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7/3/13 11:03 P

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Hello All, I can relate to parts of your stories and thank you for sharing them. I'm not having a good week right now but wanted to quickly post that reading your stories makes me feel I'm not alone and will be coming back to this group. so Thanks :) emoticon

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6/11/13 5:31 P

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Hello all,

I am new to the team so let me introduce myself, I'm Robbin, 46 years old and I live in Philadelphia, PA. I have been agoraphobic since coming to live in the city 4 years ago. I grew up in the mountains where I was surrounded by green and people I've known all my life, ones who actually smiled back when you say hello and ask about their day. Here I am surrounded by tall buildings and very suspicious and unfriendly people for the most part. I understand that people come and go in big cities and your neighbor one day can change the next. But as I said I am used to people wanting to know how you are doing.

I can barely be outdoors more than a few minutes at any given time. Unless I am medicated with Ativan. I am starting meditation and have been doing Tai Chi for a week now to help to calm my mind. I hope it works. I will be practicing visualation soon and I hope I will be able to use this when I get scared outside. I love sunshine and being around people, ( at least I used to)

Brightest Blessings

As ever and always,
Robbin

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1/27/12 4:50 P

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I hear you. I am 61 and still struggle but it has been years since I was self imprisoned in my walk -in closet raising 4 children. I think there is hope for agoraphobia and I am proof positive but it is not easy. It takes a holistic approach addressing body mind and spirit alolha



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I had several traumatic episodes when I was six that lead to me being an anxious child. I started having Panic Attacks when I was 18. I was able to get off meds after five years and lead a fairly normal life until I divorced my cheating husband and had to go back to work to support my children. I remarried and remained in the workforce until about 10 years ago when daily panics on the way to work left me stiff with fear and having difficulty moving out of the car. I became a stay at home Mom and things were OK; I had my husband or children to accompany me to the store or on errands. Then the children grew up and moved away and my husband died. I sit here in my house day after day alone. I can get out to get food and my kids stop by to visit every couple of weeks. I put a privacy fence in the back yard and that helps me get out a bit more. If I have to drive more than a few minutes I bring my dog who calms me somewhat. I'm considering a smaller dog that I can carry into places. I'm 54, so anxiety is something I've been dealing with for 48 years.

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7/10/11 4:49 A

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I was always a fearful child but in my teens I had tro deal with other traumas. I started getting panic attacks in shopping malls when my kids were small. I couldn't understand why I was so scared of everything. I developed severe agoraphobia in my 40's and just felt and feel more safe when I'm inside. But I challange myself and after realizing what toxic secrets I was holding on to and writing about it started to heal.
Don't get me wrong. I am and maybe always will have anxiety but now it is mostly about getting ready to go places. I need a lot of space time and no stress. I am about to travel the world and am not stressed about anything but getting ready to leave. I'ts very strange why this has lasted. I also take a small dose of Lexapro and that seems to prevent full on panic.Aloha



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7/6/11 7:44 P

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Agoraphobia for me started when I was 13.
Me and my family had just arrived in London England (I am from Canada) and my parents wanted to immediately go out for a walk and try and beat jet lag. I was feeling a little nauseous from the lack of sleep and eating junk food during the trip, but I unwillingly went along with them.
We stopped for a bite to eat where I picked up a hot chocolate and crusont (what was my 13 year old mind thinking). Then headed out to visit a popular store a 20 minute walk away. As we entered the store I got the WORST cramps in my stompic I had ever experienced. I immediately started looking for a washroom, but was to late and was sick all over the store.

Fast forward a few months...
Since returning home from the trip I was always afraid to go anywhere that I know didn't have constant access to the washroom, even if I didn't have to go. After an unsuccessful trip to the doctors I was told that it was an mental problem and nothing was physically wrong with me.
This is where I began generalizing my fear of needing the washroom and my 'safe zones' kept getting smaller and smaller to the point where I couldn't go further than a block without intense fear and anxiety. I also started not eating when I knew I needed to leave the house within 3 hours. I switched high schools so that I didn't need to take public transit to school, and would wake up very early to make sure I got a meal down me before I had to leave.

Fast forward once again to present (I'm now 20). Currently agoraphobia doesn't completely rule my life. I still don't eat 3 hours before going out but my anxiety and panic is starting to dissipate. I still don't take the bus or go anywhere unfamiliar comfortably, but this is huge improvement to where I was just a few years ago.

This story is getting long but PM me if you want any further details or how I started to turn by behaviors around.
Remember.. always fight the agoraphobic thoughts, no matter how difficult, being outside the house is almost always better then the loneliness that comes with contently being in your 'safe zone'

Edited by: JUST_BE1 at: 7/6/2011 (19:46)
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It was very gradual for me... around 2002 I had major health issues and my fiance of 3 years left me because he couldn't handle it. I've had multiple traumas in the past and was diagnosed with PTSD. After my health refused to get any better I slowly stopped taking the bus, stopped going to new places, stopped going places with a lot of people, stopped going places with less people, stopped going to places with less people even if I knew every one of them, and am at the point I haven't left my house unless with my bf or mother in 4 years. Won't answer the door or even get the mail unless one of them is with me.

I've had multiple counselors and therapists over the years and am seeing one now (though my bf or mother are always there with me). They keep telling me panic attacks can't hurt me and it's only fear. I have proven that wrong on multiple occasions from vomiting in public, asthma attacks, doing irrational things that have occasionally hurt myself or others, and blacking out or fainting.

