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2/15/17 11:28 P

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Good. Had fun with my family today, and prepared for my Mom's service on Saturday, It sounds funny having a good time sorting pictures for a funeral, but it's really not bad.

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2/14/17 4:40 P

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I am feeling so odd and unusual in that I feel NORMAL! I have felt NORMAL for 23 days, which I think must be a new record for me. I haven't felt this way for a long long time. It feels good but I keep expecting someone to pull the carpet out from under me, if you know what I mean.



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2/14/17 2:55 P

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Hypomanic and on the verge of mania. Eating only happens when I force myself. We shall see how long this lasts and until it breaks I am riding high--just have to make sure that I don't go too high.

So I sit on the dangerous game of mania.
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2/6/17 2:55 P

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Thanks, Deb :)

I am doing better today. I still miss my mom, but I don't feel as sad. Things are going okay. I'm pretty much content.

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2/6/17 9:36 A

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Today my mood is contemplative ! I am sort of non plused and out of the main stream of things today. The beginning of the week leaves me with staggering responsibilities, so I am trying to plan my day.

Larissa, my thoughts and prayers are with you !! emoticon emoticon emoticon


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1/31/17 5:22 P

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Sad. See my post in General Discussion.

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1/29/17 5:46 P

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I am thoughtful and I am tired because I was in Vancouver, Wa, visiting my son's family and my two year old grandson literally ran me ragged. It was great exercise, but I am exhausted today after spending my morning doing the same thing ! Now that I am home again, I am feeling rather thoughtful and grateful.

Kauaicarolann, I hope that you get better sleep tonight and that it leaves you feeling fresh and feeling good !!,



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1/29/17 9:57 A

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I didn't sleep well...hubby coughing & tossing and turning and THREE dogs in the bed.....I woke up cranky.

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I am feeling excited - going to spend family time today with my son, daughter, daughter in law and my two grandsons !! I am happy that we will all be together today !!

Larissa, have a nice plane ride today. I spell my name just like your Mom when I am signing as Debi. Try to be calm when you arrive and enjoy your sister and brother while you are there. It is a sad visit I know, but you can all help give each other support. Sending you positive energy and hugs. Take care and God bless, Deb

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1/28/17 11:19 A

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Thanks and great job, Deb!

I am doing okay. I leave later to see my mom and I'm half stressed and half calm. I was talking to Geo's mom last night (her and I are close) and she was telling me how her mom died in her arms. I can't get that image out of my head (hence the stress) but his mom was also telling me that I just have to let go (hence the calm). Just ready to see her, see my brother and sister, and just be at peace. My mom is suffering, so she is ready to go. If you want to pray for her, feel free. I don't believe in God, but she does and I can appreciate the power of prayer. Her name is Debi. *hugs*

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1/27/17 7:55 P

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My mood is escalated. Just got back from the doctor and my 6 month check up. I have lost weight and I have brought my blood sugar down to normal from pre diabetic !!

Larissa,

You can do this. You are strong ! Remember you will have family to help you. I am saying prayers and sending you positive energy. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers while you are gone.

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1/27/17 5:20 P

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Stressed... all my family now knows about my mom and I am getting calls. I'm going up there tomorrow, so I have to be strong.

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1/27/17 3:58 P

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Very good. Getting a lot accomplished today!

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1/23/17 8:19 P

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Today, I'm irritable and slightly anxious and happy. Ah...the joys of a mood disorder! All three of these are situational. I would say my baseline today is fairly calm. As for the above three:
1) irritable because it's that time of the month
2) slightly anxious because I may or may not have work this week and don't know what to expect
3) happy because after 3+ years, my car accident claim is completely over

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1/23/17 6:15 P

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Depressed and in pain. I am splitting with Geo and my mom is dying quickly. She has less than 6 months and I don't think she is going to last more than a month. She was telling me the other day that she was going to try to hold on until my brother, sister and I are there next week. Just too much going on but I am not suicidal.

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1/22/17 1:00 P

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Great - going to my grandson's second birthday party today, so am looking forward to being with family. emoticon Deb

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1/22/17 12:33 P

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Pretty good.
Really sleepy though.

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1/9/17 10:57 A

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Pretty good.
Last week sucked pond water, but that is behind me now.

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1/2/17 4:52 P

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Great! I got all my meds for free and got a ton of stuff for free or super cheap at CVS.

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12/31/16 2:19 P

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Today my mood is contemplative !! Reconsidering the events of 2016 and trying not to make the same mistakes in the New Year.

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12/31/16 1:47 P

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Yes, tired....it's been a busy 36 hours.

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12/29/16 5:18 P

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Tired - didn't sleep well last night !

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12/29/16 12:03 P

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Happy

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12/28/16 11:39 A

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Gratefull !!

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12/27/16 4:23 P

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Tired, and ready to go home.

