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I still miss my Hershey so much. It has been a month and it is so hard seeing her empty bowl and bed. This hurts soooooo much. I LOVE YOU HERSHEY!!!!

I miss you so much!! I can't say your name without crying....

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I have talked to her also many times and helped her start up a new team. I loved her very much. She lives only about a half hour away from me yet we were never able to meet. She sick so often. Being on dialysis for so long to. Her spirits were down a lot and she missed her baby son deeply.

My heart cries for our loss. Gini, I will miss you, I am so sorry we never got to meet in person. You struggled for so long, my sweet friend. You are not free to do so much more than you did here on earth.

Gini...... oh G*d, I will miss you.

I am so sorry, I feel like I am being selfish for you gone and not having to suffer any more. I loved you so very much. this is really hard for me.

with love.....

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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Me too CCL.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. - Thomas Edison

After the game the king and the pawn go into the same box. - Italian Proverb

If you don't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.


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We have lost one of our own. A family member posted the death of GINITONIC on 9/2/09. She visited my Spark page occasionally to talk cats with me. I'll miss her.

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Oh Laurel, I know that birthdays and holidays are especially hard for my sister. She actually has had people tell her to get over it!

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. - Thomas Edison

After the game the king and the pawn go into the same box. - Italian Proverb

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Sheryl, like you and your niece, I know I will still feel the pain of losing my brother forever. I am coming up on six months soon and we just passed his birthday on August 27.

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I think of her often. I know she is around me a lot.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. - Thomas Edison

After the game the king and the pawn go into the same box. - Italian Proverb

If you don't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.


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I looked at her page. What a huge loss. I have a daughter that is 21 right now. sorry this had to happen. Lots of love, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

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It's been 14 years since my niece was killed, but found myself on her memorial page today. Some of the quotes and poems my sister put on there make me cry.

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Sorry you had to put her down. It is hard when you have to do that. She knows and feels your love and will be close to you. You will feel her.

Love you my friend, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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CCL she was beautiful.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. - Thomas Edison

After the game the king and the pawn go into the same box. - Italian Proverb

If you don't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.


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It doesn't compare to losing a brother or mother, but I am mourning one of my fur babies. (My avatar pic- Tarot)
Had to take her in for the final vet visit this evening. It is so hard to make that decision. Needed to make sure she knew I loved her so I held her as she passed.
Anyway, I know she's ok now. (My angel cards confirmed that.) I just miss her.

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Grieving will come in waves. Just take care of you my friend. Love ya, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I am missing my brother a lot lately. I went out to the funeral home's website and watched the video slideshow...it was so beautiful and brought me to tears. I knew it would but for once the tears feel kind of good.

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Thanks but it was a friend's daughter and yes it was amazing. Hugs, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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What a wonderful person to take the time to do that for your daughter. They say that God works in mysterious ways. That postal worker must be one of his angels. emoticon Tina

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This touched me deeply....

Thursday, August 06, 2009
Our 14 year old dog, Abbey died last month.

The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying that when Abbey got to heaven, God wouldn't recognize her, and could we send him a letter? I told her that I thought we could, so she dictated these words:

Dear God:

Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much.

I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her.

You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.

Love, Meredith


We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven...

Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps on the front of the envelope to get the letter all the way to Heaven. That afternoon, I drove Meredith to the Post office and watched her drop it in a letter box.. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet.

I told her that I was certain He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed,

'To Meredith , ' in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it.

Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, 'When a Pet Dies.' Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope.

On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:


Dear Meredith:

Abbey arrived safely in heaven.

Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away...

Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog.

Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by...

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me.

What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you.

I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much..

By the way, I'm easy to find. I am wherever there is love.

Love,
God

This is one of the kindest things I've ever experienced. I have no way to know who sent it, but there is a beautiful soul working in the dead letter office of the US Postal Service.



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Too cute. It still could have been from someone on the other side. They can make mechanical stuff do it too. Hugs, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I heard 3 knocks the other day, and I got all excited, and then a few seconds later there was more knocking and I realized it was a mechanical thing up in the ceiling. How funny is that?

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Me too. I want to experience this. Maybe we have but didn't notice it huh!

Love you all, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I was surprised at how many people have experienced this! WoW!

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. - Thomas Edison

After the game the king and the pawn go into the same box. - Italian Proverb

If you don't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.


