Author: Sorting Last Post on Top ↓ Message:
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
8/25/16 12:16 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Between the upped dosage of Lithium and the addition of benztropine I have some serious problems.

My spacial thinking is toast. I tried to drive into the wrong lane of a divided highway, not once, but twice!

The most frustrating thing for me is that my words aren't coming to me. I can't speak a complete sentence, and typing is worse. I get to type about two words then have to back up and retype everything. I make my living as a writer. This is not good. Call is already into the doc.



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/25/16 11:39 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I set my alarm for 9, and finally dragged myself out of bed. I'm tired, but enjoying the peace.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/25/16 11:37 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
*trigger*

I used to cut. I was addicted to it... I had to cut every day just to deal with life. You have to think about things like scars... I have a scar on my left wrist and now when I start to go to interviews I have to hide it with a watch. Think of something that makes you feel better and gives you hope. It's hard.. but it's not worth it. I'm 9 years cut free. My inspiration was Geo, and I didn't want to hurt him. *hugs*

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/25/16 11:01 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I don't feel suicidal but I feel like doing self-harm. Very manic. I was very angry and irritable the end of last week and now again since Tuesday. But since yesterday I've been feeling the intense need to hurt myself. I've never been into cutting but I can't seem to get it out of my mind. I want this craziness to stop. Saw psych this morning. We're upping my evening medication but I don't feel hopeful right now. I'm not suicidal though. I'm sorry if this is a trigger for anyone. I just feel like you'll understand. Maybe even have some tips.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
SECONDCHANCE48's Photo SECONDCHANCE48 SparkPoints: (110,001)
Fitness Minutes: (10,803)
Posts: 4,569
8/25/16 9:37 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Good morning everyone

I'm feeling great today and I hope you are as well

I'm making it one day at a time
TENACITY is the quality displayed by someone who just won't quit -- who keeps trying until they reach their goal. Anything really worth doing takes persistence, perseverance, and stubborn determination! I AM a Tenacious Jungle Tiger and these are my survival skills!!

The key is to keep company with those who uplift you, whose presence calls forth my best....

Tema


 current weight: 361.2 
 
364.8
316.1
267.4
218.7
170
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/25/16 8:40 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm sorry to hear that HMATTAX. Please be careful. And talk to your psychiatrist about these disturbing side effects. Benefits should always exceed the risks and it doesn't sound and as if that's the case.

I'm feeling pretty good today. Though now I am feeling admittedly more concerned.

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
8/24/16 11:23 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Feeling frustrated. My new dose of lithium is kicking my rear and taking words away from me. It also has affected my driving--I turned into oncoming traffic instead of the right way on a divided highway. Scary too.



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/24/16 8:14 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hanging in there. I went to the dentist today and got a cavity filled.. what joy! But overall I'm feeling content.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
SECONDCHANCE48's Photo SECONDCHANCE48 SparkPoints: (110,001)
Fitness Minutes: (10,803)
Posts: 4,569
8/24/16 8:12 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm feeling fantastic

I wish you all well

I'm making it one day at a time
TENACITY is the quality displayed by someone who just won't quit -- who keeps trying until they reach their goal. Anything really worth doing takes persistence, perseverance, and stubborn determination! I AM a Tenacious Jungle Tiger and these are my survival skills!!

The key is to keep company with those who uplift you, whose presence calls forth my best....

Tema


 current weight: 361.2 
 
364.8
316.1
267.4
218.7
170
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/24/16 7:50 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Aggravated. Kids are being rotten.

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/24/16 6:52 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Excited. During the multiple power outages we had in the storms that just passed, my computer got fried. I have a new computer (not brand new, but new to me), so I am pretty excited to be back - I missed my SparkFamily more than I imagined I would.

On a more bipolar related note, I am pretty mellow. Not my usual manic, but certainly not depressed, so I'll take it.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/23/16 2:14 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Very, very grumpy. I've been doing well starting Sunday and Monday. I had started off well this morning but found out hubby is mad and I'm seeing that it is setting off my mood and triggering. Ugh.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/23/16 8:51 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Is crampy a mood? I think it certainly affects mood. So, yes... I'm feeling crampy. I guess I need to go find something for that. The question is ibuprofen or Aleve?

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
SECONDCHANCE48's Photo SECONDCHANCE48 SparkPoints: (110,001)
Fitness Minutes: (10,803)
Posts: 4,569
8/22/16 10:54 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm feeling good but tired

I'm making it one day at a time
TENACITY is the quality displayed by someone who just won't quit -- who keeps trying until they reach their goal. Anything really worth doing takes persistence, perseverance, and stubborn determination! I AM a Tenacious Jungle Tiger and these are my survival skills!!