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12/26/16 11:15 A

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Not good, not bad....just here. A little on the zoned out side, though good Kona coffee is helping.
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12/24/16 2:11 A

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I just "am". I don't feel depressed. I don't feel hypo. I just feel "there". Fourth day and only 10 hours of sleep total for these 4 days. My body is exhausted and yet fighting the sleep for some reason.

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12/23/16 8:39 P

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Much better. I haven't been sleeping because it's way too hot at my mom's, and her roommate just lent me his fan and I got some good sleep. That, and I talked to a good friend and vented a bit about having to take care of my mom all the time since her husband is making me do everything for her so he gets a break. I was exhausted, sweaty, and tired and with a little alone time with the fan I feel much better. I know I will sleep better tonight and tomorrow will be better.

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Well, I've been hypomanic the past couple of days. Up for 38 hours, slept for 4, and then back up again for the day. I made sure to the put bank card away on the shelf so that while I am out today I don't use it. I've been in a bubble of sorts for the past 2 months so that I can work on inner healing and getting my environment stable. I get impatient though so I came out of the "bubble" for a little bit 2 times this past month. Mistake. I was like a turtle who had to quickly snap their head back into it's protective shell. It was too much. I was triggered after only a few hours. So, back in the bubble even though it is the holidays so even the bubble is feeling awful now because of guilt.

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12/18/16 11:15 A

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When I look at my husband, I'm cranky. Otherwise I'm in a fair mood - nothing good, nothing bad.

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12/8/16 9:15 P

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*hugs Michelle* I hope you feel better soon :)

I'm hypomanic. I got mad at Geo for waking me up. I was up sometime between 8-9 am and could not fall back asleep. I took half a Klonopin since if I don't get my sleep I'm a hypomanic b*tch (not a good combo). I slept till about 11:15 and then Geo woke me. He thinks I need 2 hours to get ready. I don't. I need 5 minutes to get dressed and if I drink my coffee slow, 30 minutes. Oh well.

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12/8/16 1:12 P

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Okay... I have been doing a lot today and I'm tired. Woke up early, did errands, shopping, coming home and cooking and cleaning. I just want to go to bed but I'm waiting for Geo to get home (he's at his dad's, waiting to come home after dropping off the car) and watch some TV and go to sleep.

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Hi! I have moved and I don't have wifi at home yet so I am unable to record my foods on SparkPeople As a result I am not being as good at watching what I eat. So I have gone up 8lbs. I do not, I mean do not want to go up to 198 again! I can just hope that I get wifi soon
Otherwise things are good. My roommates are ok(actually one is great and the other is just ok
But ok is good) I am having my challenges but have survived so far ( my nice roommate said I was doing well) I have hopes for the future and that keeps me going.(like a job!)

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12/3/16 10:47 A

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Today, while still grateful, I am irritated with my daughter, because I have a lot of things to do this morning and she is out dinking around with friends. I am watching her 5 year old son, who has strep throat. I do this out of love, but Jeni needs to get back here so that I can get my errands done and get on over to my son's house for more grandchild watching this afternoon. I am only one grandma who is in high demand. I love my kids and grand kids, but I need my time too !! Sorry for venting, but it is how I feel right now.

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12/2/16 9:14 P

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I'm grateful, too. Thanks to food stamps we now have enough food for weeks and had a car to take in home in instead of being on the bus.

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Grateful - it's that time of the year where we should be counting our blessings and get into the spirit of giving to those less fortunate than we are. I'm taking the kids Christmas shopping for one of the local TV station's gift drive. They need to learn too.

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I am hopeful today. Although I at my heaviest since losing weight five years ago, I am determined to not give up. The doctor started me on Lithium yesterday. I know that the weight gain and water retention are supposed to be severe on this drug, but I am hoping that my other meds and more activity will counteract it.

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11/16/16 5:52 P

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I'm content. The mood swings are not as bad and i fell asleep quicker than normal last night.

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Relief - lots of stressful things have been resolved well in my life. emoticon

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Hypomanic and mood swinging... I went to the movies with Geo and saw Dr. Strange. I think I would have liked it if I didn't have a raging migraine. Trying my best to look up

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Nervously waiting for my dog's second pathology report. Very nervously.



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I am in a mindful mood. I have no stressors today, so it has left me with no bad thoughts and I can stay in the present moment.

Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance - Samuel Johnson

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Emerging from the dark and foggy state of mind I have been in for the last few weeks. Hopefully this means things are shifting for me.

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I just started Latuda and it's messing with my sleep. At least I'm not tired, just in pain.

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Black. I am very, very, very depressed.

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Anxious. Not knowing what they removed from my dog's back combined with (for some reason) anxious for the state of the US. Both things I have nothing more I can do, so I am sipping on hot (decaf) tea and a couple anti-anxiety meds.