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Thank you Sheryl, Lots of love, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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SHERYLD/1...Thanks for the web site. I checked it out it was really interesting. I guess for now I'll chock it up as someone trying to get my attention.

Thanks for the help everyone.
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Funny I googled it and there were a lot of references. This site shows that a lot of people have experienced this. terrifyingtales.blogspot.com/2008/09
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After the game the king and the pawn go into the same box. - Italian Proverb

If you don't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.


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It is usually a sign from the other side. I need to find my book of numbers by Doreen Virtue. I do not feel like someone is going to pass. I sure hope not. I will get back to this though. Hugs, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I've never heard that but I should Google it! If anything I almost wonder if it is someone that has already passed or an ANGEL!
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Love always,
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I have a question for the team. This morning as I was lying on the couch I heard 3 knocks on my picture window. (my window is 10 feet of the ground, so it couldn't have been anyone playing tricks) Any one have any ideas. I've heard that Knocks on a door means an impending death of a loved one.Thanks for the help. emoticon Tina

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That is a good question. It depends on your belief. If you believe that this is the end and nothing on the other side, then they lost out. I think most people believe that there is an afterlife.

Have a good day. Hugs, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I wonder how many people (like us) realize that our departed loved one is right there with us at the memorial service, etc?

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Yes, it is always hard to loose someone we care about. I know she was right there with you too. Was she a friend or family? Blessings, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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Had the memorial for our friend Candice this weekend. It was bitter sweet and so Candice! I'm sure she laughed and cried with us.

Starting my new position with a vengence today. I'm going to love it!

Happy Monday!!!!

Jacks

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When we lose a pet or a loved one we must move on. That is a lesson we all need to learn.

EVEN IF YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK, YOU WILL GET RUN OVER IF YOU JUST SIT THERE. WILL ROGERS

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ditto to that my friend!!

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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Love you too Jetta. It is hard to lose a pet but I wouldn't give up the joy they give us when they are alive.

EVEN IF YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK, YOU WILL GET RUN OVER IF YOU JUST SIT THERE. WILL ROGERS

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I agree Janey, he is glad you noticed too.

Love you, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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I also believe our pets sometimes come back. My dog now has a lot of the personality traits of a dog I had when I was in high school. They are two different breeds. One was a daschhound and the one I have now is a lab. He is also in his geriatric years.

EVEN IF YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK, YOU WILL GET RUN OVER IF YOU JUST SIT THERE. WILL ROGERS

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You're emoticon Jetta!

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Thanks Alice.

Bless you all my sweet friends. Much love, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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Only a short time after my dog Charlie was laid to rest my mother passed away. It was a week before her 60th birthday - and followed 10 years of suffering from cancer. I was there in her last days and and she kept saying it was time to go.

I felt that my dog had been given more dignity than my mother. It was very painful to watch her suffering in those last days. It convinced me that I had done the right thing with my beloved pet, so do not feel bad about it.

I kept telling my mother it was okay to go now. She kept saying sorry to me whenever she was momentarily lucid. I'm not sure entirely what she was being sorry for, but all mother's have regrets.

For her last 5 years, she was bedridden but she was surrounded by my brother's family all day long - 3 generations were there constantly. And it was the first time she felt connected to family she told me.

I think I had already come to terms with her passing because I believed that she was finally prepared. She had been reunited with many old friends and after the reminiscing, she said goodbye like it was the last time (and it was). I wish she did not have to suffer like that. No creature on earth should have to bear that.


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Ellen:

You're very emoticon !!! It really did make me feel better about things as I have fretted so much over those decisions to end their lives. But I knew I couldn't let them suffer any more on my account.. you know just to be there for me.

Please don't worry so much about what you say dear.. from what I've read so far of your postings you seem to have some great insight on many things.. just like our dear Jetta does!



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Alice, you don't know what that means to me! Really, when I say something like that, I'm always afraid of people's reactions...like I'm being too bossy, or know-it-all...and worry about the kind of response I'll get! So, that just affirms to me, that I need to really stop worrying about how people might react to my words (on various subjects) and just speak from my Heart.
Thanks for letting me know. You made my day!

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emoticon BABYFACE26 for what you said about not feeling guilty when having to euthanize a pet. It made me feel more at ease with my decisions on that.

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My Yoshi is a great dog and I love her dearly, but Brinkley will always have a special place in my heart. I'm doing OK with it. Thanks!!