The key is to keep company with those who uplift you, whose presence calls forth my best....

Tema


 current weight: 361.2 
 
364.8
316.1
267.4
218.7
170
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/21/16 2:34 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm feeling a little down today. Girlies are sick though, so I'm empathizing.

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/21/16 2:11 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
*hugs* HM. I could be having a good day and still get upset by something that reminds me of my dad. It will be 20 years since he died, and some things still upset me. *hugs*

I'm doing okay.. cleaned the kitchen, did the dishes, and going to bake soon. Then I get to cook dinner. I don't know how I'm going to last with all that stuff that needs to be done, but it's got to get done.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
8/21/16 12:05 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
For some reason fixing projects that my husband I started tosses me into depression. My dad came down and helped paint the living room--something that my late husband and I had started passed away. Now that I am back in the house alone it finally hit home that I was so attached to a project that my husband and I started before he died.

So I am pretty much crying my eyes out as I checked off the room from the list. That list was started as soon as we walked in the door as new house owners. I remember the list being next to my husband's bed so he could see how much we had done and when it got marked off, I still have the list and continue to mark off projects as they get done.

Yeah, I just dropped out of a semi-normal/semi-manic state from something as simple as painting a room.



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/20/16 8:14 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Feel better, Diane.

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/20/16 5:18 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am having a good day, just pain. I tried to help out at the clinic for their school medical exams, and it was from 8:30 am to 12:30 pm. I got there on time, but stated to get a migraine so I had to go home at 11. At least I was productive.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/20/16 9:00 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Feel a better view on things right now. I think I am feeling good today.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/19/16 2:15 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Tired. Our power went out last night, which wouldn't normally be an issue, but we still have chicks in the brooder that need to be kept at high temperatures. Despite the fact that it is August, I fired up our wood stove, stoked it up every hour and a half, and spent the night camped out on the floor next to our feathered babies. Every one survived the night, but I am dragging today. That being said, I do not feel manic today, so this sleepiness may be a blessing in disguise.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/19/16 12:09 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
In a better mood today than yesterday, though my back is starting to bother me.

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/19/16 10:00 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I have had a headache for days now and I'm thinking of taking one of my migraine pills. I only have 3 left. But I'm going to be running around town today in the heat so I think I should take one so I don't end up with a horrible migraine.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/19/16 8:25 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Disappointed and a little angry feeling. Back on driving restriction again when I'd only been driving for 2-days now. Experienced the lightheaded feeling again with nausea and headache. Woke up with it as well and it hasn't gone away even though it's been 2 hours. Tired of this crap. Will try to walk to Kroger with daughter around 9 so we'll see.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (100,696)
Fitness Minutes: (47,625)
Posts: 6,543
8/18/16 5:20 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Ugh... frustrated, irritable, and exhausted today. It'd be nice if the kids would behave instead of painting the house with poster paint and ice cream.

Audrey

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Co-Leader of 20 Somethings with 50-99 Pounds to Lose
Join Us! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=11518


Leader of Northeastern Pennsylvania
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=17427


Leader of Wilkes-Barre/ Scranton Team


 current weight: 229.6 
 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/18/16 2:41 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Struggling today. I am manic, so I am full of energy - however, I have a 30+ day streak of fitness going on and I can tell my body needs a break. It is difficult and frustrating. I can logically tell myself that I need this, but all I can think about is how I am going to ruin my streak, or that I am going to start a habit of not being active, or that I am going to gain weight. We are heading to the fair in a bit, so I am hoping that will distract me from fighting with myself.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/18/16 12:23 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Don't know what I'm feeling. I feel on but I don't think it's manic energy. Just taking advantage of not being sleepy. Guess I'll have to keep tabs on it :-)

**
Just thought about it and I'm thinking heading into manic. Feeling way to productive. Everything is feeling slow to me and I'm back at trying to find my "organization" system.

Edited by: JUSTPEACHYGA at: 8/18/2016 (12:30)
 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/18/16 9:53 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm good.. Geo's little brother is over and he's sleeping, so I have some peace. When he wakes up I'm going to go volunteer for a bit.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/16/16 2:38 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Manic, but exhausted. The lack of sleep and increased activity is catching up with me. I feel burnt out and achy, but the manic-ness is making it hard to take the rest and relaxation I need.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/16/16 8:07 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Feeling tired today. I think I'll go inward today.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/15/16 12:45 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Feeling purposeful and optimistic.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/15/16 11:46 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Good! I love Melatonin. I've been taking it for a couple days now and even on nights when I can't fall asleep I can take it and sleep. I also lost weight, from 234.4 to 232.0 pounds.. I just need to keep eating right.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
8/15/16 11:23 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Still twitching. Grr. Feeling on the down edge of things and feeling sluggish. I managed to get in a walk yesterday night (when it was finally below 85F) Not quite two miles, but pretty good for me, especially on a depression day..



