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10/26/08 10:06 P

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I have always attracted energies to myself. It's hard to remember many specific instances from my childhood, as both my brother and I have very few childhood memories....he actually can't remember anything from before he was like 10.

My parents never abused us, but my dad struggles with depression, and he was hard to be around, as I would pick up on his energy. And, he says some crazy things sometimes, things that aren't really lies, but they are not truth either...they are from some odd place in his mind, where he has trapped himself.

I remember once, my brother crying, and I went in his room to see what was wrong. We had just moved into the house where my parents still live. I asked him what was wrong. He said there was a red-haired man with a beard, wearing black and riding a bicycle....like an old-fashioned 1900s bicycle. He said the man was like the devil. I looked out his window and saw the man, too, but we had no idea at the time that no one else could see him. My brother also told me the devil talked to him many times, and wanted him to join him. He said not to tell anyone. I believed him, and I still believe that my brother is a much stronger empath than I am.

Most of what happens to me is I tend to "fry" electronics, or at least make them screwy. I have always done this. And recently, I realized I can "see" energy fields....electric and spiritual.

Growing up, we had a few incidents, but I don't remember anything too serious. My parents kept a close eye on us, I think they were afraid of us getting them in trouble, as we tended to live in small, conservative towns that were very narrow-minded. I still to this day don't know exactly how much they know about us.

Anyway, I had forgotten about alot of this until I befriended the man who is now my husband. It was my 13th birthday. A former friend of ours threw me a party. It was so crowded....she knew I hated crowds, but she wanted a big dance party with boys, so that is what I got. I ran behind a big tree in the back yard to hide, and I just about ran over my dh, who was 15 at the time. We had hung out a little, but never talked. We ended up having a long, wonderful conversation that night...we were gone so long they came looking for us. He was just so nice, the sweetest person I had ever met, and he just glowed with this white light....I don't actually see colored auras, but depending on the energy of the individual, I can see lights and "halos" in a strong, gifted person. Well, we became best friends, and fell in love a couple years later. Except for these terrible recurring nightmares, I had totally cut my gifts out of my life. But, the strength of his spiritual energy would inadvertantly bring things to the surface.

During high school, I began thinking I was a witch. I began hanging out with my now BIL's ex-girlfriend who was a very bad Wiccan (did not practice what she preached). She would spew curses and perform all kinds of spells for personal gain. She basically thought she owned the world, because of her "special, exclusive powers." She convinced me I was a witch, too, and tried to get me to help her. She made think that God could never love me, but her deities could. This is when I developed a nasty, hidden temper...an inner rage I still seek to calm sometimes. This is also when I developed an active will and I have to watch myself....I have a strong temptation to seek "justice" on wrongdoers by affecting their energy fields or using my gifts offensively. This is not for me to judge: God will deal with them.

In 2007, I lost my grandmother. She had gifts, too, but she had used them to her own selfish ends. She had my father to tell me many things about my gifts and our tribe, from the Metis people, after her funeral. Much of what he said to me was the honest truth, but she wanted to warp it. She was desparate for some kind of immortality here on earth, and for some reason, I guess she thought she would find it in me, that I would continue whatever "work" she had been doing. The experiences I had struggling with her energy right after the funeral and wake, really opened me up. I was away from my dh during this time, and apparently he had felt something was wrong and worried about me, and missed me a great deal. Anyway, long story short, something in one or both of our energies overcame my birth control pill, and I ended up pregnant with Wesley. He has a very strong spiritual energy, and I was sick with him every day. I felt like I was swimming in a sea of light and energy, it made me nauseous. And, he was so powerful, he would kick and kick, he bruised and split my ab muscles in several places. He also reawakened all my gifts. I had vivid visions and almost prophetic dreams during the pregnancy. After a smooth, perfect, textbook delivery, I started having horrible, horrible nightmares again. This lasted until I met a friend on here that started talking to me about my gifts, how I needed to acknowledge them to rid myself of the nightmares, and how my gifts were not evil, and I was not evil or a witch or anything, no matter what any of my ancestors did or what anyone else said.

As I have begun opening up and accepting myself, I've realized I am continually drawn to healing. I'm hoping to unlock my potential to heal others, as it is the most rewarding work I have ever done. I would also like to help my dh see his energy and potential so he can find the same freedom in acceptance.

And I beyond believe you all about the pre-natal experiences....I felt Wesley's soul in my body 2 weeks before I knew I was pregnant. And he and I communicated empathically all through the pregnancy....I visualized him coming on his due date, after my semester of school was finished...He came out exactly 48 hours after I walked out of my last final.

Lord, grant me patience, because you grant me strength, I'll end up killing people.



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6/22/08 5:57 P

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wow powerful story Jetta about the prenatal experience... which I totally believe is possible... I lost two babies at 5 months gestation... and I so remember to the moment when their souls left my body... I even called the dr to report that I had lost the babies... but the dr at first told me to just stay home and all would be alright... then delivery/labor pains occur... so I went to the hospital to deliver the babies... BUT I knew when their souls had left several days before my body delivered them...

the Royal Consort was abused as a child and thankfully has stopped the cycle... he has repressed a lot of his energy... I wasn't abused--in fact I was spoiled rotten as well as shaped appropriately...