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Sheryl, thanks for sharing your story. It is always so heartwrenching- I have sworn off having a Cat, for similar reasons. Brings back such horrible memories. Your experience sounds just awful. Hope u are healed/healing.


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Babyface, I believe that too. The only time it was really really hard was my last dog. He had three legs, and broke the toe on his only front paw. We tried so hard to fix his foot, but he kept self mutilating his toes until he would have had no toes left. He would not have had a way to walk again. He was so young, and so excited to see us when we went to hold him to put him down it was just awful. I still tear up when I think of him and his antics. I was broken hearted for a long time and swore no more dogs ever because I didn't want that hurt again. But obviously that didn't last long.

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I am always trying to persuade pet owners to let them go, when it is their time. When a dog or cat can't function in their body anymore, and when they live in pain, you are doing them the most loving favor to say goodbye to them. Animals hate to be lame. They enjoy their bodies so much. ..yes, they are relieved to be free of their crippled bodies, and be released into Spirit, where they can be free again, and free of pain...and still can be connected with you, and always will be.

I tell them, when I can, Please don't be guilty, when its time to euthanize them. You are helping them, as you would a human in the same situation.
Let them go, without feeling guilty. They are saying Thank you.


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emoticon for saying all that Jetta! You have hit upon a couple of things that I have always believed in.. that the fur friends we lose in life stay with us in spirit AND that they sometimes do come back. I swear my male cat Boo Boo is the spittin'"opposite" image so to speak of another male cat I had years ago that I had to give up to the pound due to no one taking him when I moved into a place we weren't supposed to have cats at. I always felt he didn't survive long after being adopted from there by someone else OR possibly he didn't make it out of the shelter. My Mom took Miss Kitty (my female black cat) that I had with Snowball. Anyways.. Snowball was a white cat with a partly black tail and black ears. Boo Boo is a black tuxedo cat who has a white "rabbit's" foot..LOL Boo Boo acts just like Snowball did . Does the same things he did including calling me "Momma" when he wants his can of food and he even took right to Miss Kitty when we got him as a kitten following her around and not wanting to leave her side just like Snowball did! I swear it's Snowball having come back to us!

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What a wonderful story about Charlie SUZEQEW!!!! I felt guilty as well about having to make the decision for my ferret Big Boy. He had cancer in his little tummy and he just got bigger and bigger and bigger. Until one day he couldn't walk any more. I had to bring his food to him and his water and clean him up every couple hours when he soiled himself, etc. He was always so happy to see me come round to him to take care of him and he just wouldn't give up on his own.

I still feel to this day that he knew it was time to go but he didn't want to leave me feeling sad that he was gone. He gave me a look of appreciation almost it seemed to me when I took the decision out of his "paws" and made the call to the vet. I called up one morning and they had him in within 4 hours to be euthanized. I dream about him on occasion as well from time to time.

And the coolest thing happened within a few days of Big Boy's passing. We had another sable ferret still in our brood that looked exactly like Big Boy only it was a female by the name of Silky. I swear she knew I was missing Big Boy something fierce as I would look over to the right of the cage she was in all the time after he was gone as his cage (he did not like sleeping in with the females and had his own cage)and think about Big Boy "playing dead" for me every time I came in the room so that I would come over to pick him up. Next thing I know SHE started doing this "playing dead" thing the ferrets do so I would do the same thing for her! It's like she knew I needed the cheering up and diverting of attention. NOT forgetting but to lessen the guilt I felt for having him put to sleep even tho' I knew it was the best for him so he wouldn't suffer any more.

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Laurel, how neat! That is so cool!

I have a question, I know my late husband spends time with me during the night, during my sleep. Occasionally I will remember glimpses of stuff. But usually, nothing. But, I just know he's been here, that he's around. Is it possible the memory of these visits are 'blocked' somehow? For some reason? I can accept the possibility it is better that I not remember it all, although I'd like to remember.
Is it possible that is what is happening?

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Laurel, that is too cute. I bet he was a joker huh!

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

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My brother was around last night. He knocked something off a shelf and made the phone ring. I told him thank you.

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What a cool story, thanks for sharing. Charlie is one of my favorite names. My first parakeet was Charlie and I loved him. Yeaaaaaaa for you!!!