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
DREAMED1 SparkPoints: (13,290)
Fitness Minutes: (2,738)
Posts: 76
8/14/16 7:37 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Today I am ok. I did not have any overwhelming episodes. It was a bit challenging to talk to my sister. She always takes precisely what is bothering me and makes a fuss about it.Today I was upset that I didn't!t get a message about housing that was left for me on Wed until Fri- I was very upset that that looked bad. And my sister says you know that you should be looking out for calls precisely what was bothering me. Well I told myself I am difficult to offend and it didn't!t develop into a major challenge Don!t get me wrong -I love my sister but sometimes those closest to you present the biggest challenge But it's a victory that it didn't develop into a major thing

JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/14/16 1:11 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Thank you Diane. You are such a wonderful person! I tend to steer clear of the phone.. I hate it. Your emails are very encouraging!

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/14/16 12:56 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
*hugs* Don't get discouraged.. If you want, I can email you my number and be there for you in your hard times. You are a great friend and I want to help you.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
JUSTPEACHYGA's Photo JUSTPEACHYGA SparkPoints: (9,485)
Fitness Minutes: (8,882)
Posts: 340
8/14/16 11:57 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am feeling very discouraged. I keep having these wonderful plans for a healthier eating pattern and more activity along with nurturing myself. I am happy to report that my mood has been stable for 2 days now due to the new medication but like with the others I am experiencing side effects again. Last night I was in so much pain, partly from physical but also due to frustration. I was telling myself that I wanted to die because I'm tired of this; I felt physically like I was going to which triggered me into this thinking. How can I not head into depression with this crap? I'll keep fighting but just tired.

 current weight: 203.0 
 
208
193.5
179
164.5
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/14/16 11:23 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am content. Just trying to be at peace with everything.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/14/16 10:54 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Manic and irritable. I am ubber productive, which has been great, but I have been pretty grumpy/snippy/frustrated with everyone in my house. The hubby and children are heading over to his mom's house this afternoon, so I will have a few hours to myself to hopefully get my attitude in order. I love my family, but after being with them 24/7, I look forward to my Sunday alone time.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/12/16 3:33 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm somewhere between good and okay. Geo came home last night and he was in a lot of pain. He and I did cuddle some today since he's feeling a bit better. I missed him, and I'm so glad he is home.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/12/16 10:56 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I feel "blah". I did not sleep well and really struggled to get up when my alarm went off. I did manage to pull myself out of bed to exercise, but didn't get the "boost" I was hoping for. It is still only 8:00 am in my time zone, so maybe another cup of coffee will perk me back up.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/11/16 4:31 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm good today. I went to the store today to get stuff for Geo but they didn't have what we wanted. Instead I got a lot of fruit and vegetables.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/11/16 12:22 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Today I am still manic, but irritated no one else in my home is moving at my speed. I know it is illogical to feel frustrated with them, so I am trying to not show it.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/10/16 2:13 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
HMATTAX - It certainly is a love/hate situation.

Larissa - I am glad you are doing well and that Geo will be home soon!

Today is going well for me. Not too manic, less irritated, and only a bit anxious.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/9/16 8:35 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm happy. Geo comes back tomorrow night, and I can't wait! I have missed him so much. My therapist is proud of me for how I have dealt with him being gone. I'm just keeping myself busy. I may have spent more money than I normally would have, but he had the food stamps card and I had to buy all my own groceries. I have food stamps too but they don't come in until tomorrow. I'm a bit annoyed about that, but oh well. Such is life!

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
8/9/16 10:58 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
GRBLMES, I always hate and love when I get manic. I get so much done but them I have to go back and fix everything I started! The irritability and anger I get as well is not something I like to look forward to.

Been having twitches in my hands and legs, so just started yet another med. I think that I have the entire pharmacy with me!



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/9/16 9:44 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Manic, irritable, not really sleeping much, but getting a crap-load of stuff done.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/8/16 4:54 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Dreamed, we DO need other people. Geo is on a trip, so it's just me and I'm seeing how much he does for me.

