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7/8/13 6:17 P

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That sucks. I hate when doctors play the waiting game. Sometimes they just wait to see if the problem goes away on it's own. I hope your edema goes away soon!

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7/7/13 10:31 P

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For the edema issue I have been to a few regular docs including my own and they basically have told me everything from stop eating salt and things with salt in it to wait to talk to your cardiologist because none of the other medications could be causing it outside of the heart med... so I have to wait until I see him in August.

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7/7/13 8:32 P

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*hugs* Do you know why your legs are swelling and you are gaining so much weight? Is it a side effect of one of your medications? Even if not, you should try and get an appointment with regular doctor to get checked out.

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7/7/13 7:44 P

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i would call those counselors back ... someone will have a cancellation ... the more you call and they learn your name and that you need help .. you will get attention you need.

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7/6/13 1:30 A

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I'm sorry I never really thought about just continuing to reply to the other thread. I guess my mind is just not in it.

As for the doc apparently part of the reason that they are booking me so far away is because he is on vacation for a few weeks. They do have me on the cancellation list though. I have asked for help from counselors but I have been put on a waiting list because they don't really have any slots... that was over 3 months ago. I keep being told that I will hear soon. Hopefully that is true.

Ok to clarify with the conversation with my friend was not about me giving up God but about what God is asking me to give up. It is really hard to explain and I probably shouldn't have even tried just when I was writing last night I was so upset and I felt like I needed to get it out.

As for school I had to leave a couple of months in because I went into a manic episode and couldn't handle going back. We did move... just upstairs but it is a much nicer apartment. I tried to start volunteering but I am having really bad swelling in my body but mainly my legs... and it has caused me to gain a ton of weight in a short amount of time. It has been rather discouraging.

That is about all I have...

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7/5/13 9:02 P

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out of curiosity why did you start a second topic instead of just adding a new reply in the original one?

i'm glad you got to see the doc today. even if there weren't meds involved it just helps to talk things through with a medical professional! sometimes we need someone to listen .. someone that understands .. someone that can help support and guide us through the rough times .... regardless of medications

you need to get ahold of the doc himself and tell him the reason you can't get in more often is b/c he's booked. he might not know! and ask if there's a NP or counselor or a nurse or someone you can connect with more often if he's that booked. he needs to recommend something or someone for you to have before September.

don't go it alone!!! do not give in to the pressure of no appointments .. put on your "i deserve to be healthy. sane. stable. seen" hat and make inquiries and waves if necessary. maybe another doc does video conferencing that can help with checkups.

-- i'm totally confused on this part about your friend, religion, giving something up. please explain. you make it sound like she told you to give up God. ... i think there's some miscommunication and misunderstanding going on. If you are doing something for weight loss before a possible gastric bypass .. you can give up things like soda, ding dongs, fatty foods, lethargy, vegging on the couch, eating out often, making bad choices .. you would want to start losing weight and getting stable with weight, health, finances, meds, etc and deal with less stress and chaos in your life . ... not giving up God. weren't you going to school? how's that going? is it too much stress? didn't you move awhile ago? how's that going?

for the moment reduce to basics ... call the doc office ... daily if necessary to find a cancellation slot ... get direct info from the doc about scheduling and other resources available. the doc is NOT wanting you to wait until Sept for help. especially when they're expecting to see you in two weeks.

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7/5/13 2:37 A

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Well I went to see my doc today. He didn't talk to me for long, though it seemed like forever. He is not happy that I haven't been in more often because that way I can be monitored more closely. I had to explain to him that the intern told me that I was fine and didn't want to bring me back in but actually wanted to discharge me from their services. So he told me to book an appointment for the earliest that they could get me in and then for every two weeks after that. However the earliest they can get me in again is in September. How crazy is that, I get to go through the whole summer with nothing... woohoo go me.

Either way he told me that I was manic with a bit of depression. How lovely and yet nothing that I don't know. He wants me to do blood work and then they can look at playing with my medication. However this also means that getting my medication fixed will have to wait until September.
I would go and get another doc but where I live they are almost impossible to find unless you want to pay for it which I don't have the money to do.

I tried talking to a friend tonight and it didn't go well. Well in my opinion it didn't go well. You see I am a Christian and so is she. I got a very big speech about about what I was going to do about what is going on with me. It sort of came up because I applied to do a program here that is what they do before the gastric bypass. It basically is everything but the surgery. My friend has been doing it for the last 5 ish months so I was asking her about it. Basically she told me that in order to really get anything out of it I needed to really figure out what I want to give up in my life.

It just really made me upset because I just feel like I have given up everything I can so what is left that God could want from me. I mean seriously I am so not sure what to think. All I could think was I just want to end this... I just need to make it go away.

I am not threatening suicide or anything just I have been struggling with it for so long. the same with self injury and tonight this is all I want to do.

On the upside my apartment is at least getting cleaned.

SIGH I'm sorry this is a lot :( tell me to go away if this is more than it should be...

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