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

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I had a dog named Charlie. We got him when I was 7 months pregnant. He had a very special relationship with my daughter. I named him Charlie because of a dream. My baby was in spirit form. She was telling me that Charlie used to look after her and that I was going to look after her now. I had to name the dog Charlie. I felt very spiritually connected as he got older - like I could hear his thoughts sometime if I looked deep into his eyes. I took a Reiki course and Charlie was getting arthritic. He loved my hands on him and we could tell he was hurting a lot for about a year. He tore his cruciate ligament and although we could have given him an operation, we knew he was sad, and in a lot of pain before he even did that. The vet euthanased him but I felt so much guilt. Until he came to me in a dream. He was bouncing around saying see I'm very happy now! It's okay. He hadn't been able to run for so long because of his leg troubles. He licked my face and told me it was okay. I'd never experienced that before with a pet. It was quite amazing. He's definitely part of our family and we still call our newest pet by his name sometimes.

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What a neat dream. Yes, it was her patting you on the head, she wanted to make sure you knew she was there. I feel that your neice will be fine. That is what I am getting at least. So please don't worry so much. Even if she did, you can't help her by worrying or ? It takes a lot of energy out of you or anyone else for that matter.

Blessings to you and your family. Hugs, Jetta

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Last night my sister visited me. As I was falling asleep I was talking to my sister (she passed almost 3 years ago)omparing the direction my life has taken with hers. The last thing I remember was telling her that I wasn't do a much better job than she did. Well a couple hours later I woke up to someone patting the top of my head. My hubby was sound asleep. At first I thought I must have dreamt it, then it happened again. I went back to sleep feeling a little better about things, until this morning I received a call from my neice (my sister's daughter) and she told me that she's being tested for cancer. She will get her lab results in about 3 days.
I still feel it was my sister that visited, but now I wonder if it was also a warning of what is to come?

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I am so glad that you had that dream. It wasn't a dream though, he came to you on the astral and was real. Dreams that seem so clear and vivid you need to take note because they are from the other side.

BLess you, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

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Hi Alice, so neat to hear about your dreams of your dog! That is so neat, if you have more I'd love to hear them!

That reminds me, I had a dream Saturday night. Before I went to sleep, I specifically asked my brother Steven who passed away last month to please come to me in a dream that night because I wanted so badly to see him. Well, he did! I was so thrilled! He hugged me for a long time and it was so real, SO real! It makes my heart soar to think about that dream.

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You have lost a many fur friends. They are still with you. I could see the one licking your hand as you slept too.

I believe that sometimes they come back to us in another body. Bless you my friend, Jetta

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I have lost several people and pets thus far in my lifetime. I was like the only child of my great aunt and uncle (who never had any kids of their own) and they passed when I was 18. I miss them alot. My Grandmother just passed away last summer and I was very close to her. I've had several pets that have passed on. My aunt's dog who I was closer to than she was .. Lucky.. passed away when I was 10. My dog who was my baby ..Frisco.. had stomach cancer and had to be put to sleep when I was 23. We've had several ferrets over the years.. the most recent being Big Boy and Bandit who both had passed on in the last year. I had another dog that passed away almost 10 years ago that in the last few weeks I've kept having dreams about so intensely that I wake up thinking SHE'S the one who woke me up by whining and licking my face or hand.

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Of coarse it works Cath. Thanks for the healing. No it is NOT a good thing to try to analyze it before you move it out of you. It will just give it more of a chance to stay with you or even be painful. It is HIS stuff not yours so you don't need it inside you. You can blow roses as you are driving, on the pot, walking or just before you go to sleep. You don't have to be meditating to do the roses.

Keep up the good work. It is so well worth it. Hugs, Jetta

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MJETTA - I do the rose thing, well I'm working on doing the rose, It's sort of intermittent, not consistent. Would it be harmful for me to hold his energy, try to understand it more, before I blow it up? Or maybe that won't work at all?

By the way, you're okay after the surgery? All is well? I hadn't realized you'd had surgery, I've sent healing/caring to you. Hope that works.
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Cath, yes you are right. If you use the tools that I set up here it will help you get his energy out of you. Powerful tool to use a sticky rose and gather up all his energy, move it out of you and blow it up.