I'm tired. Another long night of little sleep with the akathesia. I'm going to call my pharmacist soon to ask what I should do, and what med might be causing it. I went to bed at midnight, up at 7 (dental cleaning at 8:30 am, yuck!), and after some errands I got a 3 hour nap. I hope I can sleep tonight... if it was up to me I would go to sleep now. I have to cook dinner and then I can get ready for bed.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
DREAMED1 SparkPoints: (13,290)
Fitness Minutes: (2,738)
Posts: 76
8/7/16 8:57 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Larissa-you did a lot of good things! I'm sure those things will lead to overcoming your problems. I has a funny day today. This afternoon I was in despair and now I feel good Something I didn't want to do turned out good This was due to the hard work of another person It makes me mindful of a fact I often overlook- we need people.

LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/7/16 5:07 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm having a bad day but trying to make the best of it. I haven't left the apartment all day and I'm going to sleep in a couple hours. I cleaned and heated up some dinner (I made pork chops with mushroom sauce a couple days ago and froze the leftovers) and I'm feeling a bit better. I have a headache, stomach issues (hence the mild pork chops and rice), I'm getting a bit of akathesia, and my body just aches. I see my therapist on Tuesday, and if the akathesia is still going on I will try and do a walk in to see my psych to go back on Congentin. I had to raise my Neurontin from 600mg a day to 900mg a day due to mood issues, and I think that's why I got the akathesia. Anyway, I'm rambling, so I'm going to cut this off.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
8/7/16 4:58 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Bouncing around. I was driving stupidly coming back from camping and was taking risks that made sense at the time. I thought I just got out of this mania thing? I am hoping that the mania is just related to the good times over the weekend and not the start of another roller coaster. I doubt it is going to be short lived--I wasn't hungry the entire trip, despite having tempting foods all around me. I even helped make some of the food and wasn't hungry. Bah.



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/7/16 2:25 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Edgy. I have been invited to a barbecue but have not been given the details yet. I have difficulty with crowds and drama, and I know that going to this will put me in the center of both. However, it is my bf's family and I don't want to appear unappreciative. So I will take my meds and go.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/7/16 1:28 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Still manic, but enjoying it. I have a to-do list a mile long (exaggerating) and the kiddos will be out of the house this afternoon, so I am going to see how much I can check off it today.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/6/16 6:33 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Tired. I did the health fair and was running all over the place. I did over 2 miles between walking there and all the walking at the fair. Great exercise though!

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/6/16 5:08 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
(((HUGS))) to the two of you having a rough day.

I am manic, baby. I did a 25 mile ride this morning and ready for more.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/6/16 3:12 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
It is only 2:00 am. I am annoyed because the teenager across the street is bouncing his basketball again. He seems to like doing it as I try to sleep. I am very tired and can't get back to sleep. I am also irritated that I let my bf talk me into leaving my home again. However, It is only a day and a half so I should adapt.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/5/16 6:13 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Annoyed. Today was my day to sleep and rest and I slept too much. I have to be up early in the morning to help out with a health fair at the clinic I volunteer at, so I just hope I can sleep tonight.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/5/16 10:33 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am feeling good and energized. Hopefully this means I have left my depressive phase and am swinging into a mania (I am off meds, so there is no level middle ground anymore). I know some people find mania phases as equally devastating or debilitating as their depression, but I absolutely love mine - things get done because I am ubber productive, I make healthy choices, and as long as my husband helps me keep my "ideas of grandeur" in check, usually no harm comes to anyone or our pocketbook.

Have a good Friday, friends. =)

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/5/16 10:15 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
A little anxious. I am expecting company this afternoon and I think that plays a big part in it.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/4/16 9:46 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Not too bad.. I am keeping busy so I don't miss Geo so much.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/4/16 8:13 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am presently feeling fairly level. I don't have a great deal of anxiety or worry. I feel neither particularly good or bad. I suppose this is close to what I have been seeking. Now that I have the experience, I am not certain what I feel about it.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
SECONDCHANCE48's Photo SECONDCHANCE48 SparkPoints: (110,001)
Fitness Minutes: (10,803)
Posts: 4,569
8/4/16 8:08 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
excellent I'm feeling better then ever right now

I'm making it one day at a time
TENACITY is the quality displayed by someone who just won't quit -- who keeps trying until they reach their goal. Anything really worth doing takes persistence, perseverance, and stubborn determination! I AM a Tenacious Jungle Tiger and these are my survival skills!!

The key is to keep company with those who uplift you, whose presence calls forth my best....