But the very spiritual/supernatural was not discussed... which I always thought funny because of so many of the extended families deep belief in Christ=- and if one believes in Christ--how can one deny supernatural??? oh well that is another story... blessings ya'll emoticon

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6/22/08 4:43 P

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WOW, that is amazing. Love reading your stories. Yes, almost every psychic I know and I know some really good ones, have been severely abused as a child. It is what gets us to turn to us inside. Or leave the body watching from above. I know Sylvia Browne was severely abused as a child. I know another one who was as well who is from LA and travels around doing readings for Actors.

I started leaving my body during the abuse since I was an infant. I even left my body while I was in the womb and watched my uncle try to kill me in my mom's tummy in which I was born way too early. she kept me in a shoe box. That is my eyes never developed. But it was really interresting when I remembered being out of the womb just hovering over them seeing everything so clear and fully knowing what was happening.

I don't know why I am saying this, don't know if it would help any of you. We all have the gifts and powers to work and see energy.

Keep sharing, we each help each other grow and understand. Hugs, Jetta


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6/22/08 2:48 P

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I found your paragraph about childen with gifts and abuse interesting. Never related one with the other until I read that. Answers a few questions.

I have always known. My parents were distraught over my "invisible" friends. I would open doors for them, set places for them at the table, etc. I had a lot of "invisible" pets, too. Still do. But there reached a point where I remember I knew I couldn't have them anymore - so it was my secret until recently when my husband allowed me talk about it all and to be open. I could always hear, see, smell, feel, sense others around me. One "friend" in particular always comforted me when bad things happened to me as a kid.

I dream of people (it's a certain kind of dream) right before they die. It's more of a coming to tell me goodbye sort of thing - nothing scary, but I know what it means.

Sometimes when I am in bed, I can feel someone sit on the bed, or feel a hand brush my face kind of thing. Freaked me out as a kid. Now spirits gather all the time - even in my car when I drive, and some nights I can hear them almost like I am having a party of some kind. All kinds of talking. When I am sick or over tired, it's worse. I'm more receptive then, I guess - too sick or tired to tune it out. I also hear a lot of music at night. (nothing is on.)

I can tell you the song on the radio before you turn it on, and I can tell who is on the phone before you answer. I never get lost - I have a built in GPS system. I have deju vu often.

Discovered a few short years back that I am an empath, which explained a lot of depression I was having. I collect emotions. Now that I recognize I'm a dumping ground for other people, I have learned to cleanse myself often. I have to be careful that I am not absorbed in these negative energies.

When one of our beloved pets was ill. I discovered I could relieve her misery for a short time through touch. It was draining, but I think I could possibly have a gift of healing that needs to be developed further. It could have been wishful thinking, because I wanted her to be better so badly.

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Thank you so much for sharing!!! emoticon

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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6/22/08 12:35 P

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greetings.. this is a neat question because I haven't really traced my history...
My first major event was a very distinct memory of me at age 18 months-sitting on the knees of my great-grandfather while he showed me his pocket watch... and I experienced an out-of-body event---what I mean is I saw me looking at the watch, I saw my outfit (which there is no picture of ie, I had no other visual info yet my mother confirmed that I had such an outfit), I saw my hands playing with the watch... and while playing with the watch, I 'saw' the events of my great-grandfather's life....

then I had an event at age 6 where the 'devil' and 'Jesus' argued about my soul... It was real and I saw it...

then I remember feeling the unspoken energies of family etc... I remembering being able to sense evil as well as good... I never talked about these events...

I began to understand the meanings of dreams that people casually told...

then I as a young adult I attended a chruch where the congregation was primarily all of the psychologists, psych-docs, therapist etc in a large, university town... and one day a class about dreams was offered and I went...

Geographically, I have had limited opportunities to develop my 'energies'.... it is only now that I am beginning to recognize and acknowledge such energies... It does seem that I have been able to channel my energies into my work as a speech-language pathologist... I love working with those who communicate on a totally different plane than the mainstream...

NOW, I have found sparkpeople as a medium to explore my energies while improving my container's health... blessings emoticon

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6/22/08 11:47 A

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OK, I will start, I had a reading about 10 years ago from a lady that my T had told me about. She sparked some things in me that I never felt before. She told me that I had the power to heal a whole contintent if I wanted to.

I started taking classes at a local Clairovoyant school about 7 or 8 years ago. I had a reading from a teacher from a class I took and she told me that I really needed Psychic tools and that it would really help my circumstances.

That is what started me in it. I could never get enough. Even now, I can't learn and grow enough. I know I was psychic growing up, very early I had to sence when there were people around. I was born almost blind so I never could see what was going on. I only could see with my senses. Smell, feeling, 6th sense mostly. To save me and try to prepare me for the rituals I went through.

I know many good psychics were severely abused as children. I know many who have. That is what taught us to leave our bodies and what we could control with our minds.

I am now a teacher at the school I went to. I want to help others find what I have found in this work. You all have abilities, some more than others and each in a different way.

That is what started me on this path.

Love and hugs, Jetta

Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
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What brought you to this energy work? Was there something that happened to open your eyes to your 6th sense? Did you always know you were psychic or knew something was there? What turned this part of you on?


Pleae share with us your story!!


Blessings & Love, Jetta :-)

Your every loving act, thought & feeling blesses everyone everywhere... every time you smile, you are a channel for more love and beauty to come thru you and into our world.

I LOVE YOU!!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVQJPeRwKek&
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