I appreciate you too. Hugs, Jetta

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IMJETTA - So, I'm thinking/feeling he is experiencing remorse. I think that is part of why all of that about his mother hit me so hard, it wasn't just my feelings. His feelings were in there, too. Any idea if that is correct or am I trying to justify? Sure appreciate you, this thread and this site! All are wonderful! and then some.

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Cath, thanks for sharing your story. Don't let ANYONE tell you different that he is not with you all the time. We carry on with us what we have not overcomed in this life. Still have all the same battles and feelings as we did on earth. It is just harder to try to deal with them or "fix" them without an earthly body. They do, it is just slower.

If you are a good person you will be a good person on the other side. If you are a drunk here, you are a drunk over there etc. Just have to heal and work on things.

Sorry, I haven't seen this post, I have been so busy trying to catch up since my surgery.

Love you gusy, Jetta

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IMJETTA - I, too, have sensed that Jack is having trouble with the result of not limiting or boundaries with his overly dependant mother. But, I thought I must be wrong, I had presumed once you are in spirit like that you are beyond that sort of emotional roller coastering. Wrong? or sort of? Anyway, one of us is sort of feeding off the other, I think. Any sense of which way it goes? I have my hunch, what do you think?

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It's too bad we can't say it like it is, or like we believe it to be. We seem to have to stick a social filter on the way we word things when we talk about our experiences with our departed loved ones, if we even talk about the experiences at all. I have told my mom some of my experiences, and she's more open-minded than I thought. As for friends, most of them know how I feel too and respect that.

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The one I have heard is: "oh, you poor dear, why don't you know, when you dream about him, it's just because you miss him so much. You're just grieving"

And, I think, clearly you've never experienced this. It's different. Probably should call it something different than visiting in a dream. That is what it is and sort of what it isn't. Know what I mean?

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Yes and this is definitely a good place to share. I don't feel that I have very many people I can talk to about these things in "real life," so being able to come on here is a great comfort. I surround myself with like-minded people as much as possible, but sometimes it is hard to find them!

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Thank you for all of the warm welcome wishes, I appreciate them all.

What an incredible team, I am pleased to have discovered you! I have enjoyed reading all of the posts, learning of the experiences we have in common. Here's mine:

Jack and I began dating when I was 16, he was 17. From the beginning, I knew he was the person I would build my life with. It took Jack a little longer and sometimes I think, at least in the beginning, it was easier to just go along for the ride. We married when I was 20, just after I graduated as an LPN. We built a great life for ourselves, with all of the usual peaks and valleys, joy and despair. Through the course of our marriage, we went to marriage counseling at three different times. Each time we were able to resolve whatever had threatened to tear us apart and emerge even stronger. We had just completed our third, we'd been in therapy for almost a year, when Jack was diagnosed with lung cancer. Not just lung cancer, but cancer that had spread to his liver as well as the chest cavity. Jack had always said he would not grow old, he wanted to die young. He was right. I had always known I would outlive him, because of smoking and drinking, but I didn't expect it to happen quite so young. I was 47, he was 48. In 13 days, it will be the 7th anniversary of his death.

I'm not sure if it was because we 'grew up' together or if our relationship was unusual, but we absolutely were extensions of each other. So much a part of each other, he remains an integral part of who I am.

A few days after his death, after all family and guests had returned to life, I was cleaning the bathroom. While scrubbing the sink, I glanced at the mirror. Jack was standing behind me. It was wonderful knowing he was there. Almost immediately, and to this day, Jack communicates with me with music; sometimes this is quite comforting and other times it can reduce me to tears. He also leaves coins all over, especially if I am struggling with something, be it about him/grief or something else.

Several times, he has come to me in dreams. I suspect he visits me like this more than I remember, I'm sure there is a protective reason why I don't remember each visit. He has taken me flying with him, which was the most intense experience I have ever lived. Phenomenal. One time I woke up and he was in bed with me. Which is very cool except a few years ago I married his best friend from high school. At my confusion, I was told it's okay, just every now and again, Jack needs to hold me. He comes to my children (2 sons now ages 29 and 22) in dreams. We are all very open in talking about Jack and sharing these things. His death is never a forbidden subject. Ever.

So, that's my story. It excites me the idea of talking about this more with people other than family. I would like to grow into the next stage and be more aware than I am now. I look forward to that, it brings a sense of peace.

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thanks for sharing your dream, laurel. Sounds like it could be a message from the other side.

Take good care, hon.
Ellen

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