Tema


 current weight: 361.2 
 
364.8
316.1
267.4
218.7
170
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/3/16 7:19 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Peaceful. Had some stress today, but I'm trying to relax. Just had dinner and feel good. I miss Geo and just wish he would call or text me.. but I'm not stressing.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/3/16 4:41 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Anxious. Today I paid all of my bills and the process of making certain all of the details are correct make me nervous. My bf has been at my house all day and I feel I can't just do without including him.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/3/16 12:31 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Excited and anxious. We are heading on a camping trip with no electricity and no phone service. I love camping, especially in isolated areas, but the children tend to totally stress me out. I am always worried about staying on track (health wise) without SparkPeoples accountability.

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/3/16 2:48 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am enjoying the calmness of being in my own space.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/2/16 9:55 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Trying to change my point of view. Geo is not leaving, he is going on vacation. This way I focus on him coming back. This is my first night alone in a long time.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
8/2/16 11:46 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Teary. I have cried three time this morning and its only 9:00 am.

Edited by: GRBLMES at: 8/2/2016 (11:47)
~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
8/2/16 10:15 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
So far, I am feeling relatively content. Odd sensation. I am going to enjoy it for as long as it lasts.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
8/1/16 8:11 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Unconsciously sad. Geo leaves tomorrow and I don't feel it now, but I know when I get home tomorrow I'm probably going to be crying my eyes out. Doesn't help that it's TOM.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HMATTAX's Photo HMATTAX SparkPoints: (14,211)
Fitness Minutes: (5,893)
Posts: 273
7/31/16 9:27 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
In a slump. I have kept myself busy--once I managed to stay awake. I had to sleep till 830 then from 9 till 11 before my body could face the day. Looking forward to sharing time with old friends this next weekend.



 current weight: 214.0 
 
230
207.5
185
162.5
140
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (64,730)
Fitness Minutes: (54,092)
Posts: 4,664
7/31/16 2:01 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Anxious. I have a feeling that my father in law doesn't like me, and we are going over to his house for lunch. I have a good reason for thinking he doesn't like me anymore, but it's way too long of a story for here and I don't want to go into it right now.

"Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" Whitney Houston


 current weight: 231.2 
 
280
252.5
225
197.5
170
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
7/31/16 1:33 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I have been a bit weepy today. My anxiety level is up also. It is raining, and that may have something to do with it. In addition I am making the transition from a long stay at my bfs house to my own. I am overwhelmed with all of the unpacking and things which I need to do around the house. On the bright side, some time alone is a good thing for me. I will settle in with my cat and enjoy it.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
7/31/16 10:46 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Irritable and grumpy. I apparently woke up and put on my negative pants today. I am trying to combat it by focusing on the positive. Fake it until you make, right?

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
7/30/16 4:43 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am feeling a bit hyped up. I was planning on going to my own home for an extended period. My bf has been hit by a migraine so all of our plans have changed. I don't deal with sudden changes extremely well. I am trying to go with the flow of things, and realize that they will fall into place.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
GRBLMES's Photo GRBLMES SparkPoints: (6,699)
Fitness Minutes: (3,151)
Posts: 366
7/30/16 12:16 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am feeling alright today. I got up with the sun to take a long bike ride - my 26 mile race is next Saturday! I don't think we have any major plans for the rest of the day, so if my early morning or intense exercise catches up with me, I can rest as needed. =)

~GRBLMES~

Team Leader of Warrior Goddess Training Book Club
http://teams.sparkpeople.com/Warri
orGoddess


 current weight: 249.0 
 
269
239.25
209.5
179.75
150
HUNGRYWOMAN2's Photo HUNGRYWOMAN2 Posts: 12,841
7/30/16 8:00 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Anxious. My cat has another sore spot above his tail. I am hoping to get him to the vet, and crossing my fingers he won't need to be shaved again.

Teresa






~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Men's best successes come after their worst failures"

Henry Ward Beecher


 Pounds lost: 2.0 
 
0
4.25
8.5
12.75
17
Page: 1 of (98)   1 2 Next Page › Last Page »

Report Innappropriate Post

Other Living with Bipolar Disorder General Team Discussion Forum Posts

Topics: Last Post:
November Thanksgiving Chat 12/1/2015 10:23:26 AM
Constantly trying to find the magic organization 8/18/2016 5:06:30 PM
August Chat 8/4/2015 4:01:01 PM
The Thyroid/Bipolar Connections 10/29/2015 3:31:15 PM
Getting To Know Yourself and Your Illness 8/7/2016 1:16:22 PM



Thread URL: http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_messageboard_thread.asp?board=0x1831x39577060

Review our Community Guidelines


x Lose 10 Pounds by October 6! Sign up with Email Sign up with Facebook
By clicking one of the above buttons, you're indicating that you have read and agree to SparkPeople's Terms & Conditions and Privacy Policy and that you're at least 18 years of age.