My husband's work has him traveling a lot, he keeps telling me it will get better. Last summer, he didn't work for the company yet, but they spent 4 solid months out of town. This spring and summer he's traveled on average 2 weeks out of every month.
We've been TTC #1 for about 15 months. The first year went by with limited cycles due to PCOS. For the last 3 months I've been on metformin. It's helping with the cycles. But my husband's job is now interfering. The timing is always off. The first cycle we were just outside of the timing. The next cycle he was on a job completely obliterating any chance. And today we found out that he's got a trip scheduled that'll kill our timing again for this coming month.
I'm so frustrated with everything. I'm so disappointed. Even if we can get in the same state at the right time, it's still not a for sure thing to get pregnant. In 3 months I'm supposed to go to the back to the doctor and the plan of action is that if I'm not pregnant by that time, I'm supposed to go see an infertility specialist. But it's a little difficult to go in there and say that we haven't been able to actually TTC because of the work schedule.
My husband also said that the reason why he has to travel so much right now is that he's only replaceable by the owner who obviously has a lot to do to keep the company running, or the lead electrical engineer (it's just not a very big company right now). And the lead engineer isn't doing field work right now because she's 5 months pregnant.
Frustrated. Why are we even doing all of this? Why? He says it will get better, but I'm not seeing any of this letting up. I miss my husband. I want to be able to start a family with him. Maybe I just need to learn to accept things as they are.
I'm just so frustrated and disappointed right now. It is what it is. I can't do anything about it. If it's meant to be, then it'll happen. If not, then I have to accept that.
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
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