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I am happy and contented today. Just feel good in my own skin !! emoticon

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Feeling down and frustrated.
Been hard to go outside of my property. It has been a while since I felt like this. Going out for chores and to get things done, like getting the mail or going to the store, has been hard--much less going out for a walk, It has only been the past few days but it is hard. Hopefully it goes away fast. My weight has gone up in the past few days and I am not sure if it is lack of exercise or just pain in the rear hormones.



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Anxious for some reason my anxiety is sky high today. Better get out and walk some of this off.

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Functioning. It is a welcome improvement.

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HMATTAX I can comiserate with you. We've had way too much rain lately. Like you I turn into a slug when it starts raining and continues to do so for days.

Today my mood is thankful and I am grateful for all the people in my life who make a difference everyday.

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Sluggish. It is dark and grey outside, raining off and on. I am happy for the rain, but turning into a slug because of the sky.



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Happy that it won't rain today and energetic !

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loved. Geo kept rubbing my foot when we were watching TV,

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Depressed and tenative.

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Strange. Hypomanic while still sluggish and unmotivated. I am wide awake now, but could barely get out of bed (may have been due to a pain-in-the-rear dog who woke me up at 4am.



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Frustrated. I ran all over town from doctor to doctor and it was not fun.

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Today I am manic, so I am up and raring to go! I really hope that this manic episode doesn't last a long time, so that it gets worse.

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A little all over the place.

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Today I feel grateful and reflective. emoticon

Edited by: DEBTEVELDAHL at: 10/25/2016 (20:58)
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I'm feeling better today. I had a increase in meds, I hope they work!

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Well I have moved. Hooray-no longer in assisted living! My new roommates are nice and we have a nice house. I am feeling well. But I have a practical problem-no wifi! I can't enter my food! At least not yet. I have spoken to people about getting wifi and I hope I will. Otherwise I am doing good

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I slept all day and I feel like crap. Guess I need to learn not to do that.. this has happened before.

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I am so sorry Larissa that you are hungry all the time. It sure does create havoc with the metabolism. If I am hungry, I can't sleep. I hope that things settle down with you soon. Today I am in a contemplative mood. I am not sad or bummed out, just thinking. I hope that you all have a great Sunday. Sending positive energy and hugs to you Larissa ! Take care and God bless, Deb

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Hungry. I can't seem to get full and it's wrecking my weight loss

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I'm in pretty good space,today. I have pain, but it is well controlled ,so I am not suffering a lot. I am looking forward to this next week, so my mood is good.

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Depressed. I'm really concerned about homeschooling my daughter this year. I'm not worried about my son; he doesn't need much cajoling to get him to do school. But my daughter needs alot of one-on-one, which is one of many reasons I chose to homeschool her. I haven't done the greatest job with consistency, if you can imagine that. She's not at grade level, which is as much due to her issues as mine, but I don't know what to do. Sorry for the novel lol.

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I'm getting better but still in pain. Going to pick up meds too.

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Feeling blah. Still coughing. I have to admit, I'm not even trying to eat healthy or exercise. I really just come on here for the emotional support. I do want to start back eating healthy, but right now I'm more focused on just trying to manage life. I know clean eating would help me think better and manage my emotions better, but right now i just don't have the motivation or energy to start.

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I got hurt yesterday falling many times yesterday on rocks (and into the water) while fishing, so I have a wrist brace and a knee wrap. I'm tired and hurting.

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Feeling slightly better today. Still really dragging though.

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I am in really good space today. My mood is great. I'm very energized from getting some great rest at long last. I have only been sleeping 3 or 4 hours a night, despite medication. I know that I am manic and I don't rest well when I am. Last night I got six hours in, so I feel wonderful today. emoticon

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Sick,literally. This isn't just allergies. I have so many things I want to do, but I'm so wiped out with just trying to breathe and not drown in mucus. Oh, well. I still managed to make my bed, scrub my bathroom, and read my Bible. I also gave my son a driving lesson and switched laundry around for him. It's his chore, but since he's working two part-time jobs I want to help him out some.

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Agitated. Last night I lost part of my garden (my watermelon that I had babied for months. All my vines) I am still angry and frustrated which is keeping my anxiety high. It is time to bring in some mental chemistry



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This morning my mood is dark. I am frustrated with the nutrition and fitness trackers changing my totals. when I exercise more. My nutrition tracker was never "synced" before with my fitness tracker. I was given the option to change to the newer way of syncing the two together and I opted out of it. It appears that it has been changed for me and I don't like it. It makes me eat more calories because I am doing more exercise..I have tried to increase my exercise to match a Challenge goal on another team I am on. I am not increasing my calories because then I will not lose weight, but at the ranges I'm being given I would gain weight. So I am unhappy and frustrated this morning.

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Excellenet. I am escalating and I think that it is due to my new challenge. They have really motivated me !!

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I'm doing okay.. Geo asked for my help- he wants me to go with him to his next doctor's appointment, and I'm supposed to leave on the 4th of October but I don't know if I can stay here that long. nobody has the money for my return trip home, so I'm stuck until we all get paid on the 3rd.

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