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7/25/10 3:47 P

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Thank you Lollipop! I'll be around here, and PMs are always welcome.

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7/22/10 7:21 A

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Hi Nedyfay, glad you posted your experience with agoraphobia. Must have been a relief to get a diagnosis.

Tserisa, that's quite a history with agoraphobia. I hadn't known many ppl who started to experience that at such a young age. I'm impressed by your ability to accomplish so much. Hope you'll pop in to chat from time to time.

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7/21/10 7:06 P

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When I was in grade school, I started to exhibit symptoms. I missed a lot of school, I just wouldn't leave the house. I complained that my stomach hurt. I would never ever leave my mom's side. I didn't go anywhere alone.

In junior high it got worse. I wouldn't go in the front yard. I missed more school. I was still able to keep up my grades.

It came to a head in high school. I had to drop out of school at 16 because I couldn't handle leaving the house anymore.

I was completely housebound from around high school to the age of 22. I couldn't even answer the door. Just someone knocking would make me hide.

There were times I wouldn't leave my room for days at a time, for up to a month, secret forays every few days late at night to grab some food. I only left the house with my mom or sister, and rarely, missed out on vacations and so on.

I'd been in conventional therapy and on medication since I was 16 but only made vague progress. I worked very hard on my agoraphobia through horseback riding therapy starting when I was around 20 and it was slow and arduous work, but made a huge difference for me. (I am 29, almost 30 now.)

Another thing that helped was getting a heart condition I have under control. The problems with my heart turned out to be greatly increasing the frequency of my panic attacks!

I still have major issues. My circle of "safe places" has expanded, as well as my "safe people" whom I can go to less-safe places with and still feel safe. I'm actually in college, with the help of my family, medication, and the disability counselor at the school. I am able to teach therapeutic horseback riding lessons for both able-bodied people and people with disabilities.

I rarely go in the front yard, and I can't always answer the door. However, I have been able to go on walks once in a while all by myself! I even can shop at certain stores now without someone with me.

If I go off my medication, I end up cowering in a back room in the house again. I really hope to go off it some day, because it makes me gain weight, and lifestyle medications have long-term scary side effects I don't want to have to deal with down the road. However, I don't see myself functioning without it any time soon.

There are still a lot of things I can't do alone... going into the city, exercising in front of anyone (including my husband!), crowds and events like rock concerts. Sometimes I can't even handle those things with people.

I hope with time I'll do even better.

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7/20/10 3:08 A

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I am tempted to say all my life, but I think it would be more accurate to say from when I hit puberty when I was about nine years old. It was manageable for a long time, and then I hit tock bottom about two years ago and I experienced an increase. I was diagnosed about a year ago. Such a relief!

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Hi Melissa: Well thanks for the wonderful time line of your situation. You've really been through a lot. I'm so happy for you and you must be so proud you've come such a long way. That takes an enormous amount of work on yourself. Bravo!

I should look into the online courses. The last time I tried to get my grade 12 I ended up dropping out with anxiety and back problems. I'd have to see what's involved.

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I was diagnosed with it in 2000 and was homebound for the first part of that year. Then I got better and started working and was able to go back to highschool during the second part of the year (I had been having a teacher come to my house to give me my classwork and tests).

I was OK until after 9/11. I lost my job, got hired back, then quit because I had a panic attack during work, then I got a new job that was less stressful. I started having trouble with attendance at school and work starting at the end of 2001 and the beginning of 2002. I got fired from that job and quit going to school, too, and became homebound again. I was living with an abusive boyfriend at the time, too, which made everything worse and I was also having physical health problems and depression. I left him that summer and moved back in with my parents. I was severely depressed, but then started doing better towards the end of the year and was getting out again. I started taking online classes to prepare for the GED.

2003 - I got my GED and applied to college. The week before I was supposed to register for classes I got in a wreck and was temporarily in a wheelchair. My brother also was in a seperate accident and was hospitalized. After he got out of the hospital my grandmother (who lived with us) went into the hospital and she passed away. I took online classes that semester and got by with C's. I drove a little bit after I was done with physical therapy.

2004 - My other grandmother died (she was also living with us so that was hard too) and we moved to a new state and into a temporary apartment. That's when I stopped driving completely. I did get out every day to walk my dog but I did not go anywhere else. After we moved into our new house, I didn't go out for months so I was completely homebound.

2005 - was hospitalized twice due to severe drug side effects, started going to therapy after that, started driving again (just practicing in the neighborhood) Got into a new college. Most of that year was good although there was one week when I didn't leave my room.

2006- started going to a few on campus classes, continued to work on driving, started volunteering (had someone else drive me)

2007 - still working on the driving, graduated from community college, worked all summer to get myself able to drive to the university, started university that fall -- all my classes were on campus. Made myself go to some club events and Bible studies, which then lead to social events like parties and such (Bible study parties, not your typical drunken college parties)

2008 - still attending university, started working again, still working on driving to more places, will be starting an internship this fall



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Thanks for sharing that, have a great day! emoticon

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Mine started in 1986, when my father passed away, and i have never been able to deal with his death, and still cant and im 57 now.

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I started having issues with going out around 20 yrs ago. My real problems began with my MS diagnosis in 2001 and my physical limitations. I haven't been out for around 4 yrs.

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