I had just overtrained too.
I don't have any other half marathons planned until December (and it is a fun one that I am doing with a friend...this is her first half marathon and she's doing a walk/run method and I said I'd go with her to support her....no stress). So I think I may just work on some speed for shorter races. A 5k will FLY by after doing half marathons and a marathon. LOL! And I think I'm going to get back into taking Zumba (which is just a fun diversion and change from running sometimes). Maybe my brain is just zapped from too much thinking about running.
BTV you are right. I just probably got too caught up in numbers. I was supposed to run this race with my best friend but she got injured and had to pull out. Maybe I put too much pressure on myself to be amazing for both of us? Does that make sense? I'm feeling better about the whole experience this morning...but wow....definitely a difficult race (I'm used to hills....but they were seriously uphill and relentless...and they advertised the race as "fairly flat for East TN"....uhhh....not so much). I love Chattanooga though and will come back...but maybe for a different race. :) Next time we'll have to try and have a SparkPeople meet up or something. Congrats on YOUR fabulous race. :)
It sounds to me like you ran a great race on a beautiful day in a great city! Congratulations!
You're right -- that course was tougher than they advertised. The stretch from miles 6-9 was mostly uphill, and even a slight uphill makes a huge difference when you're thirsty and in the second half of a race. Be proud that you made it all the way through!
You ran one of your best races on a surprisingly challenging course, trained your best, and got plenty of rest. It all sounds so ideal! But if you are disappointed, the question to ask is what were you hoping to achieve when you started? Look at what your expectations were and reflect on how realistic, motivating, and/or arduous your goals were. When you're ready to train for another event, make sure that you keep your focus on your actions, and not a series of numbers (whether it's a time goal, a place goal, or a number on the scale).
Another thing I've read in Runner's World is that if you've got post-race blues, it's a great idea to just shift focus so that you can put your energy into a new endeavor. Instead of planning another HM, try trail running, join a new running club, coach a new runner, or just take a break from running and focus on a completely different activity.
I hope that your post-race blues go away soon. It sounds like you gave the 4 Bridges your best, and have a lot to be proud of. Don't let the little voice in your head say you weren't good enough, because you did great!
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Sounds like the post race blues.....so much build up and then......it's over and is it really all it was built up to be?!? Sounds like you did an AWESOME job. Just get out there and enjoy a couple of relaxed.....no expectations.....runs. Remind yourself of why you run in the first place and I bet you will feel better!
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Heidi, Congratulations on your race! Sounds like you did great. Is there any chance you might be overtraining? Maybe you need to back off a bit, just so you can get that "spark" again. Just an idea . . .
Heidi, congrats on your finish. I think you are being too tough on yourself. Each course is different and you will walk away from each of them with a different feeling. This race was very busy; hills and steps. I know I would have to slow down a lot to make sure I did not fall on the stairs.
Enjoy your "challenging" PR and think maybe it won't be a repeat race for next year.
You must be careful how you walk and where you go, for there are those following you who will set their feet where yours are set. -Robert E. Lee
Okay, so I don't know what my deal is. I ran a half marathon on Sunday. I had trained really hard and really well for it. I had three 10-mile or higher runs leading up to it. I fueled well. I tapered well. I trained outside almost exclusively (used to have to mostly train on the treadmill during the weekdays until I found a runner girl posse to run with me early mornings). I cross trained. I strength trained. I slept well. The weather was going to be perfect. I picked the perfect outfit that didn't rub me the wrong way (you know what I'm sayin'). I slept well the night before (even though we were in a hotel) and I was up and ready to go on race morning.
I was going along so well. My mile splits were fabulous. I was feeling amazing. The course was tougher than they had advertised (more hills, there were some concrete stairs in a couple of places, they ran out of water at three stops, race started 20 minutes late) but I was just going along. And I did end up with my second best half marathon time (although my PR in a half marathon was on a relatively flat course within a couple of miles from my house, on a cool November day....much different from this course). But for some reason I feel like although I gave my all and left it all on the course...that I somehow didn't do enough. That my best just isn't good enough.
Does that make sense? I realize I may have a touch of post race blues (though I've only ever gotten it before after my full marathon and not after a half). I don't know. Anyone else ever felt this way? I love to run....and I know I've come a long way. I've lost 80lbs and didn't start running until January 2010 when I was 39 years old. And I realize I won't ever be a super speedy runner. But good grief. I just don't know what it will take anymore to improve.
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