Today I was reading Jeremiah chapter 2 and 3 and something stuck me that I just had to share. In these chapters Jeremiah is talking to Judah. They have been a rebellious and idolatrous people who, despite God's deliverance from Egypt and provisions throughout their lives, have turned their backs on the one true God to worship god's of their own choosing. In these chapters Jeremiah is imploring them to repent of their sins and turn back to the one true God who promises to deliver them.
This has so much application to my life! To begin with Judah was riding the fence. They were both turning to their own gods, but when trouble arises they turned back to the one true God. This is me! This is why I have struggled so long. I, too, am riding the fence. I profess the one true God, yet decide to "tweak" things (just a little) to make them easier for me. I am in essence making a god in my own image, idolatry. God had created in me the desire to follow Him and bring Him glory by my eating and abstaining from soda. YET, I continue to follow him half-heartedly only to fail and then run back to Him in tears.
It occurred to me that although I am doing "better" then I use to be, I am still failing. God doesn't demand our best shot at something. He demands utter obedience. As humans I know that is impossible, but God does promise that we can have some degree of success if with lean on Him and allow Him to work through us.
My point is that I am still not being obedient when I give things my "best shot". It's really a cop out for me to say "well, I tried, but being obedient must just not be in the cards for me". If I were to tell my hubby that I will give it my best shot at being faithful, that just doesn't seem to mean a lot.
So I need to strive each moment to keep God's Word EXACTLY how he wants it kept. I must watch out for my tendencies to "tweak" things a little and lean on Him, knowing that he has a far better plan for me.
I have also gotten into this weird cycle of thinking about TLT. Since, it has been the only way that I have lost weight easily and successfully, I elevated it to a position that it does not belong. I began to subtly think that if I was not following TLT that I must be being disobedient to the Lord. TLT is a fabulous and fantastic TOOL that is God exalting, BUT it is NOT the only way to lose weight and cling to God.
Reading these chapters has shown me that it all about my heart. Why TLT works is because it takes the focus off of you and puts it onto God. It exposes your heart and your sin against a Holy and perfect God. It takes away all the chances to "tweak" things and pushes you to total obedience.
Here, I was giving the program all the credit for helping me lose weight. In reality, it was my obedience to God that was causing the change in my life. So, I am no longer going to beat myself up if I am not doing the TLT fast/eat program. It was a great program and thank God for it, but God is so big he can work ANY way as long as I am obedient to Him.
God Bless you all!
| Pounds lost: 23.6